So please please please give me feedback on this since a) this is my first Across the Universe fic, and b) I want to see if there's any point in posting a Jude OC pairing when it seems that the overwhelming majority of people see no problem with Jude & Lucy. Anyway, Julia is my own creation, she is Jude's best friend from home and went over with him and got sent back with his as well, only he went back to New York without her, so it should switch between her diary and what's happening in New York if I continue.
Enjoy, or not enjoy but as I begged above, please review either way.
Dear Pru,
Cor, why did I pick Prudence as the name of my diary? Haven't thought about her in months. I miss her, and Sadie and Jojo. I miss Max too, but I missed him even before I came home.
I miss Jude. Cor, I miss him more then I missed my mum when I was in the states. He's been gone two months, one week and three days, and he's not written me so much as a postcard. But what else could I expect when he didn't even say goodbye? I still miss him terribly, now there's no one to talk to about America. Molly's alright to chat with but she's nothing close to Jude.
Prudence was then only one I could really talk to in New York. I could talk to Sadie, but Sadie was more my mum then Pru was. Pru was my American sister really. I miss them all so much.
I wonder if Jude went back for Lucy. Awful chit, can't imagine what he sees in her. You'd think he'd be bored by now- they're nothing alike. That's not very nice, I know. But honestly, what does she have that I haven't got? Horribly blonde hair, innocent blue eyes, straight teeth. Mine are straight too, just not as nice as hers. And she just pushes him, to think the way she wants him to think, to do the things she wants him to do. Why can't she love him for who he is?
Yes, you've found me out. I'm in love with Jude, my best friend since before we were born. Our mothers were soldier's girls, only my mum was married to hers. That's why we went to America to begin with, to find Jude's dad. And then it all went down from there when we met Max. Although, that's not really fair, it started going downhill when Lucy came to New York.
No, I'm not going to think about her anymore. It never ends well.
I dunno when I first realized it. That I loved Jude. We've always been close of course, but more like brother and sister then lovers really. Maybe it was when the other girls stopped ignoring me, and asking about Jude. I felt threatened, he was my Jude, not theirs. He was special to me, but I think really the moment when I knew I loved him was when Molly told me to keep my distance. I was shocked that she thought Jude and I were involved- but not upset. I reckon I wished it was true, at least a little. But I'm not the slag that goes for a taken lad, and I told her so.
Funny- when she saw me & Jude at the docks she told Jude she was sorry, but she was looking at me. I wonder if she knew how awful it was for me to watch him and Lucy together.
Maybe he heard me. The night before he left. We were watching Lord of the Flies that night, cor it was probably the morning by then. I thought he was asleep, and he looked so wonderful laying there with his head on my lap. So I told him.
But then why would he leave without saying anything at all?
Julia