One in 5 people in the UK, live with depression, are you one of them?
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This is just a snap of what it is like to be in such darkness ...with no-one beside you to help you
I sit here alone, the room is cold, my body shivers but I don't move as the darkness surrounds me, it seeps into my skin and poisons my mind. I hear screams that aren't real, my head fills with cries, voices taunt me, sometimes I wonder if they are right. Maybe I don't deserve to be loved? Maybe...I don't deserve to be happy.. Maybe I don't even deserve to be alive? I glance around the dark room with empty eyes, I know my cheeks are wet, but it takes me a while to realise they are my own tears, they salt in them sting my eyes and it tells me that I've been crying for far longer than I thought I had. How could I not notice that? How could I not realise my eyes were leaking? The voices in my head just get louder and louder, and I wish I could fee your arms wrap around me and keep me safe, I wish you would fight away the darkness, and rid me of the shadows. The shadows are evil, they are in my mind, I know they are … but I see them in the corners of my eyes in my most darkest of days, I see them... I fear them. When will this torture end? When will the darkness make way for light?
I've been back from Somalia for two months now, my stomach is swollen with the unborn of a monster.. the unborn of a shadow. Hannukah is looming and it will not bring as much happiness as it did when I was a curly haired little girl. Alone in the darkness I will be, with only a swollen stomach and the shadows to occupy my mind.
Can you see me? Can you see how much I need you? I wish you notice, I love you Jethro, I always have done.. please save me
The shadows are coming for me Jethro, will you save me before it's too late?