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Summary: AU. Post Season 4 finale. One other survivor was found amongst the freighter wreckage. And she was involved with Sawyer...this is her story, with flashbacks from all 4 seasons. Yeah I know it sucks, but so what. SawyerOC. R&R, no flames.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: not sure of the exact date the Oceanic 6 were rescued. So the date on the prologue is 2 days after that happened.:)

Prologue: December 26, 2004

Come on dumbass, breathe. Pump oxygen through those lungs and breathe!!

Pain...waves of it crashed over my body. I couldn't see or hear, let alone breathe. What made me regain consciousness was his voice in my head. He'd promised he'd always be there for me. I guess my subconscious counted in someway.

Riley, you gotta wake up now. Kick for the surface and I don't wanna hear none of your complainin', got it?

" Got it, James," I gasped as my head broke through the surface. I gasped for breath. Hot congealed blood ran down one side of my face. I couldn't see out of my right eye.

Are you honestly just gonna float there all day? Get your ass in gear, Snake and swim!!

I obeyed his voice. He cared about me and my safety after all. If I died, he'd be pissed. I started swimming. When I found a bit of wreckage from the freighter, I crawled onto it, though pain seared through my left wrist -- I was sure it was broken, or at least sprained.

" I hope you're happy, Sawyer." I said through gritted teeth. " Unless a boat comes by, I ain't gonna last long."

I don't know how long I lay floating there in the ocean. The last thing I remembered was floating into something and nearly falling off my makeshift raft before darkness claimed me.

I know this kinda sucks but it'll get better, I promise. I have most of it thought out already. Please review and NO FLAMES!!