Yo B,
If you're reading this letter, then I guess I finally went through with it. I know some might say I took the coward's way out...and normally I'd agree...but fuck that. I guess you can consider this my will, any books and shit like that the mayor leaves me, give to G-man. Tell him he needs to start actually teaching Red how to use magic the right way...I've seen true darkness, and I'm pretty sure he has too, I don't want that for Red. Tell Xan, tell him that, despite all the shit I talk, that it was honestly my first time too and I don't regret it. Tell Mrs. S I'm sorry, for everything I did to you and Xan and Red, in the little time I spent with y'all, she was the best mother I've ever had. Tell Lil D...shit tell her some vamp got me, tell her I was acting as a spy against the mayor the whole time. To you, I want to say I'm sorry, I know I've said it a lot in this letter, but I am. I so much wanted to be the sister slayer to you, like you told me Kendra was, that night I "switched sides" I was gonna tell you all about a plan I had to use Finch's death as an in against the mayor, but the looks on you guys' faces when I walked into the library...I just couldn't take it. I went on autopilot after that, but I was jarred out of it when I saw your face after I shot Angel, tell him I'm sorry about that by the way, if he's still alive when you find me, use my blood to save him, maybe the slayer called after me will be worthy of you and your family and the Scoobies. I only have one thing left to say now, before there's nothing left here for me...I love you, Buffy.
Always 5X5,
Faith Maille Lehane