Shintaro, I'm here. I'm always here for you.

Even if you don't remember me, even if you do, I'm always sitting beside you. That's why, please, don't make such unhappy face. Be happy, Shintaro.

Hey, Shintaro.

Even if you kill me again and again, like yesterday and a day before that, I'm still here. So smile.

Shintaro...

Please, listen to me. Hear me. You do hear me, right? I'm always talking to you...

You don't hear me, do you?

Even if it's just like that, Shintaro, I still-

XXX

Just like a day before and the previous, I'm still on the computer. Just as always, I'm trying to voice my feelings for her through this song... But I can never finish this song.

Hey, I wonder if you can hear this song, wherever you are now. I wonder what kind of expression would you make. Would you be surprised, those big brown eyes wide? Or would you just smile that innocent, bright smile that made me happy back then? Which is it...?

Hey, Ayano.

If I could go back in time, could I save you? Could I take back what I said? Could I erase that "go away"? Would I find out the reason why you...? Ayano, why did you do it...? Is it because of my thoughtless words...?

Just like always, I'm clicking this old mouse, trying to get out of the reality. Still, I don't want to forget you. Is the human life so cheap that you start forgetting the memories of past? After those good old days, I have nothing anymore. I have nothing to gain or lose, so I'll just stay in my room, alone. Even that girl is gone now... So I can finally rest in peace.

Ayano... The only good thing in my life is in this room. The internet, escape from my life is here. The bittersweet taste of cola I drink everyday reminds me of the tears I once shed. The red label flashes in my mind as I recall how I hate that colour. That colour that takes everyone away...

The colour of hero... No matter how much I'd try, I could never be the hero. If I can't save you, then what's the point? Ironically the crimson colour of soda reminds me of those days and yet I can't let go of it... Is it because of the plain flavour or is it because of those memories that I can't stop drinking cola...?

Ayano. I wonder if you forgive me. Back then, I said mean things about you, I didn't appreciate the things I had. If I could go back, then maybe...

I open the soda can and take a good drink, enough to empty it halfway. At the moment, I see a little bit of flash of the familiar red scarf.

I wonder if I'm the one selfish here but I don't care. I just don't need anything anymore. Salvation is beyond me and days after days, I wonder why I'm alive. Once again, red colour tempts me as I see my trusty red scissors but as days go by, I'm still alive. Why am I alive, though?

Another sip of the can and my dead eyes are shut. Why won't I end it all? I wonder, if I died... Would I meet Ayano...?

As I drink the can empty, my tears blind my sight. Ayano... What was that I just felt? It was just like a scream... Ayano, are you suffering? Are you alone? Don't worry, it won't be long... With these scissors, I will...

…

As I died and returned to my original spot, I can see Shintaro lying on the bed. "Shintaro...?" I ask of him even if I know my voice can't reach him. But I can't move from the spot because I'm always there. Then I see something red in Shintaro's neck.

"No...! Shintaro!" I scream but nothing happens. I'm binded by this red colour and form, no ability to move. "Please... Open you eyes!" I scream but once again, there is only silence.

Because in that room, there is only the body of person who was just alive and a lone soda can shadowed by the computer screen which has synthesizer on, filled with emotional lyrics.