Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, but I'd love to use Sesshoumaru for a day… hmmmmmmm pretty hair….

Many things have happened to me over the years. More things than a normal person would go through, because I, Higurashi Kagome, have been totally screwed by the gods that be. The gods just pull my little strings and make me dance, I swear just for kicks they added a disco ball and some strobe lights. On top of that I happen to be the worst dancer you will ever see, running around killing demons kind of ruins your chances to practice dancing and normal girl things like that.

But I digress, I should start my story.

You all may have heard my story up until this point, and the sad part is that where I need to start telling my story I don't even remember. It was completely erased from my memory.

But I had Souta fill me in when I saw him again. It was a little scary hearing it from his mouth, I could tell at once point it had frightened him beyond belief. But I cannot leave this part out, as it explains a little about why I ended up where I did.

It hurts me thinking about what I had done, and that I can't remember what happened.

What Souta gained... I'm not so certain that it was worth it, his eyes… he had lost an innocence about him. I'm still not sure what it is, but… He has these abilities.

Needless to say he helped me see what I had done. Through his eyes.

When he came to me, he told me he would show me, and pressed his hand against my head, and I saw those damn strobe lights. As those faded, I saw what Souta had seen when he approached the well that morning.

I was slamming my fists down in the dirt, my tears and blood were splattering everywhere.

"Let me through!" The gut wrenching cry, I still can't believe that came from me. The fierce emotions that had emerged from me were unbelievable, as I could feel what Souta was feeling. My powers were flaring as I slammed my fists over and over into the dirt.

"NO! Let me through! Let me through! Let me through!" Each sentence punctuated with one of my fists. Blood was flowing from my delicate hands and yet as I looked through Souta's eyes, I did not seem to care.

"Kagome?" Souta had wandered up to the lip of the well, not touching the pink aura that ascended from the well like a beacon. Souta shook as he wondered what he should do for me. Never before had Souta felt such anguish coming from one person, such desperation. "Kagome what happened? Why can't you go back?" Souta wondered how long I had been like this.

Souta's voice didn't even stir me from my frantic attempt to cross the well's barrier. I had ceased ordering the well to let me through. Instead I had resorted to begging.

"Please don't do this! Let me go back! I need to go back!" My hands did not look like hands anymore, they were horrible, how did I not feel that pain? My poor hands were covered with blood, skin torn in so many places from digging and striking the earth. My miko energy flowed from me like never before, tainting the well's essence with my own desires.

With the amazing miko powers flowing into the well's own magical aura, I had continued begging, "Please! Let me go to where I'm needed!" That final unnatural roar that came from me ignited a inconceivable surge of raw power.

Souta had been scared, and had tried to shield his eyes from the bright purple explosion that came bursting out, but he had felt it all the way into his bones. He had known what was happening as he acquired his new gifts., the two magical energies colliding with his own aura and giving him a sight he had never had before. Souta then collapsed to his knees.

Souta understood.

The well had given me what I begged for at that moment when I had unintentionally merged my magical energies with the well's own. Yet it hadn't. I was tainted by my selfish desire to go back, and so my aura had tainted the well.

Souta now knew that tainted wishes never went the way they were intended to.

And the last thing Souta showed me from his memory wasn't really shown at all, I felt his eyelids open and saw nothing.

It was because of me… it was all my fault.

Souta had gone blind.

I'm listening to disco.

I don't know why.