It´s 8 a clock but I don´t feel awake I really can´t stand the idea that I maybe have to say goodbye to this place forever. My bag feels heavy on my back. I hear someone knocking on the front door. Before I opened the door I looked in the mirror for a while. My black hair just as always in a ponytail my dark eyes emotionless. Before I started training for the games my eyes looked warm. So that can also on the list that the capitol took away from me. When I opened the door Jenna looks at me as always with a smile that can´t be real.
Hey Laira can you believe this will be the day we decide what we're going to do?
she knows this is only the day that were going to talk about it in the trainings centrum. It doesn´t mean that the people that say they are going to volunteer really do it but I don´t feel like argue so I nod. They always say that it is our own choice but it isn´t. Everybody in the training centrum is the same they always say: when you have a little bit respect for district 2 you try to win the hunger games. They are f*cking liars half of them didn't went into the games.
Jenna and I are really different she just believe them I don´t. I do get why she believes them she isn´t used to anything else but I am. I´m not even from district 2 I'm from district 12. Normally you can´t move to another district but my mom and dad had really good connections in the capitol so we could move to district 2 but in exchange for that I had to train and join the hunger games before I turned 16. My mom and dad sad it was okay without asking me. I didn´t even wanted to move I like district 12 more than district 2. I helped my friend joey to hunt for their food I helped my mom tasking care of my little brother. I really miss 12 when I walk around here you can already see that I'm different. I have black hair and dark eyes I am small and thin they are most of the time blond with blue or green eyes and two times as big as I am.
I look at Jenna should we go? My voice sounds weird not like I have cried but like I have screamed all day long I have that always when I think about home.
Yeh let´s go she sad.
When we arrive at the trainings centrum the whole dressing room is already empty I realize were late so I just grape my jeans and a black shirt. When I am done I run into the training hall with Jenna behind me that happens allot because I wasn´t born here I was born in district 12 were I hunted in the woods because of that I had become really fast. The instructor looks at me with a face that irritates me as hell.
I´m glad you two decided that you came to join us today.
Like I had a choice I thought but I didn´t sad that. I just went to sit somewhere.
As you all know today we will decide who is going to volunteer for the games tomorrow. If I may I will tell my suggestion. Like you wouldn´t say it anyway.
My suggestion for the boys is Jayson. I can see Jayson smiling he thinks he will win and I guess he has a big change of wining to. He is really good with a spear and sword but he isn´t really fast.
And my suggestion for the girls is Laira. Everybody looked at me and like always my face is emotionless.
Okay fine I sad more insure than I was. I realized nobody looks surprised they knew I was one of the best with knifes and bow and arrow and I am the fastest here.
Does everybody agree with that? Again that irritating face. Everybody nods. Okay than . let´s go training than.
The rest of the day they talk to us about how we should act tomorrow and we talked about the tactic witch is always the same: be arrogant and show them you don´t have feelings like the careers do every year. It is really hard to not hate everybody that thinks we don´t have feelings. We just have to act we don´t have them but on the inside we all have feelings.
At the end of the day I walk home alone I realized I otherwise had to volunteer anyway because I was already 15 and otherwise I would have broken the promise my parent made.
When I finally got home I don´t want to talk about it to my mom and dad so I go straight to my room. When I'm in my room I can see my mom already had lay out my reaping clothes I see it is a dress from district 12. It is a green dress with a black band around my middle I always loved that dress because the green let me think about the woods and the black band stands for the coal mining.
I lay down in my bed this is maybe the last time I will sleep in this house.