We had never met before. But the moment we locked eyes, speaking wasn't necessary. That blonde haired blue eyed girl was a true beauty. She was the perfect example of how a goddess should look. Our eye contact didn't lasted longer than thirty seconds, but that moment I felt she knew everything about me. From that moment I couldn't forget her. I never questioned myself or my sexuality before but meeting her changed everything I knew. I guess it was written in the stars that our paths crossed.
The second time I saw her was in my new dorm. She just happened to be my new roommate. Needless to say that when I saw her there, I was shocked and speechless. I couldn't even introduce myself or say a word. Luckily for me she acted the same as I did. We were both standing there in our room, staring at each other without saying a word. It wasn't necessary to speak as our eyes and hearts did the talking. I didn't know this girl, yet in that moment I felt that I knew everything about her. Later she told me she felt the same. After what felt like hours, but what in reality was only twenty minutes we broke our eye contact.
She told me her name was Jessica. That was the only thing she said, her name. Her voice was soft and sweet. I still couldn't talk. Overwhelmed by her presence I just stood there. I couldn't think anymore. The only thought that flowed through my mind was Jessica. And how it was possible that this beautiful perfect girl was my roommate for an entire year.
Without speaking we both started unpack. I was confused but never uncomfortable. How could this girl have such an impact on me? I needed some fresh air , but I didn't want to leave her. It was like she could feel what I thought. She walked to me and linked arms with me, and without speaking she guided me out the door. Both strangers to this area we ended up in Barden Park. We sat together on one of the benches. She wrapped her arms around me from behind me. We sat there for an eternity, still not talking.
When it got darker we headed back to our dorm. It was like our hearts and minds were one, because without saying anything we both changed in our pajamas. She climbed in her bed. She just looked at me and waited for me to join her in her bed. I still don't know till this day why I accepted her silent invitation to lie next to her, but I did. I rested my head on her shoulder and finally I found my words. Or actually one word, my own name.
The second time I heard her voice was the next day when she sang. I can't remember what song it was, but I still can feel the goose bumps she gave me that day. Her voice clear and fragile like an angel made me cry. After I dried my tears, I harmonized with her. Our voices blended together and matched perfectly. We both auditioned for the Bella's and we were accepted.
Now fifteen years later we are still as close as that first day we met. Through the years we talked more with each other, but we still don't find it necessary to do. One look at each other is still enough for us. We never questioned, we just accepted it. It's a special bond between us that we share since the first time we saw each other. It is something that drove our fellow Bella's crazy. They couldn't understand why. And to be honest till this day we don't either. I just know that she is my partner, my soul mate and the love of my life. And I know for a fact she feels the same way.
Tomorrow she will be my wife. Thinking of her when she will be wearing a wedding dress and walking down the aisle on our song makes me feel so lucky. Knowing that she will be mine for good after tomorrow brings me so much joy. Not knowing what our future brings excites me, but knowing that my future will be with her by my side calms me. It is enough to know that she will be there for me. I still can't believe that this incredibly beautiful and smart woman agreed to be my wife.
I fall asleep with only one word in my thoughts. Jessica.