Title: "Always" *1/12*
Disclaimer: Lyrics belong to Bon Jovi,
and Gundam Wing belongs to Sunrise, along with whoever else owns any of the rights to it.
Setting: Between episode 39 – 40
(Basically it's suppose to happen before Milliardo goes back into space to Libra and before Treize takes back control of Romefeller from Relena)
Warnings: Yaoi, Angst, 6x13 \ Implied 13x5, Slight AU(?)
~...~ denotes Lyrics
*...* denotes emphasis or Italics
"..." speech
(Thoughts aren't really set apart but sort of run along in with the story.)
~Now your bridge is there...
you left behind ...
Oh just memories of a different life,
some made us laugh,
some made us cry...
Oh they made you have to say goodbye.
What I'd give to run my fingers thru your hair,
to touch your lips, to hold you near...
When you say your prayers
try to understand I've made mistakes,
I'm just a man.
When he holds you close,
when he pulls you near,
when he says the words you've been needing to hear...
I wish I was him, that those words were mine...
to say to you till the end of time.
And I will love you baby...
Always,
And I'll be there forever...
ever dear...
Always. ~
Milliardo watched the two of them through the window silently. He ignored the pain in his throat and behind his eyes. He would not allow the tears that threatened, fall. He wouldn't admit that seeing Treize with someone else, one of the Gundam pilots no less, was tearing him apart. His azure eyes took in every detail of his face, the glint in the sapphire eyes as he smiled down at the Chinese youth standing in front of him. He recalled that same look directed towards him once before, before the war drove them onto separate paths. Unthinking he traced the line of his jaw through the glass and then looked down for a moment to collect himself and try again to swallow past the lump that had from in his throat from holding back the tears.
Gods...why did it have to hurt like this. He needed anger to spur him into the actions he had agreed to take for that rebel group...not this consuming grief that was eating him alive it seemed. He looked back into the window again and noticed He now had his back turned towards the window. The pilot faced the window now, and he could read his lips as he spoke to the ginger haired general. 'Ai shiteru..'
...I love you...
A small sob escaped him and he quickly moved away from the window before he was discovered. He wanted to be in that room with him, to be saying those words and to hold the man in his arms. But he had left hadn't he--he had been the one to say he couldn't be his friend any longer. So he shouldn't of been this hurt that he had taken someone else into his heart, after all he had been the one to throw it away. He could turn around couldn't he? Turn around and knock on the door, what would Treize do if he did? If he was faced with the choice between his *Miri* and his new lover. Milliardo doubted it could ever be the same as it had before. Besides he had hurt him once, why would he want to chance being hurt again by him?
He looked up and was slightly surprised to see that he had walked around the house towards the front door. He stood there for a moment just staring before he turned back around and headed back through the thin woods to the road beyond them. He wouldn't do that to him...he wouldn't put him in that kind of position. It wouldn't be right.
He made it to the road and hunched down further into his coat as he walked up it towards the place where he had left Epyon. Stopping a couple feet from the maroon gundam he lost the battle within and fell against a nearby tree as sobs escaped finally and tears blinded him. After what seemed hours he finally calmed down and straightened up. He sighed and then spoke just to hear his own voice. "Why can't I escape you...gods know I've tried. But every time I think I've freed myself I find out I am wrong. Maybe because I don't truly want to leave you?" He pushed away from the tree and wiped at the cold wetness that was trying to freeze on his cheeks and then sighed. "I wonder...what is it you see in him? What does he have that interests you so? I know I said I could not be your friend any more...but this distance between us is slowly killing me...do I truly have nothing left that I can call my own? I lost my country once more...I failed once again...have I lost you completely as well? What path do I take now...which one will lead to the goal I know we share?" He walked a little further towards the gundam and then stopped once again looking at it silently.
"I guess I deserved to be replaced...I was the one to leave. I wonder though...do you love him as you did me before?" He looked down and coughed once slightly before building up the willpower to complete the distance to Epyon. He then heard footsteps behind him and then a tenor voice that spoke softly.
"Gomen, Milliard...but I would have to answer your last question with no... I don't." Milliardo turned around and his eyes widened faintly as they took in the figure standing a couple feet from him. The wind began to pick up and ruffled ginger hair along with his own and he found that he seemed to have temporarily lost his voice. The smaller man sighed softly and then walked towards him a couple of feet before stopping before him and looking up at him. "I saw your tracks...I decided to follow them..."
Milliardo stared down at him for a few more moments silently as if to assure himself that he was *really* standing there in front of him before he spoke. "What about your... guest?"
He watched a flicker of several emotions cross sapphire before Treize spoke again. "He left...for space...I'm not exactly sure, but I doubt we'll meet again on Earth." Milliardo watched him silently as Treize turned his attention to the machine behind them. "Have you flown it in battle?" He had to think for a moment before he realized what Treize had meant by the question.
"Epyon? No... I just received it from the gundam pilot...Heero Yuy." The General let a small sigh escape and then looked at him with a very faint smile.
"Good...I fear slightly what it might tell you..." Milliardo frowned slightly at the phrase and tried to read the sapphire gaze that was locked onto him. Treize lowered his eyes though and shook his head slightly before turning and walking a few feet away. "The Pilot 05...Chang Wufei..." he began slowly. Milliardo watched him and then walked towards him slowly.
"Yes? What about him?"
"The feelings between us...I don't think ..." he closed his eyes briefly and then opened them again. " Well...I've hidden the truth I guess from myself until now...but the words we've spoken to each other sounded hollow...devoid of any true feeling...I don't know..." He crossed his arms across his chest pulling the cape he wore tighter around himself. "He may really care for me...but I think we've both been using each other for replacements. I took the place of his dead wife, Meiran, and he took yours."
"I understand..." Milliardo watched as the smaller man before him shivered once, and then sighed as he took off his trench coat and settled it across his shoulders. "You shouldn't be out in this weather without a coat..."
Treize nodded and sighed pulling the coat tighter around him and sighing softly before speaking again. "Would you come with me? Just spend one night with me...and then I'll let you go back to whatever you had planned before this..." Milliardo closed his eyes and remained silent for a few minutes before nodding once and reopening his eyes to look down at him. "Thank you."
"Your welcome..."
Disclaimer: Lyrics belong to Bon Jovi,
and Gundam Wing belongs to Sunrise, along with whoever else owns any of the rights to it.
Setting: Between episode 39 – 40
(Basically it's suppose to happen before Milliardo goes back into space to Libra and before Treize takes back control of Romefeller from Relena)
Warnings: Yaoi, Angst, 6x13 \ Implied 13x5, Slight AU(?)
~...~ denotes Lyrics
*...* denotes emphasis or Italics
"..." speech
(Thoughts aren't really set apart but sort of run along in with the story.)
~Now your bridge is there...
you left behind ...
Oh just memories of a different life,
some made us laugh,
some made us cry...
Oh they made you have to say goodbye.
What I'd give to run my fingers thru your hair,
to touch your lips, to hold you near...
When you say your prayers
try to understand I've made mistakes,
I'm just a man.
When he holds you close,
when he pulls you near,
when he says the words you've been needing to hear...
I wish I was him, that those words were mine...
to say to you till the end of time.
And I will love you baby...
Always,
And I'll be there forever...
ever dear...
Always. ~
Milliardo watched the two of them through the window silently. He ignored the pain in his throat and behind his eyes. He would not allow the tears that threatened, fall. He wouldn't admit that seeing Treize with someone else, one of the Gundam pilots no less, was tearing him apart. His azure eyes took in every detail of his face, the glint in the sapphire eyes as he smiled down at the Chinese youth standing in front of him. He recalled that same look directed towards him once before, before the war drove them onto separate paths. Unthinking he traced the line of his jaw through the glass and then looked down for a moment to collect himself and try again to swallow past the lump that had from in his throat from holding back the tears.
Gods...why did it have to hurt like this. He needed anger to spur him into the actions he had agreed to take for that rebel group...not this consuming grief that was eating him alive it seemed. He looked back into the window again and noticed He now had his back turned towards the window. The pilot faced the window now, and he could read his lips as he spoke to the ginger haired general. 'Ai shiteru..'
...I love you...
A small sob escaped him and he quickly moved away from the window before he was discovered. He wanted to be in that room with him, to be saying those words and to hold the man in his arms. But he had left hadn't he--he had been the one to say he couldn't be his friend any longer. So he shouldn't of been this hurt that he had taken someone else into his heart, after all he had been the one to throw it away. He could turn around couldn't he? Turn around and knock on the door, what would Treize do if he did? If he was faced with the choice between his *Miri* and his new lover. Milliardo doubted it could ever be the same as it had before. Besides he had hurt him once, why would he want to chance being hurt again by him?
He looked up and was slightly surprised to see that he had walked around the house towards the front door. He stood there for a moment just staring before he turned back around and headed back through the thin woods to the road beyond them. He wouldn't do that to him...he wouldn't put him in that kind of position. It wouldn't be right.
He made it to the road and hunched down further into his coat as he walked up it towards the place where he had left Epyon. Stopping a couple feet from the maroon gundam he lost the battle within and fell against a nearby tree as sobs escaped finally and tears blinded him. After what seemed hours he finally calmed down and straightened up. He sighed and then spoke just to hear his own voice. "Why can't I escape you...gods know I've tried. But every time I think I've freed myself I find out I am wrong. Maybe because I don't truly want to leave you?" He pushed away from the tree and wiped at the cold wetness that was trying to freeze on his cheeks and then sighed. "I wonder...what is it you see in him? What does he have that interests you so? I know I said I could not be your friend any more...but this distance between us is slowly killing me...do I truly have nothing left that I can call my own? I lost my country once more...I failed once again...have I lost you completely as well? What path do I take now...which one will lead to the goal I know we share?" He walked a little further towards the gundam and then stopped once again looking at it silently.
"I guess I deserved to be replaced...I was the one to leave. I wonder though...do you love him as you did me before?" He looked down and coughed once slightly before building up the willpower to complete the distance to Epyon. He then heard footsteps behind him and then a tenor voice that spoke softly.
"Gomen, Milliard...but I would have to answer your last question with no... I don't." Milliardo turned around and his eyes widened faintly as they took in the figure standing a couple feet from him. The wind began to pick up and ruffled ginger hair along with his own and he found that he seemed to have temporarily lost his voice. The smaller man sighed softly and then walked towards him a couple of feet before stopping before him and looking up at him. "I saw your tracks...I decided to follow them..."
Milliardo stared down at him for a few more moments silently as if to assure himself that he was *really* standing there in front of him before he spoke. "What about your... guest?"
He watched a flicker of several emotions cross sapphire before Treize spoke again. "He left...for space...I'm not exactly sure, but I doubt we'll meet again on Earth." Milliardo watched him silently as Treize turned his attention to the machine behind them. "Have you flown it in battle?" He had to think for a moment before he realized what Treize had meant by the question.
"Epyon? No... I just received it from the gundam pilot...Heero Yuy." The General let a small sigh escape and then looked at him with a very faint smile.
"Good...I fear slightly what it might tell you..." Milliardo frowned slightly at the phrase and tried to read the sapphire gaze that was locked onto him. Treize lowered his eyes though and shook his head slightly before turning and walking a few feet away. "The Pilot 05...Chang Wufei..." he began slowly. Milliardo watched him and then walked towards him slowly.
"Yes? What about him?"
"The feelings between us...I don't think ..." he closed his eyes briefly and then opened them again. " Well...I've hidden the truth I guess from myself until now...but the words we've spoken to each other sounded hollow...devoid of any true feeling...I don't know..." He crossed his arms across his chest pulling the cape he wore tighter around himself. "He may really care for me...but I think we've both been using each other for replacements. I took the place of his dead wife, Meiran, and he took yours."
"I understand..." Milliardo watched as the smaller man before him shivered once, and then sighed as he took off his trench coat and settled it across his shoulders. "You shouldn't be out in this weather without a coat..."
Treize nodded and sighed pulling the coat tighter around him and sighing softly before speaking again. "Would you come with me? Just spend one night with me...and then I'll let you go back to whatever you had planned before this..." Milliardo closed his eyes and remained silent for a few minutes before nodding once and reopening his eyes to look down at him. "Thank you."
"Your welcome..."