The music began to play.. I sat down on the cold wooden stool in the middle of the pitch black stage only two lights shining down on me. I began to sing into the mic in front of me..the audience was dead silence it like they knew what i was singing about...

Did you know when you go It's the perfect ending To the bad day I was just beginning When you go all I know is You're my favorite mistake

I saw the dark outline of him standing in the back of the crowed audience.

I could see him growing angry; who knew excaly what I was singing about.

So I kept singing.

Your friends are sorry for me They watch you pretend to adore me But I'm no fool to this game

Now here comes your secret lover She'd be unlike any other Until your guilt goes up in flames

Did you know when you go It's the perfect ending To the bad day I was just beginning When you go all I know is You're my favorite mistake

You're my favorite mistake

Well maybe nothin' lasts forever Even when you stay together I don't need forever after It's your laughter won't let me go So I'm holding on this way

Did you know, could you tell You were the only one That I ever loved Now everything's so wrong

Did you see me walking by?
Did it ever make you cry?

You're my favorite mistake You're my favorite mistake You're my favorite mistake

When the song was over I saw his face as the lights came on, his face was full of angry, his eyes were flaming with hate. I watched him as he walked out,throwing a chair to the wall and slaming the door.

Did he really b hate /b me?

Ok rewind!...28th of January.

Me Darius and Liam were all sitting in big Ds office disscusing what was my 3rd album going to be about, and I was tired sitting in his office for three hours straight..his golden wall and the bright lights were irritating the heck out of my eyes soo I couldnt take it I wouldnt ! I cant go back to normal..not after that night! Tommy crushed me, my inspriation is b gone /b...

" D, I am sorry ok I can't think of anything!" I spoke in an upset voice, I was on the verge of tears and I didnt want to let slip.. " I just I cant, not without ." I couldnt say his name if I did I would cry ... in front of Darius then he'll know.
" I have to go" I said quickly rushing out until a heavy hand placed its self beyond my soulder. I quickly turned to face and irritated Liam, "listen little miss drama queen its been almost a year now , face it! Tommy is not coming back!" said Liam.

His words penetrated through me -slowly..

My eyes were watering with salty tears.I didnt want him to see me cry, I wouldn't.

"ok" I choked out, before grabing my black leather bag and rushing out to my car.

When I got in my car, the tears spilled out..I grasped the stering turning out of the parking lot into road not knowing where I was going ..but I knew I couldnt stay here.

I drove and drove,it felt like I have been driving for days. Day became night and I tired and weak. So I just decide to turn around and go home.

1 hour later and I was finally home. I walked up the steps to my apartment, when something caught my ear..moans came from behind the door of my apartment. I quickly shoved the key in the door. I dropped the key, and slamed the door, but they probably didnt hear there probably lost in there moans. betrayed,hurt,angry.." How could she?" I spoke quitly to my self.
My eyes filled up with tears..but I wouldnt cry I am never going to cry..not over him.. I ran, ran and ran..no destination whatsoever. I am so sick of them god! Tommy was I anything to you..memories flash through my mine as I sat on the bench to my favorite think place. It was 1:46 on th 29th on January. The day,the aniversty of Tommy leaving me?...but was he only leaving me?

I sat on the bench for a while, I check my cellphone it was 2:34am. I punch in some numbers in my cell and a fimilar vocie came through the phone.

"Eric?" I asked in a weak tired tone.

"Jude?" he questioned back.

"yup its me,Did I wake you?" I asked.Then sniffled,wiping away my tears.

" Hey, Jude why are you calling soo late? Is something wrong?" He asked in a concerned.

" Wanna be my boyfriend?" I asked him immeditly after he was done talking.

silence.

"Eric?"

" Yeah,sure Jude." he replied cheerfuly.

"great" I said a smiling spreading across my face. " Met me at the studio tommorrow morning?"

"Yeah see ya!" then he hung up.

I closed my phone. Boy Tommy is going to get it tommorrow. I though to myself then shoved my phone back in my bag and ran back to my apartment. When I got there I pressed my ear up to the door .No moans. I opend the door, and walked in.

"Sadie?" I called out.

no answer..So I just change into a pair of sweatpants and a black pink floyd t shirt and layed on the couch watching tv until I fell asleep. thinking about tommorrow.

cant wait!