Reality
Chapter 1: Awake
This time I know it's my mother's hand, drawing me into her arms.
And I gladly go into her embrace.
I jump up and I am back on the chair in the aptitude test room. With Tori by my side.
"What the hell was that?" I shout at her.
"Beatrice, I had to give that to one sixteen year old from Abnegation, I chose you because of who your mother is. I'll explain more some other time. Just go home and tell everyone you got sick so I sent you home early."
"None of that was real?" I question.
"Look, it was based off what will happen if we can't stop Erudite. I needed to warn someone. I had to change it so you lived through the events of what is most likely to happen, but it would have only been that way if you chose Dauntless, so yeah. Also, some of it was true. Marcus did really beat his son, I know him and he showed me the scars, he told me everything. But you can't tell anyone. And there really is a Bureau of Genetic Welfare, your mum helped me, I was quite good friends with your parents."
"So I didn't really fall in love with Tobias?"
"That one I'm not too sure about."
"What do you mean?"
"Everything you did in there is what you would have done in those circumstances. If you were really there, that is what you would have done."
"How long was I in there?"
"Half an hour."
"What was my result?"
"Inconclusive. All five factions."
I'm shocked.
"But I only got three of them in the sim."
"Yeah but with everything you did throughout the entire thing you managed to bag Candor and Amity as well."
"I don't understand."
"I know. And the truth will come to you soon. I know you're probably going to pick Dauntless and because you already know how to pass training you are going to with flying colours. Just remember to not let anyone know you're Divergent. You should probably go before the supervisor comes. You were in there for a while."
"Fine. See you around, I guess."
She nods and I leave the room.
I head home, trying to clear my head from everything.
But I can't.
I don't know why but I still love Tobias, even if what happened in there wasn't real.
Why did my mum help her?
What the hell was going on?
Why did I need to see that?
Why?
Why?
Why?
…
I am at home, making dinner as it is my turn tonight.
My mum enters the room and I look at her. She smiles at me.
"How did your test go?"
"I think you know how it went. You helped her with it. Why me? Why did I have to see all that stuff?"
"Because I knew you would transfer to Dauntless. You always admired them. I also knew you were going to be Divergent, I could tell by every little thing you did. And because I wanted you to know the truth. Also, someone in Dauntless found war plans, the Dauntless leaders are going to help Jeanine get what she wants, we needed to prepare for it. We needed someone to see what was most likely to happen. Tori picked you because we still keep in touch and I told her about how I knew you were going to be Divergent, I saw how curious you are, and how brave you are, you admire the Dauntless, you're kind, you're honest, and you're selfless. I knew it had to be you because I wanted you to know about me, and I thought you could handle it. I want you to understand what is happening and how much danger you are in. I want you to know what will happen if no one can stop Jeanine and her followers from doing what they are planning. Also, I am not the only one who helped. We wanted to make it as real as possible so you couldn't tell it was a simulation."
"It was real. It felt real. I was in love, I still am. You died and I still feel the pain. I had to kill my best friend and I still feel the pain. And so much more. Are all those people real? Who else helped you?"
"Yeah, all those people are real, whether they will go to Dauntless or not, we don't know, we just picked a random bunch of sixteen year olds that looked like they might fit in. And Tobias helped."
"What?"
"He was the one who found the war plans. He gave us some details, like the fact his father did beat him and that Evelyn isn't dead. But we needed someone to go into the sim with you, to make it feel more real, and to add more details. He did. He went in there with you. He was in a different room, but he went in there. By the way, he is actually Divergent, what we made David say was wrong, we ran the same test David did on him. David is really horrible and he wants people to hate themselves so we thought we'd make that real. But Tobias was able to manipulate the sim from within it as well. We talked with him afterwards and he couldn't stop talking about you. It was sweet. He kept saying how he hoped you would transfer to Dauntless."
"Does he love me? Or was it just part of the sim?"
"Yeah, he loves you."
I smile slightly and go back to the stew I was making.
"He also wanted me to tell you that everything he said in there, to you, was true. He didn't keep anything from you. Well, except from the fact he wanted to marry you and have babies with you, even though he's terrified of becoming like his father. Also that there wasn't any protection when you guys, did it, in the Bureau. But don't worry, because it was a sim nothing would have happened. He just wanted to know if you minded."
I smile brighter.
"Really? And I don't mind. Even though now I feel guilty for going in the weapons lab instead of Caleb."
"Yeah. It's funny how love can be found so fast, and can last forever. It's like that with your father and me. We literally knew each other for a day and he asked me out, from that moment on I loved him. I always will. But, if you didn't go in there it would have lasted longer, and the baby you may have had wouldn't have been real. Now you can have real babies. Just not yet. You're only sixteen and I'm too young to be a grandma."
I laugh.
"Well, now I get a second chance at everything, I suppose."
"Yeah. Just remember that I love you, no matter what."
I nod.
"I love you, too."
…
When my name is called at the choosing ceremony, I know what to do.
I walk over to the five bowls, take the knife Marcus is offering me, trying not to scowl at him, and I cut open the palm of my hand, letting blood drip into the bowl of coals.
The Dauntless cheer and I look over at my parents. My dad looks upset, but my mum is smiling. She nods at me and I walk over to my new faction.
…
I jump first, again. I am pulled out of the net by familiar arms. When I'm on the ground I look up and see his deep blue eyes looking back at me, he's smiling. I smile at him too.
"What's your name?" He asks in his Four voice.
"Tris." I repeat from my time in the sim, but I don't hesitate. This is my name, always will be.
"First jumper – Tris!" He yells and I hear some Dauntless cheer.
He places his hand on the small of my back.
"Welcome to Dauntless." He says, leading me over to the waiting area. He sneaks a piece of paper into my hand and walks back to the net.
I look at it and it reads:
Tris,
Meet me at my apartment when everyone is asleep. It's exactly where it was in the sim.
Love, Tobias xxx
I smile and nod at him, he was looking at me.
…
When everyone has jumped the Dauntless borns go with Lauren and us transfers follow Tobias around for the tour, even though I already know where everything is. I managed to look around at the initiates and they are all the same people as they were in the sim. I tried so hard not to hug all the friends I had in the sim. But I know they don't know me. I'll just have to be friends with them again.
Christina and I are hitting it off like we did in the sim. Will is friends with us as well. Al is sitting with Peter and his followers but I don't mind.
We are in the cafeteria, eating dinner and I try to make it look like I haven't eaten a hamburger before. Technically I haven't but I still remember the taste from the sim. And it tastes exactly like that. Amazing.
Tobias sits two seats away from me.
Eric enters and it happens just like it did in the sim.
Why are a lot of things like they were in the sim?
I know they tried to make it look realistic so I didn't know it was a sim, but the conversation Eric had with us is almost an exact replica of what happened in the sim.
This is weirding me out.
…
I am lying in my bed, which also happens to be the same bed I had during initiation in the sim. I am waiting for everyone to go to sleep. But Al is awake, crying, like he was in the sim.
He sticks his head in the pillow and I leave as quietly as I can without him seeing me.
I walk to Tobias' apartment and knock on the door.
I am wearing black leggings and a black vest with some combat boots. The only thing that hasn't really happened like the sim is the fact that Christina dragged me shopping to get some Dauntless clothes so we have enough for training.
He opens the door and he is wearing what he was wearing earlier. Black jeans and a black t-shirt.
He smiles and lets me in.
He shuts the door, pushing me against it, and he kisses me. Passionately.
I kiss back.
"I was scared that I wouldn't get to do that again." He tells me.
"I was scared that I was going to come here and you wouldn't know me. Then when I was told you were in the sim as well I was scared you didn't love me. But my mum told me otherwise. She told me everything you told her to tell me."
"Good. You don't mind about the no protection thing, do you?"
"No. It was a sim. All it did was make me guiltier for going in there instead of Caleb, you know, just in case I was fake pregnant."
"Yeah, about that. Promise me you won't ever do something like that again."
"I promise. I only went in there because he wasn't doing it for the right reasons. And because I still loved him. I thought I was going to live. And anyway. It was a sim. One that felt very real, but still."
"Yeah, we had to make it as real as possible for you."
We sit on the sofa and he holds me close to him.
"So, Erudite really are planning a war on Abnegation?"
"Yeah."
"Is she also testing Divergents, and killing them?"
"Yeah. By the way, I know you have aptitude for all five factions. But I won't tell anyone. I promise."
"It's okay. I would have told you anyway. Why are a lot of things happening like they did in the sim?"
"What do you mean?"
"The same initiates, me becoming friends with Christina straight away, becoming friends with Will, Eric's conversation with us at dinner, I'm sleeping in the same bed I did, Al was crying the same way he did when in the sim. Fair enough he isn't friends with us. But a lot of it is the same. Well, except you know me, and I know you. We're already in love. What are we going to do about this? I don't think I can be around you all day and not kiss you."
"Same here but I guess we have to deal with it for now. You can come over every night when everyone is asleep. Maybe we can go on some dates, if we have the time and won't be caught. During capture the flag we can climb the Ferris wheel and maybe sneak in some kisses as no one will be able to see because of high up we were. We'll get through it. And after initiation we can kiss as much as we want."
"I'm glad to hear. What are we going to do about the war? And Jeanine, as well as the other leaders and people that are involved?"
"I don't know, but we'll figure something out. I don't know about you but I really don't want to fight in a war again."
"Same."
We kiss again and it isn't long before things start to get heated.
He picks me up and carries me over to the bed, laying me down gently and climbing on top of me.
I'm not scared.
I got over my fear in the sim.
I'm not scared.
We keep going like this and I know we really only got together yesterday but we know each other, we love each other, we trust each other.
We have each other memorised.
We get lost in each other.
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