A/N: I have a lot planned for this fic so pleeeeaase review. And keep in mind that I DO NOT OWN THE TWILIGHT SAGA OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS. Because if I did Edward would belong with Mike, Jasper would be mine, Jacob would have Renesme (duh) and Bella would die….but unfortunately I don't own them so we all have to live it.

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Chapter 1: Sweet Seduction

Edward's POV

"Am I not beautiful?" she purred seductively.

I felt my head nod weakly. A name was screaming in my head. A single word, that was my entire life; yet I could not bring myself to remember it. Somewhere in my head, I knew this was wrong, sick, immoral. But my body paid no attention to these mild, incoherent thoughts.

"You have been craving for this haven't you love?" she said softly. And she slowly slipped off her silk wrap. "Well….let me quench those needs."

I opened my mouth to protest but a long finger held me back from speaking. Her other hand stroked the length of my arm.

"I know you want me," she whispered in my ear.

I hesitated for a split second and then finally, with a groan, succumbed to the raw passion…

I stared out at the sun rising out of the huge glass window. Tanya's scent was sweet and strong next to me, but she was gone. I watched the last 24 hours play back in my head with sharp clarity. The memory was like acid, it burned me to see it.

The guilt was agonizing, the anger overpowering, the hatred I now felt at myself made me want to rip my heart out of my body. I had betrayed her, my true love, the reason for my existence. I deserved to die.

Alice appeared at the door "Edward. Get dressed." Her voice was tight and rigid.

I pulled on my clothes and let her lead me downstairs. I could hear their quiet murmurs in the living room.

The scene that met my eyes was not something I had not been expecting. But it surprised me a little when I saw that it was Rosalie who had her hands around Tanya's throat.

I faced my family, hanging my head in shame. Though it was, nothing compared to what I would have to deal with later.

Carlisle stood up from the sofa and sighed. It was plain in the expression he wore that this was something he did not wish to discuss. Esme was very sad. How could they? The thought that rang in her head was like a fresh slap in the face. I longed to hold her close, to beg and plead for her forgiveness. But all I really wanted to do was beg them to kill me.

Carlisle placed a hand lightly on my shoulder. "Son, I think you know that we are not the ones to whom you have to apologize."

"I don't deserve anything from….Bella," her name brought back a thousand things, a thousand promises. All had been shattered in one night.

"Bro, she needs to hear the truth." Emmet said.

"And it should come from you." Alice hissed menacingly.

Her reaction made so much more sense than Carlisle's. Bella was her sister; a part of the Cullen family.

"Edward, you have to." Carlisle gripped my hands tightly "this is something you can't run from."

My voice broke in misery "I'm going to hurt her…again…"

"You should have thought about that before you did it."

Everyone stared at Jasper. It wasn't like him to turn against me this way. His features were hard steel. Like Alice, he was disgusted with me too.

"Oh give him a break" Tanya spoke up louder than was necessary "I could have had any of you. Seduction is my gift." She winked at me conspicuously.

There was a boulder like crash and Tanya was thrown into the piano. Rosalie snarled viciously.

I did not know why, but I acted on an impulse. I simply had to protect her. Before Rosalie could strike again, I crouched defensively in front of Tanya.

"Edward!" Carlisle gasped. It had been too late to stop the growl that escaped my lips.

"You sided with the slut against your own sister!" Alice's tone was aghast. I couldn't meet her eyes. I couldn't look at any of them. Esme sobbed dryly. They all seemed to be in a state of shock.

At last, they breezed out of the room, one by one, without saying a word. Rosalie was the last to leave.

"Rose-" I began but the look on her face caught me off guard. It was hurt rather than furious.

"Save it" she snapped, "I see where your loyalties lie." She shot a murderous glare in Tanya's direction and exited out the front door.

Behind me, I heard Tanya's triumphant, elated thoughts.

"Phew!" she exclaimed dramatically "that was close. Edward I can't thank you enough."

"Get out." My voice was impassive.

"Edward, I-I don't understand…" she stared up at me innocently.

"I said leave. And don't ever come back. You have inflicted enough damage."

She sighed impatiently and in one quick moment, her satin lips crushed down on mine.

"No!" I resisted her with all my strength and pushed her away "You have got to stop this!"

She folded her arms across her chest and pouted.

We stayed like that for a few seconds then heard Bella's truck pulling up to the driveway. She let the engine idle for a while then cut it, and jumped out. Her boots stomped up the porch. I stopped breathing.

"Edward?" she called, letting herself in.

A big, warm smile spread across her face when she saw Tanya.

"Hi" she greeted, blood rising in her cheeks.

I would never be able to live with myself for what I did to her.

"Edward, what's going on? I met Carlisle on my way here…he said something about you having to talk to me…..." she was suddenly tense when she saw the piano and my expression.

Bella walked over to me and wrapped her arms around my neck. She seemed to have forgotten Tanya completely.

"What happened?" she whispered.

Tanya smiled smugly at Bella for a long second. Somehow, I didn't feel inclined to stop her gloating. It felt like I had numbed with ice.

"It's quite obvious." She said, "Edward slept with me."

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