Butterfly Effect
Author's note : HIIIIIIIIII! I wanted to write this Josam fanfic for a while now, and I am so excited about this! It might contain some rather disturbing content as I am freak and hey, it's Until Dawn , what were you expecting! Also, I am not sure if it will or will not turn more... Mature , as I'm making it up in the process of writing, so ... Yeah ! I would also like to note that the story itself takes place in the story line and I change stuff that will give a new butterfly effect and a new ending, sooooooooooooo... Yep! Let's get riiight into the story!
Chapter 1 – Memento Mori
(ten hours until dawn)
Sam couldn't believe she was actually in this . Not really sure if the whole thing was a good idea or if it's gonna be horrible, but as she heard his voice, she reassured herself that it's worth it.
"Back to the annual Blackwood winter getaway! TAAAAAGH!" She gave a slight smile to his joy about all of this, pressing pause and remembering all the great memories ... An d all the bad memories ... Ugh, poor thing, it's harder for him then for anyone else... She couldn't help but worry about him.. " Um, let me just let you know ,um ... Let's take a moment to .. Address the elephant in the room, for a second. I know, you're all probably worried about me and I know it's gonna be tough on all of us going back after what happened last year, but – I just want you all to know... it means... " A slight pause in his voice made all of the emotions inside him visible. At least for her. She knew him damn too well, maybe he was trying to look super cool and chill about all of it, but she knew , deep inside, he didn't move on ... PTSD , you know. " It means so much to me that we're doing this. And I ... I know it would mean so much to Hannah and Beth that we're all still here together, ya' know, thinking of them. " He sighed and continued. " I , I really wanna spend some quality time with each and every one of you and share some moments that we'll never forget, for, for the sake of my sisters , you know ? Okay ... So! LET'S PARTY LIKE WE'RE FUCKING PORN STARS , OKAY ?!" She smiled " And make this one a trip we will never forget , alright?! YES!"
"Yes dummy" she thought , turning off the phone and looking out the window of the rusty old buss. If there was one thing she was sure she was gonna do , was giving that guy a huge huge bearhug as soon as she arrives.
The buss came to a stop and she walked to the door , almost running her way to it and jumped out .
How strange is it to be back here again.
"Think of him ... This is all for Josh ... " she thought, repeating the sentence inside her brain over and over again like a mantra .
"Blackwood Pines ." She whispered under her breath." No turning back now, Sam."
She made her way trough the path ,where she saw a tiny squrel jumped out of the bushes, scared Sam a lil.
"Aww... Hey there little fella!You hungry?" She told , leaning down and taking out the nuts she brought with her and handing the to it.
"Don't move Samantha..."She thought, freezing and holding her breath, waiting for the animal to approach her and take the food she had to offer.
And so the tiny creature slowly made it's way toward Sam and took a nut with it's tiny hands and ran back into the woods.
"Cutie." She whispered looking after the squirrel and continued her way to the cable car station.
When she arrived , she saw Chris' backpack and his phone buzzing .
"Connection! Yes ! " She realized , and jumped in her place, then zipping Chris' backpack close, so that the phone won't be exposed and pulled out her's. The only person she wanted to call right now was Josh.
She dialed his number and waited .
"Sam! Hey you made it! " Chris' voice rang from behind her. "Whom are you calling? " He told quite confused .
"Josh..." She told, taking the phone an inch away from her ear .
5 more seconds, and he finally answered.
"Hello?" The voice from the other side told, clearly surprised by the call.
"Josh? It's Sam , I- "
"I realized it's you , dummy ."
"Hey!"She giggled ." Watch out, porn star ."
To that, he just laughed .
"Wooooow." Chris teased Sam as she melted over the phone " Butterflies, butterflies and love in the air."
"Oh shut the fuck up!" She yelled back back at him.
"What?" Josh's voice sound taken back by this , as he clearly though Sam's cussing and yelling was directed toward him .
"Ugh , it's nothing , just Chris messing around with me ."
" Hahah... Tell that fucker I'm gonna beat his ass." He told jokingly .
"He tells he's gonna beat your ass fucker!"
To that Chris took the phone from Sam and blowed in it .
"No connection sucker." He told before hanging up .
"Chris!" Sam told punching him on the arm and pulled the phone from his hand.
"Ouch! Calm down girl!"
"Would you like it if I do this to you while you talk with Ashley, huh?"
Clearly frustrated, she grumpily walked her way to the door of the car station.
"Hey, Sam , cool the fuck down! It was just a joke. Besides, I wanna show you something ."
"I'm not really in the mood of you showing me something , Christopher ."
"Okay Samantha. But whatever it was , it was going to blow your mind."
She didn't turn around to face him, but was kinda interested with what he was going to show to her.
"What is it?"
"Oh huh, here comes Sam! C'mon , you need to see it with your own eyes! It will blow your MIND!"
"Ugh , alright." She told, giving up .
Although she kinda anted to kill him, he was such a goofball it was hard to stay mad at him for a long time.
He led her to the back of the station building and ran up to a shooting range.
"Ta-dah! Pretty rad , huh?"
"Yeah..."
"C'mon, look at those beauties!"
He made a shooting pose, and she slightly giggled.
"Uh, "beauties" is not exactly what comes to mind.. Why is this even here?"
"What do you mean?"
"What the hell is a shooting range doing at the base of a ski lodge?"
"Haven't you met Josh's dad?! He thinks he's like Grizzly Adams or something.. Wanna try?"
"Nope."
"Okay, then I will."
He pointed at the aim .
"Nah, let's go, Josh's probably waiting for us."
Lowering his gun , Chris mockingly laughed and told in a girly pitch voice.
"Omg, let's go , he's probably waiting for us, or more like, for me, 'cause I'm his little Sammy , ain't I?!"
"I will fucking kill you ! First of all, I do not sound like that! " She kicked him slightly harder this time "And then, I told US , not me, and I... I am not... His Sammy..." She unwillingly blushed and looked down.
"Oh c'mon, we both know you are." He patted her on the shoulder and continued the very motivational speech of his "Haven't you noticed yourself? You two are meant to be!"
"Thanks for the pleasant sarcasm, Chris."
"That.. Wasn't sarcasm. Really."
"C'mon, we need to get going , goofass bitch."
She tried to act like nothing was wrong , but everything was very , very wrong.
In over 20 minutes , they were on the other end of the cable.
In the cable cart, in a desperate attempt to break the silence, Chris started bubbling about him and Josh.
"You know how Josh and I met?"
"Nah..."
"Okay, third grade. Josh sat in the back of the room, I sat in the front, we didn't even know eachother existed. But, the kid sitting next to Josh started strap snapping the training bra on the girl in front of him, so the teacher made him move to the front, where I was sitting."
"Okay, so?"
"So I got moved to the back!"
"And...? "
"And next to Josh! That's how we met! And became friends to this day."
"A match made in heaven." She giggled.
If it weren't for the fact that Jeanie Simmonds hit puberty like, three years early and on that day decided to wear a low-cut shirt that showed off her training bra. I mean who knows? You could be riding in this cable car alone. Right now, or talking to some other person entirely. Boom, Butterfly Effect."
Butterfly effect... She rolled those two words inside her head over and over again... If Hannah didn't fall down that slide in first grade and if Sam didn't help her up, she would've never met her, nor Josh... And , no annual Blackwood getaways with friends , and none of that... None of that would've happened... Nobody would've died and so ... This ... Oh shit... And even if it did happen , then Josh wouldn't talk to Sam after their death and nobody would've asked him , begged him to see a psychiatrist and he wouldn't stop .. Cutting... And he would probably be dead by now... Oh dear Lord ,this shit is complicated...
"Sam? Did you find the purpose of life?"
"What?"
"You're thinking to deeply..."
"Oh that... I was just thinking about that ... Butterfly effect thing..."
"Fascinating, isn't it?"
"Yep."
The car came to the end of the cable and the two of them jumped out, walking to the door, where Jess was supposed to wait for them.
"Jess! Hey!" Chris called for help as the didn't find the way to open the door themselves.
"Jess! Over here!" Sam joined him, hitting on the glass.
"Ugh..Are you guys having a really weird stroke?"
"We're stuck in this stupid thing!" He explained.
"Can you please let us out? Pretty please?" She made a puppy face at her friend and waited for her to open the door.
She sees her hand push the button on the door as it cracks open.
"Oh. My. God. I thought we were goners, another ten minutes in there and I would've chewed off my own leg."
The girls looked at each other and laughed.
"Aw, sick , Chris!" Sam giggled .
"Look, I got a lot of meat on my bones. This is all muscle down here." He told , grabbing his leg.
"Ah, you better show that off to Ashley, dumb ass."
"Shut the fuck up almost but not yet Washington."
"What the fuck?!" Sam gave him the look.
"Wait a second!" Jess raised and eyebrow, grinning at the two " Do you mean Sam and Josh..."
"NO!"Sam yelled at the top of her lungs .
"Alright, alright , easy there!" She told , giggling at her clearly fallen friend.
"Chris, I swear to god I'm gonna kill you."
"I kind of believe you..."
"Chris."Jess turned very serious all of a sudden " Can you like , leave us girls alone for a second, plz?"
"Ugh, where am I supposed to go? Narnia?"
"Sit on the fucking branch , Christopher."
"Gosh, chill."
"THE BENCH!" She pointed at the bench and added " NOW."
"Okay , okay captain Jessica, okay."
"NOW."
Chris backed off, hand up in the air as a gesture of " please don't kill me".
"Now you."
"I what?"
"See, I know when something is going on. " She raised her eyebrow and crossed her hands.
"Ugh..."
"Come on! He's not that bad! Give Joshy a chance!"
"Aaaghh... I ... I don't know ..."
"Oh please , you do."
"Maybe... But I'm not sure..."
"K sister, just know that I'm always here for ya'..." She paused the continued " With a shit load of condoms."
"Fuck you!"
"LOOOOOL!"
They laughed at Jess' unimaginable humor and then a thought sparked inside of Sam's mind. Why would YOU need condoms?
"Jess?"
"What?" She told, still laughing at herself.
"Why would you need condoms?"
"Well, Mike and I are together now... I though, maybe... You know."
"Yeah, that explains everything now..."
"So..."
She was gonna say something, but Chris interrupted her.
"Hello? Time? It's getting quite late and we're still here, maybe we should just go to the longe already? Or is your "discussion" in progress?"
"Comin'!" She yelled back , waving a goodbye to Jess.
As they walked trough the forest into the clear path, they could hear Jess' and Mike's laughter and conversation, shared a few laughs about it and mocked each others' crushed again..
"I bet you and Ash would've made more INTENSE sounds out there."
"Oh yeah, I bet, you and Joshua would make such sounds that the craws on the trees would shit themselves and fly off, thinking it was a bear or something."
She stuck out her middle finger and pointed at him.
"You , my boy , are officially dead."