Disclaimer I do not own OHSHC. I ONLY own any OCs and the plot.

Trigger warning: This story contains varies forms of self-harm, eating disorders, and suicide attempt.

Prologue

I can't do this anymore. Why do I wake up every morning when I go to sleep wishing I'd just stop breathing? I'm so weary, tired of this bone deep pain. When will it end? she thinks to herself as she gazes down at the river below her. It was a truly breathtaking view, had she been there for a different reason, with the moon shining off the water and the stillness of world around her. The cool crisp wind blew against her cheeks making her straight black hair block her vision for a moment. As she lets go of the railing she ponders,I wonder how beautiful the world under the water is? Will it be as calming as it seems? Will it be better than it is now? right before she steps forward to meet the dark abyss below.

Time seemed to slow down as the wind rushes up around her while adrenaline starts to course through her veins. The clarity of the night sky amazes her right before the initial burst of shock of the cold water engulfing her. In a moment of delirium her thoughts consume her over how weird the sound of gurgling water is as it rushes over her head. As the adrenaline starts to recede her mind becomes sluggish, the gurgling sound slows down and all that's around her is an eerie stillness.

"God you're a pitiful excuse for a human!"

A pale hand reaches towards the surface and her body slowly sinks into the black depths below, the moon shining down almost mocking her with it's beauty.

Why do you have to be so beautiful? What can't I be more like you? Standing out in the night, shining so bright people can't help but look up at you?

"You're nothing but a disgrace to the family name! It's why no one loves you!"

Despair sinks into the pit of her stomach as she realizes she's alone. Not even a single fish has swam near her, only the few air bubbles she lets out keeps her company.

"Why do you have to be so desperate for attention? You're not worth the time!"

Her lungs start to burn with the need for fresh air. Her body finally forcing her to take a gasp, cold water flooding her lungs painfully instead.

"You're nothing but a burden to us!"

"You're never going to amount to anything!"

"You're a good for nothing failure!"

Tingling numbness overcomes her body as the darkness finally swallows her.

What if they are all right. What if there is no point to being here. What if there is no point to my existence. Why? Why God did you put me here for nothing but to suffer? Why are they doing this to me? I've done nothing to deserve all this pain! If I die here then that means that they get what they want, they win! Do I really want this to be how it all ends? No! That can't happen!

Her mind foggy from lack of oxygen, starts to panic as her vision starts to cloud. All she is able to do is twitch her numb body as consciousness slowly slips away. She looks up at the moon wanting to see it's beauty one last time. A peaceful calm sets in as blackness consumes the light.

Chapter 1 complete

This is my first fanfiction so please bare with me. I have to give a shout out to Eaten Alive By Boredom for editing and for letting me bounce ideas off of you.

Let me know what you guys think!