Author Note: Warning strong language contained in this chapter.
This is the sequel to Turn Back Time, it's dedicated to Lightning Wolf and Jay my best online friend, enjoy!
Later that afternoon John was up and dressed, we had both eaten and I was washing up the dishes.
John came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his chin on my shoulder.
"John!" I said exasperatedly "That's the fourth time you've done that in the last five minutes"
"I know but I love you and I don't..." John trailed off
"Want to lose me" I finished for him, I felt John nod his head
"Oh sweetheart" I said taking off my gloves and turning to face John "You won't lose me again as long as there are no secrets between us"
"There's something I need to tell you" John said leading me to the sofa "I don't want anything to jeopardize what we have together"
"Go on" I said cautiously
"I have a double life as well... I'm MIT"
"I don't bloody believe you, you go apeshit at me for being CIB and you're fucking MIT" I got up angrily "I'm going out" I snapped before slamming the door behind me.
Outside I lost all rational thought and control, I sank to the floor and cried.
Back inside the room, John had made his way over to the door to go after Claire but now he could hear her crying which made him incredibly sad.
Tears escaped from his eyes as he cried for the first time in 16 years.
Hearing Eilleen's voice in the corridor he looked up:
"Claire? Oh my god, are you alright?"
John didn't hear Claire's reply so he assumed she had shaken her head
"What's happened?" Eilleen asked putting her arms around Claire
"The bastards M.I fucking T, why he didn't tell me earlier" I sobbed
"There there, it'll be alright, don't worry you'll work it out" Eilleen soothed
"I don't think we will, I hate him, I wish I'd never met him" I exploded
When John heard Claire say she hated him he made a conscious decision, grabbing a piece of paper he wrote a short note:
'I know what you really think now and to think I loved you.
Forget you ever met me'
Making a heart wrenching decision, he decided to leave, tears streaming down his face as he jumped from the front window.
About an hour later I returned to find the note on the table,
"Oh my god" I breathed as I noticed the window open, I rushed over expecting to find John lying on the grass but he wasn't there.
I wiped my eyes and decided to get on with the washing up, John would be back.
I began to get worried when four hours passed since I found the note, grabbing the keys to the flat and my house keys, I hurried downstairs to find Eilleen:
"Eilleen?" I yelled from the hall
"What?" She yelled back irritated
"You haven't seen John have you?" I asked tearfully
"Not since last night, why?"
"I'll tell you later" I called as I rushed out to my car.
By the time I got to the station tears were streaming down my face, leaving my car in the yard I ran- literally, to the office, my heart sinking when I got to the door and realised John wasn't there.
"Claire?" Deakin said with astonishment
"Is John here?" I spluttered
"He hasn't been here since yesterday" Don said
"I thought he was with you?" Chris asked
"He was until earlier on"
"What happened?" Kerry asked concerned
"We had a row" I looked down at the crumpled note in my hand "It got a bit out of control, I said I hated him and that I wished I'd never met him"
Kerry gasped
"I know how bad that sounds, he left me this note" I straightened it out before reading from it:
"I know what you really think now and to think that I loved you, Forget you ever met me" I slid to the floor as fresh tears cascaded down my face
"If you hadn't of said you hated him, you'd know where he was wouldn't you" Rod said
"Shut up Rod" Mickey, Kerry, Chris and Don yelled
"You wouldn't know what love was if it bloody slapped you round the face" Mickey snapped
"You ever had an argument with your girlfriend?" Kerry waited for an answer "No? Oh I forgot, you've never had a fucking girlfriend" Kerry exploded
I flinched as Kerry put her arms around me and held me tight.
"I'm worried for his safety" I sniffled "Still I can't sit around" I said getting up
"Take care Claire and don't do anything stupid" Deakin warned
"Let me know if he comes in won't you?" I asked desperately
"I'll call you" Kerry assured me.