Hey there!
Ok, before anything…I've just started watching 90210, so I don't really know much about the series…
This is a Sannie. So Femslash haters, don't read to insult…simply don't read it.
The rating isn't defined yet…I'll leave it as T for now, but it may go up.
Enjoy!
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Erin Silver's hand was trembling when she hung up her cell phone in that warm night. A whole new feeling was running through her body-like a drug. And it confused her, because the same time that she enjoyed the feeling…it scared her.
She glanced once more to the cell phone's screen, which still was showing Annie's number. Annie…her new best friend. Annie, who was the only one she could truly trust after all the mess and hurt caused to her family by her father. Annie, whom she now had developed entirely new feelings for.
"No, it's not like that…" she mumbled to herself.-Her right hand ran through her dark hair.-The words repeated through her mind, sounding like a soft whisper. It's not like that…it's not like that…
Suddenly angry with herself, she tossed her cell phone on her bed and headed to the bathroom.-A shower would hopefully relax her.
As she let the warm water run through her body her thoughts started attacking her once more.
Relax, Silver, you're just being stupid.-she tried to convince herself.-It's just Annie. Your best friend...a girl.-She frowned-You do not, I repeat, do NOT have feelings for her.
She finished showering and headed to her room with a towel wrapped around her form; another wrapped around her wet dark hair.-She was surprised to see Kelly, her half-sister, sitting on the edge of her bed with an expression on her face that clearly meant 'I know something's troubling you, now tell me what's going on'.
"Uh…hey?" Silver said before turning to her wardrobe to search for her clothes. Kelly stayed silent until she sat on her bed with her clothes hanging on her left arm.
"Silver." Kelly's blue eyes were full of concern when they met hers.
"Yes?" Silver could feel her body already tensing up.-A chat with Kelly about her confused feeling was not what she wanted at the moment.
"What's going on?" Kelly asked, going straight to the point. Silver frowned in upset.
"Nothing's going on, Kelly." She unconsciously clenched her hands into fists.
"Well, doesn't seem like so." It was Kelly's turn to frown. "You've been acting different lately."
"So?" Silver snapped. "It's not that big of a deal." Kelly's expression turned even more serious.
"It is when it affects your grades."
The anger couldn't keep from rising in Silver's body. It was starting to run like acid through her veins. Again with that stupid crap about grades…-she though, furious-Kelly can be such a pain in the neck!
"I'm worried about you, Silver." Kelly reached for her shoulder and Silver looked away from her as she jerked her shoulder away.
"Already told you it's nothing." She said-her voice was a bitter tone.
"Well, that nothing's turned you into a bitter person." Kelly said, getting angry as well. "And no one seems to be standing that."
"Their problem, not mine." Silver snapped out coldly.
"You have to realize that you're hurting the ones that want to help you." Kelly grabbed her chin gently to make her little sister face her. But the look Silver shot her made her heart sting.
"Maybe I don't need their help." Silver's piercing blue eyes were as cold as ice. Kelly frowned in frustration. This was not the Silver she knew. This was a broken hearted person who had locked herself up in numbness. And she feared that she eventually would break…Then it would be too late. "Maybe I just wanna be left alone." The bitterness of Silver's voice got her angry side winning. Kelly stood up with her fists clenched.
"As you wish." With that she walked out of the room.
Silver sighed in frustration. She had done it again.-She kept hurting everyone that cared for her.-It was driving her mad.
She just wanted to stop doing that. Lately she had been a bitch, she admitted it. But no one ever stuck to her to give her comfort.
Well…Annie did. Her always cheerful best friend called her every night for long talks-it meant everything to her. She meant everything to her.
But she was afraid that she might loose it someday.-And the last thing she wanted was to hurt Annie. Or worse…spill out her feelings for her.
Feelings that DON'T exist!-she found herself yelling on her mind-How many times do I have to tell myself that?! I DON'T have feelings for her! I can't have…!
She felt the tears struggling to run down her cheeks, but she stopped them. She was not going to cry…she could not cry. It would be allowing herself to be weak.-And that's what Jackie hated the most about her.
…
"Silver."
"Hmmm?"
"Silver, wake up." Annie was poking her best friend's arm in an attempt to wake her-with no success. "Wake up!" Silver let out a groan, still not opening her eyes.-Her head still lying over the books on her desk. "Silver, you're gonna get detention!"
"Wouldn't be the first time…" Silver had now opened her eyes, but didn't lift her head from her desk. For a moment Annie forgot about the teacher and the boring calculus he was writing on board.-The sea-blue, a bit grayish, color of Silver's eyes got her hypnotized.-as well as the crooked smile she was sending her. Annie just loved the way her best friend's blue eyes made an impacting contrast with her shoulder-length black hair.
"Annie?" she heard Silver call-her voice farther away. "Earth to Annie!"
"Huh? What?" The light-haired girl snapped from her thoughts. Silver smirked.
"Someone's lovesick." She said in a sing-song voice. Annie felt a wave of blush rise on her cheeks.
"I am not!" Annie snapped. Her mind kept reminding her that it was a lie.
"Oh, you are." Silver said, the smirk never leaving her face. "Tell me who he is." Silver's own sentence made her flinch, and that made her rise an eyebrow with confusion.-Confusion that rose when Annie's brown eyes widened, the blush on her cheeks rising.
"It's not…" she let out in a strangled tone, almost a painful whisper.
"It's not what?" Silver asked.-She was getting more confused at every second. Annie shook her head.
"Nothing…forget it." The phrase 'it's not a he' was out of question. However, the look on Silver's face, whose smirk had faded, told her that it wasn't over. She was stubborn enough to keep pushing on the subject.-The thought made her gulp. What if Silver finds out…?-she thought-She already doesn't trust anyone, imagine if I told her how I feel…she'd hate me!
"Annie, you're zoning out again!"
Annie turned even redder and went back to lock gazes with Silver, rubbing her right hand shyly.
"Oh…sorry." She said. "I don't know what's got into me today." Only the fact that I'm completely in love with you…
"Gee, Annie…you're acting weird." Silver stated. Annie sighed. "C'mon, you'll get better if you tell me what's wrong."
"I can't." Annie shot her an apologetic look and then went back on paying attention to the board.
"Why not?" Silver hissed, starting to get a bit angry because her own best friend didn't trust her.
"I just can't" Annie replied-fear in her voice. Silver's anger quickly turned into concern.
"Gosh, Annie…" she said, feeling her blue eyes widening. "Is it something bad?!" Annie turned back to look at her, with a motionless face.
"Just work on your equations, Silver."
"Fine." With that she turned back to her notebook. Annie sighed once more. It was not easy, what she was feeling. It was pure confusion…and she didn't know how to deal with it.
"Oh, Silver, if only you knew…" Annie said in a soft, almost mute, whisper.
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Ok, do you like it so far?
Just fro the record, this fic isn't planned to be much long…But I promise loads and loads of Sannie interaction!
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