I'd Lie About the Teardrops On My Guitar
Disclaimer: Don't own Ned's Declassified!!! Or the songs I'd Lie and Teardrops On My Guitar, Taylor Swift does!
A/N: This is my second Noze songfic! Songs I'd Lie & Teardrops On My Guitar by Taylor Swift. Set before the Field Trip episode.
Chapter 1: Journal Of My Life
I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
Dear Diary,
Ned and I are best friends. Have been for a long time now. The past few months, my feelings for him have changed somehow. I've fallen in love with him. We know everything about each other. Some good..but some bad. One bad thing about Ned is his girlfriend, Suzie Crabgrass. He's always telling me how much he "likes" her, never "love". That little fact that he always says he "likes" her is my little ray of hope. We'd almost gotten together after she moved away..then she moved back. Great timing, huh? When he tells me about her, I just stare in his beautiful, deep blue eyes, and nod my head every now and then. I tell myself, and Cookie, that I'm not in love with him. It's just a crush that will pass with time. But something inside me, a little glimmer of uncertainty, keeps me coming back for more.
Moze
I'll never fall in love
He sears, as he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke, I fake a smile
And I know all his favorite songs
Dear Diary,
I bet I could write a novel with the tings I know about Ned that no one else does. For starters, he likes pineapple and pepperoni on his pizza, with no sauce. Most people think its gross, but that's the kind of pizza we get every Friday night. I never complain. He always tries his best to avoid confrontation. Most girls like guys who stand up for themselves, but that never really was my type. The definition of my type is Ned. (how cheesy is that?) Another think I know is that Ned looks exactly like his dad. Especially his sparkling, blue eyes. The only people who ever knew Ned's dad were Ned, Cookie, me, his mom, and my parents. He was killed in a car accident when we were 5. Since then, my dad has become both of our dads. His mom re-married, but Ned hates the guy. I don't exactly love him either.
I love this boy with the glowing blue eyes and mop-headed haircut. I hate the fact that he's dating my friend who I hate more and more each day. If anyone ever asked how I felt, I'd lie.
Moze
And I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
I'd lie
Dear Diary,
I can see right through Suzie's "super" personality. I sit and watch as she complains about every little flaw Ned has, witch I happen to love. That's what makes him human. He doesn't even notice. She treats him like scum. I think he secretly knows that she's using him, but thinks since he's liked her so long, it doesn't matter. I wish he'd realize that the girl that could make him happier than he ever dreamed was right in front of him his entire life.
Even though its been a few years after his dad died, he still cries every now and then. Suzie could care less. Anytime he does, I always go over and stay with him. His mom's always out doing something with her new husband. He wouldn't dare tell that to cookie, or anyone else at school because he doesn't want to hurt Suzie's precious reputation. Says id would make people think she's dating an emo or something. I may be selfish, but I don't see why he doesn't notice me and come back down to earth from Suzieland. I wouldn't dare let anyone know how I feel about him, but its slowly crushing me inside.
Moze
He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on
Doesn't he know that I've had him memorized for so long
And he sees everything in black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishin' he was mine
Dear Diary,
I don't think many people know that Ned has an older sister. She lives in Arizona with her dad and step mom. That's right. Ned's mom's been married 3 times. Her name is Kristen and I looked up to her like the big sister I never had before she moved away to college. She was my only friend that was a girl, even though she was older than me.
No one knows that every year, on his father's birthday, I go with him to his father's grave. His mom doesn't ever go, and I don't believe she ever has.
This amazing guy, standing in front of me, hardly sees me as a girl. I'm his best friend and he's mine. That's all she wrote. If I ever got the chance to be with him, I'd make him mine and only mine. I'd treat him with the respect he deserves. Of course, that'll never happen because I'd lie if he asked me.
Moze
I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
I'd lie
He stands there, then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breath for you
Dear Diary,
Ned has lots of great talents that no one cares to know about. His father started teaching him guitar before he died, and since then, he practices almost every night. He's even taught me a thing or two. I've written him a few songs I wouldn't dare sing him, I'd lie. He's really good, but Suzie doesn't think so. He gave her a CD of songs he'd been working on for months for her birthday a few months back and she just sort of brushed it off, disappointed. She said it was by an unknown artist, no one any good. Ned never got the chance to tell her he'd written and recorded it himself. If he would've given me something that special, I would probably have cried. He deserves better.
The only accurate thing she's ever said about Ned was that he was "cute". In my opinion, he's so "cute" that he's all I think about. I cry in my room before I go to bed after I practice the songs I wrote him. I just wish his "cute" face would notice me one day. I wouldn't take him for granted. When he doesn't, I only pray that he will the next day. He can't ever know I feel this way. He is my best friend and it would change everything if he did or didn't feel the same way about me. I figure I'm safer with lying.
Moze
He'd never tell you
But he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything, but my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My God, he's beautiful
So I put on my make-up
And pray for a miracle
Dear Diary,
Maybe he'll notice something about me today. I've certainly noticed a few things about him. He hates peanut butter, so he eats jelly sandwiches (strawberry, not grape. He hates anything grape.) He gets mad enough to fight when someone says they hate the Colts. (his favorite NFL team, and mine.) Some days, we'd just sit around his house, pig out on chips and pizza, and watch the game. That was before Suzie came into the picture.
I can beat him if we play basketball or volleyball, but for some reason, he beats me at football. I don't know why he doesn't try out for the team at school. I guess he's just not muscular enough to take down those players. I am a girl, after all. At school he tries to be outgoing and friendly, which he is. I know deep down, he's a softie.
There's going to be a talent show later tonight. I'm singing one of my songs I wrote for him. I wrote it while he was out with Suzie on our usual Friday night hang out. Maybe he'll take the hint when he really listens to the lyrics and figures out, they're about him. I've waited so long for the right moment to tell him how I feel. Tonight might as well be the time. I'm tired of lying.
Moze
Yes, I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Oh, and it kills me
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And it you ask me if I love him…
If you ask me if I love him…
I'd lie
A/N: So what did you think??? I have a chapter two, ready to post! I will when I get 5 reviews for this one! I only got 1 review for my songfic Moze's Song so far and even it was really great, I WANT MORE!!! LOLZ! REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW!!!