A/N: Hi, this is a songfic which takes place after Bombshells. I've made some changes thanks to the fabulous JessicaClackum who helped me with some corrections. For people who have this story on alert I just changed some grammar, lay-out mistakes. So nothing new.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything House, M.D. belongs to the creators and the song 'Howcanyousleep' belongs to Hooverphonic. The quotes between ~ from the song.

How can you sleep tonight?

~ You know I make mistakes, I surround you with chaos when all you need is a break ~

Gregory House was miserable. One can argue that he has been miserable ever since the infarction but this was different. This was so much more painful. It's been three days since the break-up and the night he lost the one woman who seemed to understand and appreciate his real self. He hasn't been sober since that night.

"Hey bartender, give me another one will you?"

"Don't you think you have had enough?"

"What are you, my therapist? I can decide for my own if I've had enough. Now give me another beer."

"Fine, but I'm taking your car keys. You aren't driving."

"Yeah, yeah whatever helps you sleep at night."

~So we argue a little and we fight a bit more. Baby, how can you sleep tonight? ~

Lisa Cuddy was miserable. Everything had been going great... well...as great it could go in a relationship with House. That is, until he decided to go back on that damned Vicodin. He was doing so well without it. When she discovered that House took Vicodin again she was so angry and sad. She thought to herself, Oh House why, why did you do it? Why throw away all of your hard work?

*Flashback*

How could he? How could he go back on Vicodin? Don't I...don't we mean more to him?

Lisa walked to her car with only one destination, House's apartment.

"You don't take Vicodin because you're scared. You take it so you won't feel pain. Everything you've ever done is to avoid pain, keeping everybody at arm's length so no one can hurt you. Pain happens when you care. You can't love someone without making yourself open to their problems, their fears. And you're not willing to do that."

*End of flashback*

She still meant everything she said but at that moment he'd looked so fragile, like his world had just shattered into a million pieces. Sudden chills captured her body as she recalls his expression when she ended things. Fragile isn't a word one would associate with House. Jerk yes, but never fragile.

~ When the pain gets too much, you suddenly close the door.

You like things perfect, nothing can be out of place~

Did I make a mistake? Was I too harsh? Lisa didn't know anymore. The only thing she knew was she hurt badly. She's the first one to admit that House could be a bastard at times but when it was just the two of them alone, he was perfect in his own House-ian way.

~ We fight a bit more and ended up in tears~

There's nothing more she can do. She can't take him back, he hurt her too much. Despite the fact that he took the Vicodin because he couldn't deal with the possibility that she was dying, she still felt betrayed. She hears the voice of reason in her head saying, do you think House wanted to go back on drugs? You've been selfish thinking you're the only one who go thurt. House hasn't been at the hospital since that night. Who knows what he did to himself. You're responsible Lisa!

Suddenly she cries out, "NO! NO! I'm not, I can't be..."

*Flashback*

"I came to be with you. I can do better."

"No. No. No. No. Don't. Don't. Please don't."

*End of Flashback*

She thinks, Oh my god, what have I done? I've practically pushed him further intoself-destruction. We're both messed up, it's no wonder we fit perfectly together. No! I have to stop feeling sorry for myself. I'm going to find House and we're going to have a talk even if I have to physically restrain him.

Lisa got up from her couch and grabbed her car keys. She knew what she had to do and took deep breaths to convince herself she could do it. She drove until she met the red light at the end of the street. As the light turned green, she was in deep thought about what she would say to House when she found him.

She was so deep in thought she never noticed the truck heading towards her.

~Baby, how can you sleep tonight? Darling, how can you sleep tonight? ~