Disclaimer : Twilight isn't mine … but Maddy and Kerr are !

So it looks like I won't be able to get a real chapter of Left Behind out this weekend but I am babysitting for my sister on Sunday night so I might be able to finish chapter 17 while the kids are in bed. However, ever since I started this story I've had this idea to start a little extras and outtakes portion and here it is! Just a couple of things. The chapters won't be in chronological order but I will tell you roughly when it's set in regards to the actually Left behind chapters. Although some of them will be things that could have happened but didn't … you'll see what I mean soon enough. I've rated it T for now but there will be lemony chapters and so when the first one with a lemon gets put up I'll be changing the rating to M. However for those of you that are younger, there will be adequate warning as to which chapter contains a Lemon so if you wish to read the other extras, you can skip the lemons. Anyway, I hope you all enjoy this first little instalment, it just randomly came to me! Please Read&Review.

EdwardPOV.

This one comes shortly after the events of chapter 14. As a quick refresher, that's the chapter where Edward and Bella meet in the meadow and talk about their situation.

I knew she would be able to hear me. But I couldn't stop myself, I had to be near her in some way, shape or form.

Somehow she managed to fill every part of my mind, leaving me with the capacity to only think about her. Her and nothing else. It had always been this way… but on a lesser level. Since the very first time I met Bella, she was all I ever thought about willingly but still, other things managed to make their way through my thick skull. But now I found my self engulfed by her to the point that I really had to try and concentrate on other things … something I hadn't had to do in two hundred years.

I had only been running for about 10 seconds when the tree outside her window came into view. I made quick work of climbing it and assumed the position. I hoped I had been quiet enough and that maybe she would pass my movement off as the wind blowing through the trees and for a while I was sure I had managed it.

Peering in through her window I could see her clear as day laying on top of the sheets on her bed. She was the vision of perfection. Snow white skin covered every inch of her delicate frame, a halo of mahogany hair framed her head which lay on the pillow. She was facing away from me, but I could tell she had her eyes closed, as if she was sleeping. She seemed so peaceful that if I hadn't known better I might have actually believed she was a sleep.

I felt like I could cry, just seeing her like this. It reminded me of how things used to be before I fucked them up so badly. Bella and I had always had our problems with things mostly out with our little bubble of adoration … but inside that bubble everything was so effortless, so carefree. And I missed that. All I wanted to do was take her in my arms and hold her and love her like she deserved to be.

But I couldn't.

Not yet.

I had betrayed her and she needed time to learn to trust me again, hell I needed time to learn to trust myself again when it came to her. I seemed to have this amazing ability to mess everything up with her and I just couldn't stand doing it again. Not because it would hurt me … but because it would break her.

I would not and could not break Bella. I would put every ounce of effort in to being the man she deserved and so much more.

It was then, as I was watching her face, that her eyes snapped open and she turned to face me. An array of emotions flickered across her face in a matter of seconds. I saw shock, anger, hate, need, want and love. When she finally settled on love her face split into and earth shattering smile.

"Come in Edward." She said, continuing to smile at me. Her voice was clear as a bell to me, even through the closed window. I leapt over to the window and hovered precariously on the outer ledge as I managed to pry the window open with my fingers. I slipped inside and stood up straight, looking down at her and smiling.

"Feeling nostalgic tonight Edward?" She asked with a hint of laughter tinting her voice. I smiled even wider.

"I always am, love." Her smile faltered slightly and for the millionth time I found myself wishing I could know what thoughts were flitting through her head right now. I sat down in the rocking chair in the corner. It wasn't the same one that used to be here, in fact it was brand new. She let out a long sigh and closed her eyes again. I leaned back in the chair and rocked in a steady rhythm, backwards and forward, backwards and forwards.

" I miss it, Edward. I miss it all. It used to be so easy … when we weren't trying to stop sadistic vampires from killing me that is." A slight smile graced her lips as she uttered the last part. I returned the smile saying the only thing I could think to say.

"Me too."

We sat there in silence for a long time just watching each other. Taking everything in. Everything about her was so perfect. Her beautiful face, her glorious body, her wonderful, intriguing mind. I would die so willingly for this woman that it actually scared me slightly. I was so lost in her, it was almost a shock when she spoke again.

"I miss you, Edward." Our eyes locked onto each others and again I felt such raw emotion flow between us. I stood from the chair and walked slowly to the bed where she lay, my eyes never leaving hers. I lay down next to her and wrapped her in my arms, breathing in her beautiful scent and feeling more content than I had in what felt like forever.

"I miss you too, Bella." I uttered softly into her hair. "And I know this doesn't fix things. We both need more time but for tonight …"

"For tonight we can lay in each others arms and forget about our mistakes. And love each other uninhibited." She finished for me. I smiled into her hair. I'd been trying to read her mind ever since I first met her and there she goes reading mine like it's nothing.

For that night we did exactly as we said. We lay there and held each other, sometimes we lay in silence and other times we talked. Kisses were never shared apart from feather light passes on the forehead or the cheek, or, for me, the tip of her nose.

Because tonight it wasn't about loving each other physically. It was about loving and appreciating who we were mentally.

And I wouldn't have traded it for the world. I dreaded the moment that this little bubble of pretend shattered and things would go back to normal. I needed this. I lived for this. Just as that thought crossed my mind Maddy bounded into Bella's room but stopped short seeing us there together. Yep … there goes the bubble.

"Oh God! Bella, Edward I'm so sorry … I … I was just coming to see if Bella wanted to hunt … but I never … never thought … oh God what have I done!" Bella laughed and slid out of my grasp, sitting up right on the bed. The loss of our connection physically hurt me. I had to wonder if she felt it too.

"Calm down! Yes I'd like to come hunt and don't worry about Edward and I. We were just reminiscing." She said giggling all the way through, presumably at Maddys still shocked expression. She turned around and smiled down at me before running a hand gently through my hair and kissing my forehead, causing my eyes to involuntarily flutter to a close. She bent down and whispered into my ear. "Let yourself out when your ready Edward. I'll carry this night with me until it's time." With that she got up and left with Maddy.

Until it's time. Time that we finally get back to where we used to be and she won't have to carry this night around with her as a reminder of what we used to have.

A/N : So what did you think? Hit the little button below and let me know! I really hope you liked it. Also if any of you have anything you'd like me to make into a chapter, like any little scenarios involving any of the characters in my story then feel free to leave me a wee review or pm and I'll get back to you and let you know if I'll be giving it a shot or not!

Much Love,

Rachael.