A/N- this idea came to me in a dream rhat is why I did not put up a poll for my next story. It is a unique idea and I hope everyone likes it. I am going to try this story in the first person as well I liked how the last chapter in My Soldier turned out. Disclaimer I do not own Twilight or any of the characters I just like to put my own spin on things. Please read and review if you can and as always enjoy.

Bella

I could not believe it my husband was gone, how I have no idea because we can hold our breath indefinitely. But the last time I saw him he was sinking beneath the waves when he did not come back up I started to worry the worry became panic when the minutes turned into hours and hours turned into days. I knew I had to get home to our daughter and the others were waiting for our return so with one last look at the spot where I last saw Jasper. With a heavy heart I turned the boat I was in towards home.

When I walked into the house the first person I saw was my daughter our sweet Renesme closely followed by Jacob her husband. With a puzzeled expression on her face Nessie asked "where is dad I thought he would be here."

"Why don't we go into the living room so I can tell everyone at once." I did not want to tell everyone this twice. As we walked into the living room everyone was already there.

Before anyone could ask I started on my tale. "As you all know Jasper and I took our boat for a boat trip for our 100th anniversary. While on the sea the boat had engine failure and no matter what he tried Jazz could not get the engine to start. We decided to get in our life boat and come back home to pick Rose up and see if ahe could figure out what was wrong with the engine. I don't exactly know how it happened but one second Jasper was in the boat with me and the next he was in the water. I thought he just fallen in and would get right back in the boat but the next thing I know he is being pulled under the waves it was almost like something had ahold of him and was dragging him down. He fought like mad the entire time, I thought he would come back up. I waited for four days before I came home."

While I told my story I knew everyone was in shock. Nessie started crying and by the looks of things if Esme, Rose, Alice and Edwards wife Bree could be crying they all on would be. I just wanted to run to Jasper's and my room and sink into oblivion. How am I supposed to live without my other half.

Esme came and pulled me into a hug, "I am so sorry Bella." I nodded my head I could not speak through the lump in my throat. I was passed one by one through each member of the family each saying how sorry they were. I wanted to shout that's not going to bring my Jasper back. I needed to hunt so without any notice to anyone I took off out of the house.

One year later

Emmett

It has been a year since Jazz went missing we all went back to the area that he had gone under numerous times trying to find out where he had gone. Carlisle, Edward, and Alice's husband Felix, and I had dived into the water where he went under. No matter how hard we looked we could not find him it was as if he had dissapeared off the face of the earth. Today Bella had gone back alone to mourn her loss. I have no idea how she has survived I know if it were Rosie I would be a horrible mess.

Bella

My Jasper had been taken from me a year ago I still hope he will appear again as suddenly as he dissapeared but it has not happened yet. As I am sitting here gazing into the spot he had sunk from my sight I think back to the first day I had met him.

Flasback

I was the new girl at Forks high, the daughter of Police Chief Swan, and on top of everything the biggest clutz in the world. I walked into my very first class that day hoping that I could sink into the floor as every eye turned to me. Blushing feircly I quickly handed the teacher the paper he had to sign, as soon as he signed it I moved rarher quickly to the only seat available. As I was going to sit down I tripped landing right in the lap of the boy seated directly to my right. "I am so..." I could not go any further I was lost in his gaze. He had the most amazing eyes I had ever seen.

They were a perfect almond shape framed by thick long lashes that every girl would gladly kill for, but the most amazing thing about them were the color they were a deep golden color. "It's ok Darlin no harm no foul."

Before I knew what had happened he stood up lifting me as if I weighed nothing at all and deposited me in my own desk. Right before he turned to go back to his own desk he winked at me and whispered "you can fall on me anytime Darlin I don't mind a pretty lady such as yourself in my lap."

End of flashback

I wish he was here with me I ache for him so much. Everyone wonders how I make it from day to day without going crazy. However no one knows the extent of our mating, we are unlike any mated pair out there because we can feel if the other one has been hurt. I remember when we figured it out was actually when I was still human in fact it happened the day we met. I had been walking to my truck when out of nowhere a ball hit me in the head. Jasper was standing not 20 feet away and as soon as the ball hit me, him and I both grabbed our heads at the same moment. I did not find out until much later what his brother Edward had witnessed that day.

When we started dating and I would hurt myself he could feel it every single time. We thought it would fade when he turned me into a vampire however it just got stronger. I knew he was not dead because I could still feel him I knew any time he was in either physical or emotional pain. All I want to do is find a way to be with him.

As I am sitting looking into the water I see some sort of fish or creature in the deep, as it starts to get closer I see it is not a fish or a creature but what looked to be my Jasper rising from the deep. I could not help it I leapt into the water to meet him. As his head broke the surface he immediately pulled me into his arms and kissed me with all of the passion I had missed in this last year. As I am kissing him though I have an odd feeling. He looks like my Jasper and feels like my Jasper he kisses like my Jasper but there is something off about him ahd I can't put my finger on it.