A/N: Here's a quickie drabble set – and my first drabble attempt. Ever. Magnus/Alec, of course. And yes, I love to make my favorites suffer. =K The more I love the person, the more pain I inflict upon them. 8D
Anyway, this was inspired by the song Better Than Drugs by Skillet. I think it really fits the Magnus/Alec ship – search it on YouTube, maybe? – and I'll be using it for a inspiration in a future oneshot. Don't eat me for the suckishness of t3h drabble, I don't own anything, yadda yadda yadda. Don't know how common the matching beginnings and endings are – I don't read all that many drabbles – but this is my drabble, dammit! I make the rules.
Magnus
Intoxication.
Shameful and bizarre as it sounds, that's the only word I can find that seems to fit Alec's effect on me.
It's not just his scent or anything in that vein I thrive off of – though that is a big part of it – it's him. I can see him drift away into his own fantasy whenever he's with me. I'm definitely not blind to his lies, or the forged love in his kisses. Oh, I see it all. Hear it. Feel it. But it doesn't matter.
Alec could tell me however many lies he wants to force out. He could be the most fake lover ever – knock me down, then set me up again, only to beat me to the ground once more. He could tell me he hated me. He could tell me he loved me. He could fall for any person under the stars. But one thing will never, ever change.
He'll always be my Alec. My drug, only better.
Alec
Intoxication.
That's what the Lie is to me, really. Just a way to get away from the fucked up reality that's somehow managed to befall me.
That's what I call my thing – not relationship, "thing" – with Magnus. The Lie. Why not? I know it's a lie. He knows it's a lie. Anyone in on the whole situation probably knows it's a lie.
But, by the Angel, it's an addictive lie.
I sometimes pretend that I'm with Jace… more than sometimes. It's Jace, I tell myself. Jace is holding me, touching me, kissing me with that insane amount of undiluted love and lust that mix together astonishingly nicely.
I know that Magnus knows.
But it doesn't matter. The Lie won't keep me alive, but it's the closest I can get to perfect.
Just my kind of drug… only better.