It was quiet when Kara woke up, too quiet and she frowned, wary of the silence that overtook her.
She sat up, her head spinning fast from the sudden motion and her sisters hands were instantly on her shoulders steadying her small frame.
"Easy there Kara, you took quite the hit. Your powers are regenerating as we speak. Just stay still and let the sunlamps work" Alex gently ordered her and she nodded as she laid back down on the warm bed.
"Where's Lena? I couldn't get to her in time. The bomb went off and I got thrown back" she spoke softly "Alex I need to know that she's okay" she continued as she saw the grim and blank look on her sister's face.
"Alex please. Where is she?" her voice broke as she asked again, tears threatening to fall and Alex bowed her head silently stepping aside from the muted television.
A newsreport was on repeat, the headline loud and clear in big bold letters and Kara sat up emotionless, eyebrows furrowed and jaw set, defeat written in her features.
'Lena Luthor among casualties in bombing Conference for Peace'
"Kara, there was nothing you could have done, the bomb was rigged to go off as soon as you came too close to her. It was a dirty bomb Kara, it was laced with Kryptonite. Even if you had reached her you would've died as well"
Alex' words got into one ear and directly out of the other as she kept reading the headline and spoke up, voice monotone and void of the once bubbly Kara "who did this?"
Alex faltered when she heard her little sister's voice "we're not sure yet, but it looks like the work of Cadmus. But the way they worked it seems like they have an insider in the D.E.O."
Kara's eyes glowed red for a brief moment in time before she controlled her emotions, the muscle in her jaw tensing as she stood up and turned around to face her sister.
It was clear that she had been crying, small bags under her eyes, red and puffy and widening as she saw Kara's expression to be similar of that during her Red Kryptonite induced state.
"Kara don't do anything rash. We don't know who was behind it for sure" Kara locked eyes with her sister "where is she?" her voice faltering as her lip trembled "let me see her. Please"
Alex bit her lip, her bodylanguage letting slip that she knew something that she was unwilling to tell Kara and Alex visibly flinched when she yelled "TELL ME!" her voice echoing off the walls.
"We haven't been able to find her body. We did find her DNA. We believe that one of the bomb's might have been so close to her that-" Alex swallowed thickly "-that there might not be anything left to find"
Kara's body trembled as she fell backward against the bed and sunk to the floor, a few sunlamps tumbled in the force and shattered on the floor, and she hit the floor with a audible gasp mixed with a sob.
Alex was on the floor with her within seconds, wrapping the small woman in her arms and into a tight embrace "Kara I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry" she repeated as Kara broke down.
Photo's of the raven haired CEO were being shown on the tv, listing off accomplishment after accomplishment, personal and bussiness and Kara cried harder seeing a photo of them together laughing wildly, Kara's arm around Lena's waist.
They had never openly admitted to their relationship but neither women actively denied it as well, letting people make their own assumptions and leaving Kara a little out of the spotlight.
She grabbed onto Alex' shirt, grasping it tightly in her fists, not caring about ripping the seams in the process as her powers gradually came back.
Kara pushed away from Alex shoving her to the ground and she sped off as she felt most of her powers had returned, she was a blur through the D.E.O. and took off as soon as she hit the balcony.
She broke the soundbarrier as she sped her way to the LCorp office that she spend so much time in, laughing, crying, hugging, kissing and eating lunch.
All thoughts and memories stopped intruding her mind as she let herself fall on the balcony, cracking the concrete in the meantime and she walked in, half expecting Lena to be sitting at the desk.
She looked around the office trying to find some sign of life, not finding any she let out a gutwrenching scream and fell to her knees as reality sank in.
Jess came running in the office with security behind her, but she quickly ushered them away when she saw the broken Girl Of Steel.
"Supergirl?" Kara looked up, her vision blurry from all the tears but she could vaguely make Jess out as she kneeled in front of her, her hand gently on her shoulder.
A look of recognition passed across Jess' face as she let out a soft gasp followed by "Kara I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry" she repeated as her voice broke and hugged the blonde tight.
Kara's hands instinctively went around her back, her forehead on Jess' shoulder as her body shook with the strength of her sobs "I'm sorry Kara" was the only thing Jess could think of saying.
"Anything you need, I'll be here. Don't be afraid to ask, okay? I got you" Kara suddenly pushed her away so she fell backwards, reaching back with her hands to catch herself and Kara suddenly stood up.
A guilty and pained expression took over as she realized what she did but Jess quickly said "it's okay, I understand. It's okay" and she promptly turned away and flew off again, high into the skies.
As she reached the highest she could reach she let out another scream, releasing her heatvision along with it and she let herself drop when the scream subsided.
The ground moved closer and closer but she just couldn't bother herself to fly back up just yet, it wasn't until the gasps and screams and screeching cars reached her ears that she changed directions and went back up.
After a while exhaustion took over and she fell into a open area in the middle of the woods, she grunted from pain and exertion as she made a few barrelrolls and ended the roll as she slammed her back against a tree.
"Fuck" she gasped out and stretched out her limbs and took off again to her apartment, but as she landed in her livingroom she remembered why she didn't want to come here in the first place.
Visions danced in front of her eyes everywhere she looked in the small apartment.
Cooking dinnner in the kitchen while her front was pressed up against Lena's back, dancing around the coffeetable to music playing on the radio.
Laying on the couch with Lena on top of her, their lips on each other, hands exploring underneath shirts accompanied by giggles and gasps.
A book thrown across the room to hit Kara on her face as she revealed herself to be Supergirl, only to be followed by apologies from Lena for hitting her in the face while she meant to aim for her torso, followed by chuckles and hugs and more kisses.
The front door opening and the two girls stumbling through it, wide smiles as Kara kicked the door shut and Lena pushed her against it, hands instantly on her breasts.
Kara shook her head trying to get rid of the memories and she walked to the bedroom, tears falling freely on her cheeks.
But before she was able to cross the treshold a wild sob broke free as her hand flew to her mouth and her knee's started to buckle and give way to her weight.
The bed was freshly made and Lena's pyjama laid on her pillow, her dress for tomorrow hanging on a hanger on the closet, her perfume lingered around her invading every one of her senses.
Before her mind could conjure up any more visions of the past she flew out of her apartment and straight to her sister, she didn't bother knocking on the window and instead let herself in through the window.
"Kara!" Maggie shot up from the couch "Alex has been looking everywhere for you!" she let out in a single breathe and all Kara could do was walk over to her and hug her, her head falling to Maggie's shoulder as she cried.
"It's okay Kara, let it all out, let's sit" she comforted the little Danvers sister and as Kara curled up against her she texted Alex to let her know Kara had come to their apartment.
Her hands made soothing circles on her back as she cooed her, making her feel loved and cared for as she let out the pain of losing her girlfriend.
Alex came home and Maggie shushed her immediately as Kara had fallen asleep, curled against her sister in law and Alex' heart broke more as she saw her sister so completely broken.
"How is she?" Alex asked, her voice hoarse from the tears spilled for the young girl "Not good, she didn't say anything, just flew in and hugged me and started crying. She passed out about five minutes ago"
Alex nodded her head and sighed, her fingers pinching the bridge of her nose "are you okay Danvers?" she asked softly, worried about the two Danvers sisters she loves so dearly and Alex nodded again.
"Yeah, I'm just worried about Kara. I don't know if she'll ever be the Kara we knew after this. She was so in love with Lena. I mean if it was you I don't know what I would do. I'd probably kill the one responsible"
Maggie smiled a half smile and motioned to the other side of her on the couch "c'mere" she said and Alex walked over and sat beside her, her feet curled under her legs as she to rested her head on Maggie's shoulder.
"So this is what a Danvers sandwich feels like, wish I found out in different circumstances" Alex chuckled lightly "you'll get a proper one someday. I love you" she said as she kissed Maggie's cheek "I love you too Alex"
"I'm not gonna be able to move while she's asleep against me, am I?" and Alex beamed as she shook her head in the negative "I tried that, it's like moving a marble statue by yourself, it won't work. Might as well make yourself comfortable"
And so Maggie did and they both fell asleep after a little while, both women scared for the sleeping blonde on their couch, but neither willing to admit it out loud.
Morning came too soon and Kara shot up like a bullet muttering apology after apology for falling asleep like that and preparing to fly away again before being stopped by both women.
"You are not running away again Kara! Stay. Please. If not for yourself then for us. You need to deal with this, you need to cry" Alex sternly said and Kara's eyes glowed up in a rage as she screamed.
"I DON'T WANT TO CRY! I WANT TO KILL THE ONE RESPONSIBLE FOR HER DEATH" her eyecolor returned to normal as she took a deep breathe and let the fearful expression of Maggie seep into her bones and another sob unwillingly broke free.
She whispered barely loud enough for Alex to hear "I'm responsible. I wa-wasn't f-fast enough" Alex caught on where she was going and took the few steps forward and grabbed her head in her hands and forced her to look up and into her eyes.
"You know this isn't your fault Kara. Even if you would have been fast enough then you would have died to" and Kara's face scrunched up.
"So? I would be with her then. I wouldn't have to live a near immortal live knowing I lost the woman of my dreams because of my failure!" she nearly shouted at Alex, hating the comfort being so freely given to her while she felt like she didn't deserve it.
Her jaw was set, worming her way out of Alex' grasp she hugged her arms around herself readying herself for another ramble of words about her incompotence as their phones all went off in the same time.
Kara looked at her boot, feeling her phone vibrate but looked up as she heard her name being called out in shock and mild panic and both Maggie and Alex showed their phones and she promptly reached for her own phone pulling it out to see the same name flashing,
Lena, Lena was calling them, but how?
Her heart beat faster as she picked up "Baby? Is that you? Lena? Lena! Are you there?" not a word was ushered against her and then a dialtone was heard and Kara's eyes grew wide with panic.
"I need to find her!" Kara said as she got ready to take off again before being once again stopped by the two women "Kara stop!" Maggie spoke up for the first time.
"We don't even know if it truly is Lena, for all we know it might have been a way to get under our skin. A Cadmus trick. This doesn't mean she's alive. We should go to the D.E.O. and trace the call and see where it leads us"
Kara shook her head, thinking the words over, her eyebrows furrowing to create the wellknown crinkle and then nodded "when we find her, don't stop me"
Neither Maggie nor Alex had it in them to correct her to 'if', knowing that this was most likely a trick by Cadmus to further break Supergirl, so they simply nodded and convinced Kara to go with them by car.
When they arrived they were greeted by Bob, a tall handsome D.E.O. Agent, his arms covered in tattoos from various movies and comicbooks and good friend of Winn "Supergirl! Ma'ams! We got your message and set up a tracking algorythm to try and locate where the call originated from!"
Kara nodded curtly and briskly walked over to the monitor, Bob's eyes following her movement "how is she holding up?" he asked his superior "as well as you'd expect" came Alex' reply.
"She blames herself" she spoke softly, Bob had joined the D.E.O. three years ago and joined Alex on practically every mission ever since, the two growing close comrades and when he met Kara it was an instant connection.
Winn fanboyed with him relentlessly as they talked about comicbooks and movies and often had what Kara teasingly started calling 'game dates' where they would play games online and try to a best the other in their favorite games.
It was safe to say that Bob was as much part of the family as James and Winn are and both girls had confided their fears and interests in him.
Bob nodded once and turned to Supergirl to speak, but as he opened his mouth the sister's phones went off again and Kara answered it within the first ring "LENA!? Lena is that you?" no answer.
"Lena please let me know if you're alive, if you cant speak then press a number, make some noise. Sokau! I'm begging you. Lena. Please" she waited for a sign of life, anything to prove that it wasn't Cadmus playing with her, but none came and the line went dead once more.
In a fit of rage she almost threw her phone through the building but remembered at last minute that it was her last line to find Lena "TRACE THAT CALL!" she yelled out the order in no one in particular.
When no one moved she screamed out "WHY ISN'T ANYONE DOING SOMETHING!? WE HAVE TO FIND HER!" and Alex rushed over and brought her to the training area to try and calm her down "Kara this isn't helping anyone"
"She's out there Alex! And they're all looking at me like I've lost my mind. They don't believe me. You believe me right?" her voice was small, smaller than when she just arrive on earth, not ready to lose another piece of her life.
But as Alex looked guiltily at Kara, sympathy, guilt and pain in her eyes, Kara grew cold and distant "you don't believe me either" this time it wasn't a question, it was a statement of facts, one that was as cold as the Fortress Of Solitude.
"I believe that you want it to be true, but I think this is Cadmus playing with your head. They know who you are Kara and they know how much Lena meant to you. They're trying to break you" Alex tried to reason but she knew she had lost when all Kara said "mission accomplished" and stormed off through the lobby and flew off.
While she was up in the air her phone went off again and she checked it immediately, heart pounding in her throat as she realized she got a message instead of a phonecall and cried when she saw it was from Lena.
'Kar. Hlp. Empty bldng 13th & Grn Ave" Kara flew faster than she ever had before and crashed through the window X-Raying the place trying to find Lena in the massive building, her heart beating frantic in her chest.
And then her whole world stopped spinning as she laid eyes on a lone figure tied up and she ran as fast as she could, but as soon as she walked through the door she fell to her knees and screamed out in pain while she covered her ears.
A device similar to the one used during Metallo's attack in Lex' warehouse was set off, but this time it was louder and it felt like her skull was vibrating, grunting and whimpering she tried to ignore the pain and call out for Lena, but the figure didn't respond.
It wasn't until she tried to look around the room did she see the lone figure leaning against the doorway, glasses glinting in the dim light of the room making a corrective sound with his tongue.
"Always so willing to walk into trouble before checking with her superiors" that voice, she recognised it, but couldn't place it with the insistent ringing in her ears "who are you? Where is Lena?"
The man laughed a sickingly laugh as he said "you sound like a broken record" he imitated Kara's voice "Lena? Lena? Where is Lena?" his voice returned to its normal octave "its sickening. A Supor and a Luthor" he scoffed "digusting that a heir of such a great mind would fall for something as disgusting as an alien"
The device got turned off as the man walked closer and she could feel her stomach turn as the feeling of Kryptonite washed over her, she fell forward on her hands heaving as the Kryptonite grew stronger.
She glanced up and saw the very familiar tattoo's on a arm and she released a sob as she whimpered "Bob. Why? We were friends" he scoffed loudly "I would never call myself a friend of yours. I needed to come close to be able to hurt you the most. It was Lillians brilliant plan"
Kara whimpered as she tried to tune in to the tied up female figure, but didn't hear any breathing or heartbeat and she cried as her head spun wildly from the green roch hanging off Bob's neck.
"Green has always been my favorite color. Did you know that? I'm sure you did, but did you know why? Some think its because of one of the comics that I've read, but they're wrong. Its because its the color of the only material that can kill you" he sneered.
"It's amusing how a simple hack of a phone can cause you to lose yourself and ignore all the alarmbells that should be going off in that tiny head of yours" he said as he tapped her head "and then a very quick text that is missing vowels sealed the deal" and he kicked her in the face, making her fly backwards.
"That thing over there" he pointed over his shoulder as Kara gasped for air and rolled over sitting on her hands and knees "thats a dead shapeshifter, killed him while he was shifted into your little whore, so he'd be perfect bait for you" another kick but in the ribs and she could feel and hear them crack on impact.
Kara cried out in pain, every breath feeling like her ribs were stabbing her lungs "where-" a shallow breath "-is Lena?" she gasped out and Bob chuckled darkly "like your family said. She's finally dead, no longer a disgrace to the Luthor name"
Tears escaped her eyes as rage took over and she stood up on wobbly legs and Bob almost doubled over laughing "you think you can beat me? I'm wearing Kryptonite, Kara. You can't beat me. I can easily kill you right now if I wanted to" he said as he pointed a gun at her.
She didn't care if she got hurt or not, not anymore, all that was running through her mind was avenging the love of her life and if she died trying then so be it, cause at least she'd be close to her once more.
She squeezed her eyes shut to focus and then leapt at him landing a nice solid punch on his jaw, dropping his gun in surprise and she janked on the necklace and threw it to the other side of the room, hissing in pain as she got in direct contact with the stone.
Bob paled upon realizing that his necklace wasn't on his neck anymore and Kara walked over to him in a steady pace, Bob's face was held high, refusing to let fear control him and he took a fighting stance and motioned for Kara to come closer.
His steps faltered as Kara kept walking a steady pace as her eyes started glowing red and right at last minute she looked up and fired her heatvision to the roof, letting parts of debris fall on top of him, a last "oh shit" was heard before his body was hidden from view.
She couldn't care if he was dead or not, couldn't care if she was now a murderer for he had admitted that Lena was dead, murdered by Cadmus, dead because she wasn't fast enough.
The flight home was fast and uneventful, she send a quick text to Alex telling her to go to that building with a clean up crew when she got home and sat on the windowsill after changing into a more comfortable outfit.
She stared out in a daze watching the world go by, watching the stars fade and the sun come up, her phone had gone off a couple of times but she refused to look at it.
Morning came and she moved from the windowsill to the couch, tugging her knees up to her chest as she wrapped her arms around them, hugging them tight to her chest.
Tears turned to sobs and sobs turned to screaming and screaming turned into overflowing sickness as she sped to the toilet and emptied the contents of her stomach.
After she was done throwing up whatever was inside, she curled up on the cold tiled floor, not wanting to move so she laid there for the better part of the morning.
She moaned in annoyance when there was a loud insistent knocking on her front door followed by a almost yelling Alex Danvers "Kara open up! I know you're in there! Kara please! I know you're hurting, let me help" after not getting a reply she added "I know you can see me" in a softer tone.
But nothing worked to get her sister to open the door "Kara if you dont open up in ten seconds I swear to God I will kick down this door" she counted in her head and sighed when she reached ten and the door still hadn't opened.
She grabbed out her spare key and opened the door and instantly got worried when she didn't see her younger sister "Kara? Where are you?" her worry increased when she didn't get a response, fearing for her little sister she called out louder "KARA?"
A grunt was heard from the bathroom and she ran over and kneeled next to Kara when she spotted her laying on the floor "oh Kara" her heart shattered when she saw the soulless eyes "come on, lets get you somewhere comfortable"
But when her hands tried to pull her up she got shoved away with a growl "no!" Alex swallowed roughly "Kara come on" and she reached out to her sister again but got shoved away harder than intended causing her to stumble backwards.
"I said no" was spoken in a fierce growl "leave me alone Alex" but she didn't listen and took a few steps forward on her knees, laying down next to Kara "fine, then I'll stay here next to you. That works just as well" she got as comfortable as she could knowing they were going to be there for a while.
"So that building you send me to, it was a mess, but there was nothing there" Kara looked at her intently "bullshit" was the only thing said.
"There was a dead shapeshifter who assumed Lena's identity to trick me in there and Bob was there as well. He was working with Cadmus, he got Cadmus close to us. I killed him, Alex, I dropped the ceiling on top of him, he has to be there"
As she spoke the words out loud her stomach twisted again and she quickly moved up to the toilet and emptied more of her, what she assumed already empty, stomach as Alex rubbed her lower back while holding her hair back.
"He took her phone and send me a message. I really thought it was her, Alex. I- I thought she- I thought she made it. That it was just a bad dream" she cried as she collapsed in Alex' waiting arms.
"She's dead. He confirmed it and then I killed him. She's really gone Alex. I- I don't know what to do" she admitted as she buried her face in the crook of her big sister neck "you take your time, all the time you need to mourn so you can eventually move on. There is nothing you can do, Kara
Kara you didn't kill anyone, there was no one there. No shapeshifter, no Bob, no one. It was a mess and a hole in the roof that matches what you said, but there were no bodies" Kara pulled away from her embrace and gave her a confused stare before realisation dawned.
"Cadmus, they must've been watching. They took them away before you could find them. They removed the evidence" Alex nodded at Kara's words "that does sound like them"
Alex stood up holding her hand out to her little sister who reluctantly took it, she wordlessly dragged her to the bedroom and to the bed "lay down, you need to properly rest" Kara shook her head even though her eyes were drooping just at the sight of the comfortable pillows.
Kara. Don't make me use my mom voice" Kara sighed and got into bed, turning on her side she almost instantly passed out from exhaustion, she vaguely felt Alex tuck her in completely.
The exhaustion took her into a memory filled dream of Lena, replaying all their good moments and bad combined.
The dream contained memories from their first fight to their first kiss, their first date and their first meeting, their first time spending the night and the first time they were photographed holding hands in public.
When she woke up the day had already gone by as the stars shone brightly in the nightsky and the alarmclock read four fifteen A.M. but Kara made no move to get up, she laid there, silent tears pooling on her pillow.
"Lena. Please come back to me. Sokau Lena. I need you. I can't be Supergirl without you. I'll do anything" she cried as she reached over the nightstand to grab the pictureframe that held a photo of them together made at their first gamenight as a couple.
She frowned as something fell from behind the frame and she turned to peek over the bed and a heavy, loud sob broke free as she saw the small black container laying on the floor.
Alex rushed over and stopped dead in her tracks as she saw what Kara was looking at "oh Kara. I was hoping you didn't find that yet" Kara gingerly reached out and grabbed the small box and opened it.
In it was a simple ring with two flat diamonds in them, one red and one blue on top of a golden band, Kara dropped the box on the bed as heavy sobs shook her entire body and Alex ran over and engulfed her into a strong hug.
"It's okay, let it out Kara. Let it out. It's okay, I've got you and I'm never letting you go. Get it out of your system" Alex repeated over and over as Kara continued to cry and eventually cried herself back to sleep.
Alex was still holding on to her tightly, her own tears leaving their trail on her face as she tried her best to keep it together for her broken little sister.
"Oh Kara" she whispered as she kissed the top of her head as she cradled her tightly to herself, needing the comfort almost as much as Kara needed.
It had been four days since she found the ring and she has been wearing it non stop ever since, crying herself to sleep every night, there had been no sightings of Supergirl since the bombing and speculations were running wild.
She had received a care package from Cat, a email of condolonces from Snapper and too many flowers to keep track off.
Tomorrow was the funeral where they would be burying a empty coffin and Alex had ran into her house not bothering to knock, but Kara didn't even look up from her spot on the bed, clutching the picture frame and playing with her ring.
"Kara! Get off your ass and come with me right now!" her tone left no room for discussion and Kara looked up quizically before saying "No. I'm not going anywhere and you can't make me. You know I'm stronger than you" she talked without emotion.
"DAMNIT KARA" she shouted as she stormed over and grabbed Kara's arm and yanked her off the bed and onto her feet earning a very surprised look from the Kryptonian "it's about Lena! Now get dressed and come with me"
Kara stood still, spluttering a mess of "But how" and "How did you" but reluctantly got into action as Alex literally growled at her "she's dead Alex, whats the point?" she sighed deeply as she slowly walked to the bathroom to get dressed in presentable clothes.
"The point is that we found her, Kara" Alex explained and Kara stilled in the bathroom, one leg in her pants while standing on the other "you- you found her? Is she- I mean can I see her? Is she- is she still her?" she fumbled over her words trying to get the words in her head out in coherent words.
"Why do you think I'm getting you and no you're not flying, you're sitting in the passenger seat of my car" Alex said as she walked to the front door with Kara on her heels.
Kara looked over at the unusually quiet Alex, not even a idiotic driver in a different car could make her comment and it unnerved Kara "what happened to your roadrage?" she asked and Alex mumbled something that sounded like "no time for roadrage"
It took seven minutes longer than usual to get to the D.E.O. because of the traffic and Alex grew more restless by the minute "okay whats going on? Alex I've never seen you this anxious. Not even when you were about to come out during Thanksgiving"
Alex just pretended not to hear the question and kept walking, straight into the D.E.O. Headquarters where a videofeed was brought up of Bob in a holding cell and Kara gasped loudly "how is he alive? I dropped a ceiling on him!" Winn looked up and said "Cadmus 'enhanced' him, or so he said, we got another mole as well, Jason"
Disgust was written all over Winn's face as he uttered the name "Agent Hunter found the lead to him and he lead us to Bob who in turn lead us to Le-" Alex coughed loudly to stop Winn from talking and Kara turned to Alex in a flash.
"So you did find her?" she asked, hope filling her voice beyond her control "Kara, I need you to come with me first" and so they walked together to a empty briefing room, away from spying ears.
"We found Lena, yes, but Kara there are some things you need to know. When we found her, she wasn't doing well, Cadmus left her to die after she got injured from the blast. They made her work on some projects and when she was done they moved and left her. She was without care for six days"
Kara held a sob back as she took in all the information given to her, scared to know more but wanting to know if her girlfriend, no fiancé, was going to be alright, so she nodded to signal Alex to continue.
"Some of the debris of the bomb got lodged into her side and abdomen, it tore through a smaller artery so she suffered quite some bloodloss. She also has a broken arm, probably inflicted by Hanshaw when she refused to co operate with them.
She has extensive lacerations and bruising in her face which will all heal without a scar within a few days, she was delirious when we found her and in her attempt to fight us she fell backwards on a sharp piece of debris and it impaled her lower back.
It's been safely removed in surgery and it missed every major vessle and organ in her body so she is extremely lucky, she's alive, but barely, Kara, she's fighting and the woman you will see on that bed will not be the woman you know, that woman is currently a shell hooked up to various machines to keep her alive"
Kara nodded as tears streamed down her face as she took all of this new information in, Lillian had left her for dead, her own daughter, she knew she was capable of it after she kidnapped her, but to know she truly didn't care if she died was unsettling.
"Kara, do you still want to see her?" Kara bit her lip and felt selfish for even doubting if she wanted to after what Alex explained, but in the end she nodded and said "yes, please. I want to see her"
They walked slowly to the room that Lena was being held in and Alex waited by the door untill Kara gave the signal that she was ready, she took a deep breath and nodded for Alex to open the door.
She walked inside, her head bowed, staring intently at the floor as she listened to the beeping of the machines around her that were keeping her soulmate alive.
One of the beeping fell in perfect sync with Lena's steady heartbeat, while another was in tune with her breathing, Alex had explaind that she was hooked up to a machine to help her breathe while they kept her in a medically induced coma to help her heal.
Tears fell on her cheeks as she looked up and saw Lena's broken body on the bed, bandages on her face had small red patches, her left arm was in a cast and a quick glance with her x-ray vision showed multiple bandages on her abdomen.
"I'll leave you to it, if there's anything you need Kara, I'll be right down the hall okay?" Kara looked at her sister with gratitude in her eyes and nodded "thank you Alex"
She grabbed a chair from the the opposite side of the room and set it next to Lena's rightside bed where she could hold her uninjured hand and kissed it softly.
Tears fell freely as she listened intently to her heartbeat, tuning out every machine in the room and focussing solely on the beat of her heart and the steady breathing being guided by the medical equipment.
"Lena, I'm not sure if you can hear me. I hope you can. I thought I would never get to listen to your heartbeat again. I thought that I would never hear your laugh again, never saw those beautiful green eyes of yours.
They told me that you died in the bombing six days ago. You were dead. We were supposed to bury you tomorrow. I lost myself and I killed a guy, Lena. I killed someone to avenge you, Cadmus brought him back, but still.
I never thought I was capable of that, but I am. I truly am my parent's daughter. And I guess it's not a bad thing, well it is, it is a bad thing, but I think I understand them now, after losing you, losing my world again, I get it" a deep breathe was taken before she continued.
"I found the ring, I grabbed our photo to hug it tight and the box fell, it was very cleverly hidden, baby. I don't think I would've found it in a normal situation.
You can ask me to marry you when you wake up and I will say yes, I've been wearing it non stop since I found it anyway, might as well make it official then.
Lena khak zao rrip, rrip zehdh ukep, sokau Lena, sokau" she repeated as she silently cried as her head rested on her arm, holding on tightly to Lena's hand "Khak nim nahn i zrhemin, Lena, sokau nahn voi" she fell asleep as tears kept slipping from her eyes.
She was kept in a medically induced coma for a week before they decided to let her wake up, making sure most of the wounds had healed so she was in little of pain as possible and in that time Kara had not once strayed from her.
She stayed in the D.E.O. and even going so far as to showering in the lockerroom to make sure that she was always close by in case something happened, three people had tried to talk her into going home and regretted it almost immediately and silently thanked Kara's self control for not setting off her heatvision.
They stopped the medication three hours ago and realized with the long exposure to the medical cocktail it would take up to four hours to get it out of her system and for her to slowly wake up.
Kara gripped Lena's hand as her head rested on her arm and she dozed off, overcome by the emotions and exhaustion of the past weeks.
She got woken from a soft tug on her hand, followed by a groan and she jumped up "Lena! You're awake! Nahkluv Rao!" she gushed out with a dopey smile and more tears streaming down her face.
Lena smiled and entwined her fingers with Kara's "khakk ulir rrip" she husked out, the recently removed tube causing her voice to tremble a little, Alex had said that her throat would be hurting for a bit from it.
"I heard you talk, Kara" her finger played with the ring on Kara's ringfinger "do you like it?" and Kara just nodded heavily "I love it, Lena, I love you. Even if you had asked with with a candy ring I still would have said yes"
The two girls shared a small smile as Kara stood up and pressed her lips together with Lena and whispered, after pulling back "khak nim nahn i zrhemin" Lena's eyebrows furrowed and she asked what it meant and Kara just smiled even wider.
"It means, I will be your wife" Lena smiled widely and pressed her lips forward to quickly peck Kara on her lips again right as the door opened and Alex walked in.
"Good to have you back Lena. Less good to catch you hooking up with my sister, again" and they chuckled as they moved away, Kara making room for Alex to do her check ups.
"How long have I been out?" she asked no one in particular "well it took a while before we found you and then we kept you in a coma so you'd heal without problems" Alex said but Lena narrowed her eyes "thats not what I asked"
Alex smiled wryly "you've been out for a week, but it took us six days to find you" Alex didn't look at Lena to know that she was shaken, the sharp inhale of breath was sign enough.
"You were in a pretty bad shape when we found you, they made us believe you were dead Lena. I'm sorry. We should've been looking for you" Alex said, her voice cracking as Lena grabbed her hand and squeezed tightly "its not your fault Alex, if the roles were reversed I don't think I'd have done anything differently"
She made sure to look at Kara in that moment, her eyes glazed over with guilt and pain "I'm just gonna finish the examination of your wounds and then I'll leave you two to talk things through" and the two women nodded and remained silent throughout Alex' administrations, listing off Lena's injuries.
"All done, you'll be able to go home in about three days, I just want to keep you here for observation for a little bit" Lena nodded and said her thanks as Alex turned around and walked away.
"How are you doing?" Lena spoke up tentatively and tried very hard not to laugh out loud at the look of utter shock and surprise etched on the blonde's face "I should be asking YOU that! Lena you were dead, we were going to bury you and I- I just- I ki-" a loud gasp was uttered instead of finishing the sentence.
"Hey hey Kara come here darling" Kara slowly inched her way to her fiancé as Lena sat up as good as she could "why did you?" Kara stared at her, tears threatening to spill as she was talking about this for the first time "cause he was responsible for your death"
A heartwrecking sob broke free from Kara "I had lost my world again and I couldn't deal with it, I wanted revenge. I just- I- I wanted the pain to stop and I thought by doing that it would get less. But I was wrong, it only made it worse"
Lena rubbed her back as Kara sat on her bed, her face nuzzled in the crook of her neck, her gown growing wet on her shoulder where Kara's tears collected "it's okay Kara. We can help each other through this"
Kara's fist were full with Lena's gown, doing her best not to hurt her even more than she already was "rrip non dhehraogh, Lena" she cried into her shoulder, Lena was still learning Kryptonian but she was pretty sure that she knew what Kara was saying.
"But I'm here now, Kara. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere, I promise. Darling look at me" she pushed Kara away gently, urging her eyes to meet her own "we can work through this together, khak zao rrip Kara Zor El, khuhtiv zrhemin"
A happy sob broke from Kara as Lena spoke the Kryptonian words and she surged forward kissing her deeply on her lips, Lena responded in kind, happy to be back in her lovers arms.
When they broke apart Lena whispered "I think I'm going back to sleep now, I'm really tired" Kara nodded and helped her lay back down and tugged her in as she fell asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow again.
Kara sat back in the chair, gingerly touching her lips as Lena's words were repeated over and over in her mind, a big goofy grin apparant on her face as she got as comfortable as she could on the chair and soon fell asleep thinking of Lena.