My Life

Bella Cullen, aged 22, songwriter and happily married. That's me. I loved my life. I wrote songs while Edward wrote chords to them on the piano. We worked together that meant we were almost always together. He had studied to become a doctor but when we left university and Edward started his training, he was always stressed and we hardly got anytime together. I didn't like it much and apparently neither did he.

Flashback- One year ago.

I had spent the whole day thinking up a new song and boy was it hard. I was in a bad mood, I hadn't seen Edward in 2 days and everything I wrote came out angry or depressive and that's just not how I roll! I gave up, throwing my notepad across the room screaming. I made some lunch and went to collect the notepad. I sat and stared at the blank page for about another lifetime or that's what it seemed like. The phone rang and I too eagerly ran to it.

"Hey Bella." Alice said over the line,

"Hey Alice. What's up?" I asked

"Well Jazz and I have got to go pick up some material," Ali was a fashion designer and owned her own shop. She made and designed all her own clothes, "And I was sort of hoping you'd look after El for me" and the truth finally shows.

"Yeah of course. I'm bored out my brains anyway." She laughed,

"We'll be over in 5 minutes. Cya then." And she hung up. I lived 10 minutes from her. Stupid physic pixie knew I was going to say yeah and already left or she was going to go all Cullen and drive like a manic at like 80 MPH, Ali had fitted perfectly with the Cullen lifestyle, I on the other hand weren't to keen on their need to drive fast.

She dropped off Ella and quickly left again. Ella was 2 now. She was born with Jazz's blonde hair but it darkened to Alice's brown, it fell just to her shoulders. She was born with Alice's brown eyes which had lightened to Jazz's blue ones. One day Ali got so scared cause Ella was changing so much that she took her to the doctors. It took them nearly two hours to make Ali realize Ella was fine and the doctors explained that most babies change within the first two years of their life. She had her mom lips and her dads nose. On this day she was wearing a black and white dress with a pair of white shorts and little black ballet flats, all designed by Alice. I picked her up and placed her in her little princess chair in front of the TV with some cartoons on. I picked up my notebook up as some ideas popped into my head, I had just written the chorus when the phone rang again. I jumped up and answered it,

"Hey Twin!" Rose said down the phone. It was true Rose was my twin but we were nothing alike. Rose had Mum's natural blonde hair and her blue eyes and I had Dad's brown hair and his brown eyes. I was short like Mum but Rose was tall like Dad.

"Hey Rose. Let me guess Emmett found a new spot and you want me to watch Leon?" I asked. Leon was 1. He had Em's brown hair that was curly and Rose's blue eyes. Rose ran a beauty salon and Em was a gym owner who was looking to expand his place. That's why he was looking for new spots.

"Yeah how'd you guess?" she honestly sounded surprised

"I don't know maybe I'm turning into Alice or maybe it was because you asked me the same thing yesterday and the day before that and the day before that…" she interrupted me,

"Okay I get it. So will you? I could leave him with Dad but I heard he's on a date with Sue." I gasped,

"Really I didn't know that!" my voice dripping sarcasm, "Yeah just drop him off at mine. Ella's here anyway." I said by and hung up. I walked over to Ella and picked her up.

"Hey. Leo's coming round." She clapped her hands excitedly. Her and Leo were inseparable once you got them together. She looked up at me,

"Uncle Eddie?" She asked. She was the only one who could call Edward that and he wouldn't be upset.

"No baby Uncle Eddie's at work. See him another time."

"Kay." She stuck her thumb in her mouth and rested her head on my shoulder. I heard the door knock and went to open it. Leon ran and wrapped his arms round my legs,

"Hello." He said into my knee.

"Hey little man. Hey Rose." I said as I looked over to her. She said hi, kissed my cheek and then left.

We played for the rest of the day. Alice picked Ella up at 7 and Rose followed quickly at half 7. I made some dinner for Edward and I, he wasn't home yet so I put it in the microwave for when he was. I ate in silence and watched TV. How come on TV people fall in love, get married and live happily ever after? Everyone knows that's not what happens in real life. I flipped channels that shit was depressing. I took a long soak in the bath and then went to bed. I hated going to bed without Edward but I hated being awake without him even more. I curled up on Edwards's side. He hadn't been in it for 2 days but the smell was still so strong and it helped me believe that he was here, holding me and humming me to sleep. I fell asleep in an Edward-bliss.

I felt the bed sink next to me. I curled up against the object. It smelled like disinfectant and hand rub mixed with a sweet scent I could never really put a name to. I opened my eyes and moved my head to look at the beautiful object.

"Hey baby. How was your day?" Edward said as he kissed the top of my head.

"Terrible!" I sighed

"Why?" He asked

"You weren't here!" I said matter of factly.

"I'm sorry. Work is just so hectic at the moment. It will slow down I promise." He tilted my head up to his and pressed his lips to mine. He pulled away first and I instantly missed his touch. I curled into him, my back to his chest, his arms wrapped around my waist.

"Edward?" I muttered

"Yeah love?"

"Where have you been?" I asked. He had called to say he wasn't coming home but didn't say where.

"On Call. I had to stay at the hospital. They said something about being a doctor short and as I'm advanced, I could help."

"I missed you." I said as I snuggled a little bit closer to him.

"I miss you too, more than you could imagine." He kissed the top of my head again.

"Ella asked about you today. She missed you." I said

"Ella was here? Why?" he sounded scared probably thinking something bad happened.

"Oh don't worry. Ali had to go across town to get some materials so I said I would look after her. Leon was here too." I sighed

"Oh I'm sorry I missed it." I turned to look at him. I kissed him lips and looked into his eyes.

"I love you." I said

"As I love you." He kissed me again, passionately but he the sighed and sunk back into the bed.

"Baby what's up?" I asked as I traced patterns on his chest.

"Don't be mad…" I interrupted

"Did you cheat on me? Is that where you were?" I asked him all too quickly.

"NO! Of course not. Baby I quit my job." I gasped, Edward always wanted to be a doctor, it was his dream.

"Why?"

"Because I can't take it anymore. It's too stressing and I swear I found a grey hair the other day. But mostly because I love you and I never want to miss another day of our life together."

"Edward no. I can't be the reason you gave up your dream! Go and apologize, you're a great doctor they'll let you go back." He put a finger on my lips to stop me and I kissed it.

"It WAS my dream, past tense. My dream is you. True when I was little I had dreams of saving people and giving back to the community I lived in but now every time I close my eyes even if I just blink I see your face. My dream is that we'll grow old together happily. Not I miss 2 days of your life to spend in an On Call room where I didn't even get called out of." I smiled and kissed his lips.

"I'm sorry." I said and then yawned. He pulled me closer against his chest,

"S'okay." He said and then sang me to sleep. He did it all the nights we were together but that night it just seemed different, more special. Sort of like he was trying to tell me he did not mind that he gave up his job to be with me. I slept like a baby that night.

End Flashback

That night my life changed for the better. Edward tried to find a job that didn't include many hours but after 2 unsuccessful days he gave up. That's when I had the best idea. I asked him if he'd write the music to go with my songs, of course he agreed. Our apartment was only small so it couldn't fit a piano, which meant Edward had to write chords then head down to the studio to practice them. I sometimes went with him but I always managed to distract him so I didn't go that often. It seemed everything I did now revolved around Edward and I wasn't complaining.

I smiled down at the notepad in my hand. It was a successful day today and I had managed to write a song. I was waiting for Edward to come home so I could tell him about it. I made dinner and sat it on the table. I had just started mine when Edward walked through the door, the biggest smile on his face.

"Hey Honey. Where you been?" I asked

"Oh nowhere maybe speaking to a man about a dog." He smiled even bigger now.

"Seriously how'd it go?" I asked

"They loved it!" I ran and jumped at him, wrapping my legs around his waist and arms around his neck. I kissed every inch of his face before looking in his eyes.

"What they say?" I asked

"They said it was great the words and the chords go together well. The said the words have real meaning and they want us to write some more to put on an album!" his smile was so big now. I squealed and kissed him again.

"Who's singing it?" I asked as I pulled my lips away from his

"Some person named Kelly Clarkson (A/N: I know she's been around for a while but just imagine she just come out for the sake of the story.) They want us to write some more songs for her album. Wait didn't I already tell you that?" I laughed and kissed him again.

"Yeah but it doesn't hurt to hear it twice! Oh I wrote another song today!" I smiled and so did he

"Can I hear it?" he asked

"Now?" I raised my eyebrow at him

"Please sing it to me Bella." I nodded and dismounted him before collecting my note pad and standing in front of him. I cleared my throat and Edward laughed at me. I looked down at the words and began singing

"I wonder how I ever made it through a day
How did I settle for a world in shades of gray
When you go in circles all the scenery looks the same
And you don't know why and I looked into your eyes
Where the world stretched out in front of me and I realized

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived, before your love

I wanted more than just an ordinary life
All of my dreams seemed like castles in the sky
I stand before of you and my heart is in your hands
And I don't know how I survived without you kiss
'Cause you've given me a reason to exist

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived, before your love

And I don't know why
Why the sun decides to shine
But you breathed your love into me just in time

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived, before your love" I finished and for the first time, I looked up. I had sung Edward many of songs but this happened every time.

"Did you like it?" I asked as I looked at his face. He shook his head, too dumbfounded to talk. How rude! I shook my head at him as the tears began to fall. I wrote the song for him and he hated it. Did that mean he hated me? I ran away from him.

"Bella. Stop! Wait!" he shouted as I made my way down the hall. I felt arms on mine and they spun me around. I looked at his face, he looked… sad. His hand came up to wipe away the tears.

"I didn't like it love…" I felt the tears roll again and my body shake, "I loved it! Seriously Bella never doubt yourself. It was fucking fantastic." I laughed as he pulled me against his chest. I felt him kiss the top of my head and looked up.

"I'm sorry I made you cry." He said as he pecked me on the lips.

"S'okay. Sorry I thought you hated me." He laughed and kissed me again more passionately.

"I could never hate you." I yawned and leaned into his chest. "Can we go to bed? So tired" He picked me up bridal style and carried me towards the bedroom. Usually I would have protested but not tonight. He pulled my shirt over my head and I took off my trousers while he got out his clothes. I pulled back the quilt and slid into bed in my underwear. I turned and looked over at Edward, even after all the times I had seen him shirtless, his chest still make me drool. I patted the bed next to me and he slid under too. I scooted closer to him and he pulled me against his chest.

"Love you Belly." He said as he kissed my forehead and started to sing.

"Love you Eddie." I fell asleep straight after that. In dreams filled with the only thing I dreamed about now. Edward.

A/N: Thanks for reading! Hope it wasn't too bad! I know it took a long time to get up but i couldn't think of anything!

The song Bella sang was Before Your Love- Kelly Clarkson!

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