Grey Eyes
By Dawnshadow
Based on Final Fantasy IV
2-08-2002
His eyes were grey. Grey like the sky before a summer storm, cold
like the first
sharp bite of winter wind, filled with defiance and loathing. Humans
cannot hide
their emotions well- one only has to gaze into their eyes to see
that.
Perhaps that was why I wore the mask.
He longed for flight, the feeling of wind, soaring on nonexistent
wings. On wings of
the soul and mind he flew, rising to the clouds, even when they
weren't there. A
momentary illusion of freedom, soaring among the clouds.
Why can't I get him out of my head? Out of all the dozens that I....
He fought at first. I still remember the screams of anguish that
filled the dungeons that
night. But he broke in the end. All of them break in the end.
Myself included.
But some fragment of him remained free, as hard as I had to try to
destroy it. He resisted,
more than once coming to the verge of breaking loose from my control.
In the end- after I took him again and imprisoned him and punished
him for daring to resist
and run away and fight me- his hope gave out. His grey eyes shone
with tears that could
not (were not allowed to) be shed. Why do I remember his eyes so
well? Why? They were
grey like a storm, something wild and untamed and uncontrollable and
unpredictable. Grey is
an uniquely Human eye color- Lunarians do not share that particular
hue.
Is that why I see those eyes every time I try to go to sleep?
Those grey eyes, full of fear and
resentment? Or is it something else? Something more?
Those grey eyes, full of adoration and longing for the girl. His
best friend's fiancée, the love of
his heart. Such simple emotions are easily twisted to their darker
siblings, envy and lust.
But he still fought, fought the promise of what he believed was
the only thing he ever wanted.
And for all he did as I did what I was commanded to do, he blamed
only one person.
Himself.
Is that why I can't forget those bottomless grey eyes? Because I
don't understand? He was
forced, used. A simple tool for evil. Just an extension for another's
will. Yet he acted as if
he had somehow condoned "his" actions by allowing them to happen.
And his eyes, his grey eyes.... They showed how afraid and ashamed
he was of the monster
he believed himself to be. And I let him believe, encouraged it,
because he didn't fight quite
as hard when he was in that mood.
I remember them all too well, those eyes. They trapped me as much
as I trapped their owner,
and I find myself unable to forget. I can still feel them boring into
my soul, even though their
keeper has to be long dead by now. I am trapped by those eyes.
Those grey eyes.
Those beautiful, terrible, unforgettable grey eyes.
Author's Notes
Obviously (I hope) Golbez's POV, sometime postgame.
A couple firsts here: my first completed prose 'fic and my first
short story that didn't
turn itself into a long story. And now that my writer's block is
gone, gone, gone, I'll
probally write more... Review if you liked, please.
