Coward's Way
"I love you", those were the words I longed to hear, feared to hear.
Love that was what I was to her.
Not the bastard half breed. Not the one who failed. Not the outcast.
I was love, I had love I should have been happy.
But a ghost brought back from the dead reminded me of what happened before. What happened when I was nothing but the thing that had to be changed.
Even her, that ghost of the past needed me to change. Change to something that would be accepted, be welcomed. But I couldn't change.
So that's why I ran that day. I was scared. Shitless. She told me she loved me and I left. I left her with the hopes she had for us, the hopes she had for me. Her heart it was the very thing I had but was so foolish to get rid of, to destroy.
I took the only way out, the only way I knew. The coward's way.