State of Mind

Disclaimer: The meanies at CBS own the characters that are familiar. I own the ones that are not familiar. Mild language warning.

Summary: Calleigh survives but, can she survive the attack on her mind?

Chapter 1

Six months later

She gazed at herself in the full mirror , and for the first time in what felt like forever, she smiled. The gown was gorgeous the day was perfect. She was going to marry him today. She strode to the door with her bouquet in hand and opened it.. Walking to the sanctuary, she heard the beautiful melodies of the wedding music as it played. Stopping at the closed doors, she gathered her breath and closed her eyes. She pushed the heavy doors open and instead of happy well wishers , she saw as people where holding their head down, crying. She was unable to see the pulpit through her veil, so she lifted it up. Why are all these people crying , she thought. Walking down the aisle, she heard a voice echo through the church.

" Friends, we come here today to celebrate the life of Timothy James Speedle. He was a compassionate man, who loved to fight for what was right. He was sadly cut down in the prime of his life..."

No, she thought, he can't be dead.

She picked up the long train and made her way to the front of the church. She stopped in her tracks as she saw the mahogany casket, surrounded by white lilies. Inside , she could see him, his eyes closed and his hands folded He was dead.

She backed up , not believing her eyes. She had to get away. As she turned , she heard a familiar voice, " Calleigh, I've been waiting for you. It's so lonely here. Won't you come and stay with me...For eternity?"

She saw Therrin as she remembered him, crazed look in his eyes , his body filled with bullet holes. He reached out to grab her, and she screamed at his touch...

" Whoa, whoa , Calleigh! Wake up! Calleigh!", Speed said shielding himself from the wild blows.

Calleigh stopped flailing at the sound of his voice. She opened her eyes, thankful that he was here. She grabbed his neck roughly, pulling him to her. Speed felt her as her body caved under the sobs.

" Shhh,it's okay, babe. It wasn't real. It was another nightmare," he said trying to calm her. Every since she had gotten out of the hospital she had been having the nightmares. Each night, they seemed to be getting worse.

" It' seemed so real, Tim. You were in that casket. Dead," Calleigh said into his neck. She felt the warmness of his skin as he held her tightly.

" Well, I'm right here, and I'm not leaving. Not when we have company coming in three more months," he replied touching her swollen stomach. Calleigh had survived her captivity and by a miracle, the pregnancy was unharmed. He pulled her away from him and looked into her green eyes. " He can't do anything to you. He's gone. He can't hurt you anymore,Calleigh."

Calleigh looked into his chocolate eyes, losing herself in them, and sighed, " I know he's dead. But it seems like he is still stalking me. I can't shake this feeling, Tim. This feeling of being watched."

Tim craddled her head in his palms, " I'm watching you Calleigh. I am the only one. Now, since you are up..."

" Breakfast?" Calleigh asked with a light smile on her lips.

" Yes. I got to be at work in an hour," Speed said kissing her on the forehead before getting up and going to the bathroom. Calleigh saw the red scar where the bullet exited his chest, and felt a twinge of guilt. He almost died,she thought.

Thankful that he didn't, Calleigh exhaled deeply and pulled the covers off of her legs, swinging them over the bed. She felt the cast as it pulled the blood down to her ankle. She looked at it, her mind taking her back to the room. The body. She felt goosebumps rise on her neck as the horrid details played in slow motion. Her grip on the covers tightened and she began to breath heavily. She closed her eyes and tried to steady her breathing ,but it was no use. Her eyes shot open and she stared out .

" Cal, can you make wa— Calleigh!" Speed exclaimed as he rushed over to her. She was having another panic attack. He laid her down on the bed and fumbled through the drawer for the doctor's phone number. He found it and punched in the number on his cell phone.

" Dr. Matthews? This is Tim Speedle. It's Calleigh. She's having another panic attack."

TBC...

Sorry it's so short, but I had a slight attack of writer's block. Let me know what you think about it so far.