Everthing around me was spinning. All of the breath was gone from my lungs and nothing mattered. I disn't care if i lived or died- all i cared about was her. Jade.
If i never saw her again that would be for the best. She- and the baby, didn't need me wrecking their lives.
I woke up lying down in a bed. I made a move to sit up but something yanked me back down. I twisted my head to either side and saw the restraints. Then i started yelling.
Someone came immediatly.
"It's for your own safety, Drew."
"LET ME OUT! I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU- ILL KILL YOU ALL. DON'T THINK I WON'T. LET ME GO! GET ME OUT OF HERE!"
The world was blurry and distortes- like i was watching it through one of those mirrors at the fairground. I tried to yank my arms out but to no avail.
I couldn't feel myself. I couldn't feel my body. All i knew was that i needed her. I needed Jade.
Suddenly through the chaos i felt something warm and wet flood my hand. Blood. It was blood. My whole world was red.
Nothing made sense. I could hear the incohearent screams that filled the air- surely that wasn't me?
"Mr Kelly if you don't seise causing harm to yourself then we'll have to sedate you."
"I DON'T CARE! CAN'T YOU SEE I DON'T CARE ANYMORE! NOTHING MATTERS."
I felt a sharp prick in my neck, a small sting but it didn't happen how i would have thought. There was just this feeling of emmense calm and even though i was screaming i couldn't make a sound. I couldn't feel anythng- it was like i was concious but outside reality.
And then... Nothing.