So its snowed and im stuck inside and this came to me and i couldent get it out of my head. I was thinking maybe a part two but im not sure. Let me know what you think.
The End or The Beginning...
Rose was dead.
And i was the reason. Well part of the reason. Damon asked for my help. Which by the way is something no one seems to do anymore let alone Damon. Granted it was only to baby-sit werewolf bitten Rose but it gave me something to do and even made me feel a little useful. I just have to sit with her while Damon tries to find Jules to see if there is a cure. Hes so hell bent on saving her. It took me by suprise when i walked in the door to see how upset he looked. I wondered when him and my prior captor became so close. The way he looks at her with his torchered eyes. I remember when i would look into those eyes. I could see everything with just one look he gave me. We needed no words somtimes. It was just our thing. We had an understanding...a difficult one at most times...but it was ours and no one should have been able to take that from us but she seems to have some sort of an understanding with him too. He caresses her cheek with his hand and tells her he wont be gone long before placing a kiss on her forehead. I feel like an intruder watching all this. Feeling jelous of her...thats not what im suppose to be feeling right now. I cant deny that they have some sort of connection and i have no right what is so ever to be jelous but it doesnt change the fact that i still am. He has saved me and my friends plenty of times. So why does him saving Rose rock me to my core. Damon says goodbye and i just nod. I take a seat by the bed Rose is laying in. I fiddle with my fingers keeping my head down. That is untill Rose speaks up.
"Its okay to love them both you know."
"I care about Damon but i love Stefan."
"He loves you. I think you already know that. You use that." She states very bluntly. Am i that obvious? I thought i was hiding my feelings decently.
"Damon and i are friends."
"If thats what you really think then you arent as smart as i thought you were."
"And you and Damon?"
"Jelous?"
"No. Curious." Damn her.
"No...no thats jelousy. We are special friends but i dont love men that love other women. You will have to choose."
"There is no choice Rose." Im lying. We both know it.
"Thats bull. We both know it and so does Stefan."
"Stefan knows i love him."
"That he does but he also sees the way you look at Damon. Always willing to forgive him and try to save him when he needs it."
"I.."
"Dont. Im dying you dont have to try and hide it. But Elena if you dont choose then you will be what you fear most and that is Katherine. She could never choose and she lost them both. Dont get me wrong Stefan is great but so is Damon."
"I know." There is no point in denying it. I cant fight it. She seems to know it better than i do. Like Damon. He knew. He tried to tell me.
"Promise me something?"
"Sure."
"Look after Damon. Hes tough but he feels pain too. And you should know everything he does is for you Elena."
"I will. Im going to get a drink ill be right back." Before i know it i hear glass breaking and Rose is chasing me down the hall. I run into one of the rooms and lock it before pushing the desk in front of it. Knowing it probally wont do any good but i still try. She punds at the door. Screaming. I back away amd break the wooden chair just so i have something to defend myself. I pull out my phone and my hands are shaking. I text Damon.
Rose is loosing it. She came after me. Help.
A few minutes later its all quite.
"Its safe."
I push away the desk and open the door not knowing what to expect. Damon is on the floor holding a very dead Rose. Steak through the heart. I try to hold in my gasp knowing that this is not easy for Damon. He picks her up and i follow as he carries her outside where she turns to ash in his arms. He comes back in and pours himself a drink. I just sit down next to him and we watch the fire for hours. His face is stoic.
"Are you okay?"
"Im just peachy Elena. Leave."
"I dont want you to be alone. She was your friend and you lost her."
"Go home Elena."
"Dont you dare push me away. Not after everything we have been through."
"Wouldent dream of taking a page out of your book." He knows what hes saying. He throws me staying away from him after the Jeremy incident. Which was totally different but Damon needs to have a defense mechanism and this is what he is going to use. He doesnt want me to see how much this is affecting him.
"I know your hurt."
"I dont get hurt Elena."
"Sure you do. You just hide it. You ignore it."
"Leave me alone."
"You really want to be alone?"
"What part of it dont you understand?" The tone of his voice is getting deeper. He is angry now. Finally. Some emotion.
"I dont understand why you are shutting me out. Say something just dont shut down."
"You want something?"
"Yes."
"I hate you." The words sting but he says them anyway. He needs her to know the extent of what she has done to him. How he is suffering. Every moment that she is with Stefan. Every moment he knows it will never be him for her. He instantly regrets them when he see her face fall and the tears form.
"You hate me?" I freeze at his harsh words. Tears come to my eyes but i refuse to let them fall.
"Yes. This is your fault. You made me care. You made me feel and want things. Look at where it got me." His voice raises but it still doesnt scare her. Shes is no longer afraid of him. "I had to kill Rose before she killed you. But i needed her. She was there for me. She distracted me." He smashes his glass into the wall and flips over the chair trying to show her to be afraid but she doesnt flinch. She knew it was comming.
His words hit me hard. The look on his face is making my heart break. The undestructable Damon Salvatore is self destructing right in front of me.
"Everything he does is for you Elena." I repeat Roses words to him.
"What?"
"Thats what Rose told me earlier. Im sorry you had to kill her but im not the real reason you had to. The werewolf bite was lethal to her. As of right now we couldent have saved her. I wish there would have been another way but there wasnt. I promised Rose i would be here for you but just so you know i would be even if i didnt."
"You shouldent make promises you cant keep Elena."
"I keep my promises. I think you think you hate me but its because you love me and it scares the crap out of you." I decide its now or never. And ive never seen Damon needing more saving than right now. This is where im suppose to be. By his side.
"Wrong."
"Not this time. Im finally right about something. When you snapped Jeremys neck i said that i hated you but it was a lie. I could never hate you. Real love is about forgiveness. And i forgive you. If you didnt kill her she would have killed me. You did it because you love me. And you feel guilty because you couldent save her but Damon you cant save everyone. When you are ready to talk you know which window is mine."
I leave a stunned Damon in the living room with hope in his eyes. Rose was right. I did have a choice to make. And im finally making it. Maybe ive known it all along. When Damon is ready ill tell him what Rose said. Ill tell him that i lied the night i said it would always be Stefan but that i do still love Stefan. Ill tell Damon that i love him. That someone is finally choosing him. Because it happened the way it was suppose to. I walk up to my room and crack my window open. Just in case. I dont know when he will come. I never know with Damon but thats the best part. He always keeps me on my toes.