I was sitting on my bed writing some random stuff when I thought of a random one-shot. Sammy. He's addicted to Demon Blood and he and Dean have gone separate paths. So, I stopped all that I was doing and decided to write this. I'm not that deep or profound in my writing…so hopefully you enjoy XD!

Disclaimer-I do not own SUPERNATURAL, Sam or Dean Winchester or any characters from Supernatural in any way. They belong to Eric Kripke "Damn you Eric Kripke" *If you've watched the 4th Season's gag reel, you will recognize that quote. :D

ENJOY!

You Need It Sam

Written by ForeverEverlost

A Supernatural One-Shot

You need it Sam.

That is the voice of desire and temptation at the back of my head constantly telling me that I am in utter and dire need of the vile liquid that turned me into what I am now. It keeps screaming in my ears, pounding in my head, salivating in my mouth with the need. The need for Demon Blood.

But I continue to fight against it. Despite my hunger, this was the liquid that made me become a monster, it helped set Lucifer free and it tore the special bond that my older brother Dean and I once shared.

Dean.

He constantly worried about me, and I can clearly tell that he didn't trust me at all especially by myself. I could almost see the image through his eyes, his imagination wondering off thinking that the moment I see demon blood I would break and just drink it like a mindless wild animal. Sure, the thought has entered my mind but I am still sane. I can still control myself. For now.

He doesn't care about you. He thinks you're a freak. Just do it Sam, you need it…you want it.

Though, like Dean, I cannot trust myself. It never leaves my brain, it's always there, constantly nagging at me. The voice keeps saying you need it Sam, you need it, and you know you want it. The voice never stops, and when I smell the liquid or even see its blood red shade, my mouth begins to water. I can taste it on my tongue, its warmth running down my throat sending powerful shivers throughout my body, I can feel the power. It's increasing! I'm becoming stronger.

Yes! You are becoming stronger! Believe that Sam!

NO! I have not become stronger. I have become pathetic and weak!

I let this vile liquid come between my brother and me. I tried to see past the negatives and focus on the positives. I was saving people, I never had to use the knife. But, I was becoming the very thing we hunt, the very thing I was trying to avoid when I was just a kid. A freak. Now everyone has to suffer.

Damn that bitch that hooked me on her blood. Ruby. We stabbed her the moment Dean and I had the chance, but if I ever come face to face with her again…I'm going to kill her myself, and not just send her back to hell but to make sure she's dead. She lied to me. She said she could help me, to make me stronger. But she really made things worse.

She lied.

Now I'm alone, and Dean and I have separated. He cannot trust me, I cannot trust me and now I must try and break this craving, this addiction and this need by myself. And now, I have to bear the guilt and the weight of the world upon my shoulders. It's all my fault, and all because of some blood.

But you need it Sam, you need it.

No. I don't need the blood.

I need my brother.

But I guess like everything else, I've lost it and I've ruined it.

A/N: I hope you all enjoyed that. It's my first deepish one-shot so… CONSTRUCTIVE criticism is strongly welcome and encouraged! PLEASE review, it'll make my day, not even kidding!! :D

Did anyone else freak out when Sam and Dean separated? I did XD That's right, I'm a die-hard Supernatural Fan 8D

Anywho! Thanks for reading!

Janine

(Forevereverlost)