Title: Show Me

Author: Amy

Rating: M for future situations, including possible adult situations, violence, and language.

Spoliers: Season three, up to Precipice, AU for certain events, mainly Kara's time in captivity.

Summary: As the evacuation of the captured humans on New Caprica begins, Kara Thrace is locked away in an unknown location. Will she find a way out? What is truly real, and what is in her head? Slight Lee/Dee Kara/Anders Eventual Kara/Lee

A.N.- I've been an avid fanfiction reader for a long time, but this is my first time putting something out there for people to read,with the exception of a short ficlet. This is just a teaser, to find out if people are interested, so any feedback at all would be greatly appreciated.

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The cylons were all sadists, she'd decided. They got off on pain, her's in particular. They got way too much joy out of watching the blood run out of her body. Stupid frakkers.

Kara Thrace was angry. And not just at the cylons.

She hated feeling like this. She knew it was wrong. She knew she had no right to be angry. But even so, she couldn't stop that voice in the back of her head that said that if Lee was here, he wouldn't have given up. If Lee was here, he'd fight until he couldn't fight anymore, and he'd save her ass from this hellhole.

But Lee wasn't here. Sam was. And she had to live with that knowledge. She had to live with that regret. Not that it was anything new. Regret was the constant in her life. Sometimes though, she wished she could take it all back, do it right. Stop being so damned afraid of letting him in. Maybe things would've turned out differently. Maybe they would've been better. Then again, maybe they would've been worse.

And now she'd never get the chance to find out.

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Anastasia Dualla, or Dee as she was known to her friends, glanced over at the tense back of her husband. She couldn't help but compare him to the man he was when they had first gotten together. Back then, he had been strong, fit, sure of himself. Back then, he had been in love with her. Or so she had thought. Now she wasn't so sure.

Ever since they'd gotten word that they would return to New Caprica, her husbands mind had been somewhere else-or rather on someone else. Kara Thrace, or Starbuck. Dee shook her head slightly in exasperation. Even after over a year the woman was controlling their lives. Every day that they grew closer to the rescue attempt, he drew farther and farther away from her. He hardly slept at all anymore, and when he did, he stayed on the opposite side of the bed from her. She was losing her husband slowly but surely, and there wasn't a thing she could do about it. And lately, she was running out of the strength to even care.

Staring at her husband's back, she attempted one last time to coach him into bed, although she knew it would be in vain. "Lee, you need to rest. You won't be of help to anybody if you can't stay awake."

He never even turned around. It's like he never even heard her.

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Commander Lee Adama, callsign Apollo, ignored the imploring voice of his wife. He knew he was slowly killing their marriage with his coldness and inattentiveness, but he couldn't bring himself to care. The events that were set in place to occur shortly were so much bigger than the two of them. He couldn't be bothered to focus on their ongoing problems right now. She had to see that.

He didn't have time to sleep. He needed to check and re-check everything to ensure that he did the best he could to save as many lives as he could in two days. His father was sadly mistaken if he thought that he would be going into battle alone. There were people on that planet that he cared about, loved. Callie, Tyrol, Roslin, hell even Tigh in a way.

And Starbuck, his mind taunted. He tended to drown that part of his mind out. It was better if he didn't think of her, otherwise he ran the risk of either throwing something in anger, or breaking down in fear. He hadn't heard from her in so long. He didn't know what had happened to her, if she was okay. He didn't know what he'd do if she didn't come back. All he could think about was the last true conversation they'd had, excluding her short call to him for Anders medicine.

Flashback

"Were you even planning on saying goodbye?" Lee could see Kara's back stiffen, practically feel her building up her walls, giving into the anger that was ever-present around him.

"I wasn't aware that you would care, sir," Kara answered, never even turning around.

"That's bullshit Kara, and you know it. I can't believe that after everything we've been through, you would just leave without a word. Do I really mean so little to you?"

Finally Kara turned around, and he could see the tears in her eyes threatening to break free, however well she tried to hide them.

"Just don't Lee. Let it go."

But he couldn't. After everything, he couldn't let her get away that easy. "You don't even know him, Kara. How could you even think of marrying him? Yeah, he was there for you on Caprica, I get that, but can you honestly tell me that he's what you want? He doesn't understand you, he doesn't understand that you're Starbuck, not if he's asking you to leave. If he truly knew you, he wouldn't ask you to give everything up. He's not good for you Kara."

Finally Kara had had enough. "Oh, and you do? Give me a break, Lee. I'm a screw-up, remember? All I'm good for is frakking and fighting, right? I'm more trouble than I'm worth, aren't I? Well, not anymore. Why can't you just be happy for me? Why can't you accept that I finally have someone who loves me?"

"Because he doesn't love you! He doesn't even know you! And you don't know him. All you know is that he's a good frak. Soon you'll be bored with him, and you'll move on to the next best guy to frak.And then you'll regret leaving."

"Give it up, Lee. We've been doing this same old song and dance for so long, and I'm tired of it. So either congratuate me, or get out of my way."

They locked eyes for a long moment, before Lee turned away. "I can't do that. Not when you're throwing your life away. If you leave, you're dead to me."

She was silent for a moment, and then he heard the two words he never wanted to hear.

"Goodbye Lee."

And then she was gone.

End Flashback

Lee shook his head slightly. Thinking about that night only brought about more pain. They both knew that they regretted what had been said, but they were both too stubborn to admit it, to admit anything. They always had been, and that was the root of the problem.

Stop it, he berrated himself. This train of though wouldn't help him at all. And besides, Starbuck would be fine. She was the strongest damn person he knew. She was a fighter. She'd be fine.

She'd be fine.