I don't know when I began having these thoughts, or why I even started thinking them in the first place; but all I know is that I can't stop. Orochimaru is constantly on my mind. I often catch myself staring into his irresistibly golden eyes; even with the knowledge that the action causes chills to run down my spine. I know he's caught me staring longer than I should, but I can't help myself. His response to my staring is always the same: "What is it child?". And it's always that question that brings me back to reality. I tell him it's nothing, and he laughs softly in reply. Just the sound of his voice is enough to make me feel light-headed. And the way he says my name makes my heart beat so fast I feel as if it might burst forth from my chest at any moment. But I only receive part of his attention... Kabuto is almost always by his side. The only time I'm ever alone with Orochimaru is during our training. It's only a few hours a day, but I savor every second of it. I desperately want to tell Orochimaru how he makes me feel, but it's nearly impossible with Kabuto around. I'm not even sure Orochimaru would accept my feelings, much less return them. I'm also afraid if I do tell Orochimaru how I feel, he will call me weak. I do not want people to think I'm weak, and I most certainly do not want the man I admire most to think that.