It's been two years since I left. I have given up on something that I love so I could never return. No I don't regret it but I still feel as empty as before I left. I was alone then as I am now. They all still put limitations on me still, even though I passed their last expectations. They all try to stop me from becoming even better than whom I am now. I left to get away from that but it still followed me.
Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start
But can't complete
I wrote as I felt a pain in my heart. Even though I promised- no I swore, I'd never do that again. I can't help but write on which I would set free. . . Yeah I know. . . Sooo many secrets, so little trust. . .
Listen
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release
It was true. I stay behind the many walls I build. I hide behind a mask to everyone. I'm terrified to let anyone know who I really am. They'll judge me and set even more limitations on me. . . Just like they did. . . Used for their own advantages. . . Jerks. . .
My hand lifted off the paper. All I drew was a blank. . . I couldn't think of what else to write. I looked up to see Sid, our physical education teacher, teaching everyone else how to use their weapons properly. Well. . . Their partner, who could turn into weapons. The person in control is called a meister. My mom was considered the best of the best. She even created the first death scythe. I want to become stronger then her. I want to make a death scythe stronger then Papa. . . But it kind of difficult when you have no partner and everyone put limits on you. Even the teachers here put limits on me. I'm not even aloud to practice my martial arts, for deaths sake! How am I supposed to do my work properly when I can't even train?! Sigh. . . I'll show them. . . One day.
Looking at the clock I noticed that class wasn't even ten minutes through, and this class was a couple hours long! Crap. I grabbed my things and left. It's not like they'll notice anyways. I went to a different open field which was surrounded by many, many trees. I closed my eyes, going into a meditative state. There was one soul; I didn't know who it was, a couple yards away. Almost like they were watching me. . . Meaning I couldn't show my other blood. I looked a bit farther and saw everyone else was still practicing.
"Sigh…" I looked above me and I saw it. . . A branch that look a lot like a scythe. . . I took a couple steps back before making a quick dash. I jump up from branch to branch till I made it to my target. I easily broke it off. I jumped down, missing all the other branched, and landing with grace. As soon as I hit the ground, I started techniques while fighting off invisible enemies. In my head, I could hear 'Courtesy Call' play. I soon started fighting to the beat, turning my fight into a weird type of dance. It's not really dancing but you move like your dancing but your fighting instead. If that makes sense. This is the closest I'm getting to dancing, YOU HEAR ME!
Even though I was training, I was acting like this was a real fight. I was fierce. I was fast. There was no hesitation as I slaughtered an imaginary witch. I put everything into this exercise. If I didn't I wouldn't get stronger.
The sound of clapping interrupted my train of thought. Honestly, it scared the crap out of me. On reflex, I spin on the heels of my feet to where the blade would have been was at his neck. He had bright blue hair and green eyes. A tattoo in the shape of his shoulder let me knew this was Black Star . . . that and his ninja outfit. He was number one in school, even though he could never get a kishin soul because he usually messed up in some way. His partner could also change into more then one kind of weapon but they were all Japanese based.
He did a quick flash step and disappeared out of my vision. I quickly felt his soul above me and coming down fast. I back flipped out of danger and stood five meters away from where he stands in the crater he made. It wasn't big but it wasn't small either. I narrowed my eyes, waiting for his next move. He smirked while his eyes shinned in determination. I growled in irritation. There was no way I could beat him with a tree branch when he has a real weapon . . . and he knew it. So I tossed it aside and took a defensive stance. Now he raised a brow and watched in curiosity.
"You probably had a better chance with the twig. Then again, NOBODY CAN'T DEFEAT THE AMAZING BLACKSTAR! YAHOOO!" He jumped in the air, almost like a cheer. Overly arrogant jerk.
"Hey everyone! Black Star is having another fight!" Someone shouted off the side. I could feel many souls coming our way, but I didn't care. I kept watching him, waiting. There was whispering as he did another flash step. His soul was circling really fast until he came at me from the left. He was using his weapon in his right to attack. I easily grabbed it, kicking him in the gut right as I let go. He flew back a bit before flipping in the air to land back on his feet. His eyes were wide as everyone else kept quiet.
Then there was three souls coming up on me really fast. Two of them disappeared, probably turning into weapons. The one souls sent out a wave, I knew he was going to attack really soon. I watched Black Star intensively. He was trying to hide an incoming grin but he wasn't really doing too well. The soul behind me jumped in the air as I heard two guns being cocked into place. Crap. Being quick on my feet, I cart wheeled out of the way has he kept shooting at me. Soon as he stopped, I did as well. A black haired kid with three white strips on the left side of his head stood with Black Star. The rings of Shinigami. Crap. I'm in deep trouble.
"*Gasp* Kidd joined Black Star! This girl must have made them mad somehow! She's a dead man walking!" Some girl exclaimed. So, his name is Kidd. He's tied up with Black Star for first place.
"Well, she's already did the impossible. She actually made a hit on Black Star! And she has NO weapon!" A dude pointed out. My range of vision always remains on one or the other. I saw the both of them whispering to each other. Black Star was probably telling some pointers and my style of attack. Kidd probably was coming up with a plan of attack since it wasn't Black Star's style.
"First one to draw blood first loses!" Sid hollered. I could feel him giving me a knowing look. I felt his soul's wavelength . . . He wants me to give up, like everyone else. Everyone else but one was giving me pity. That one though, was covered in interest. . . Weird. Anyways, I'm stuck in a bad situation. I can't use that. But I can't shed blood either. They would get suspicious of me and Stein would end up trying to dissect me. I clicked my tongue while sending a 'No way in hell' wavelength back to Sid. I heard him sigh as Black Star disappeared. He was now hiding in a tree off to my right. I kept watching Kidd though. Apparently he was watching for any reactions because his eyes widen a bit. I heard something whistle through the air. I look to my right and saw a shuriken being thrown at me. I took a step back and watched Kidd again as the shuriken missed me. His eyes got bigger. I then saw a string in front of me. I glanced off to my left; I saw the shuriken coming back at me. I quickly ducked as it barely missed my head. Kidd had token that time to vanish as well. He was over by Black Star, cocking his pistols again.
Quickly doing back flips again, I missed being hit by, what looked like, soul bullets. In any other fight, I'd say that Kidd would be easier to take out but I knew better then to underestimate them. Everyone was watching us intensely and it was very annoying. I clicked my tongue, silently wishing they would all disappear. What sucks worse that both of them knows how to flash step and I don't. I might be able to keep up but I can't do it. For some reason, 'Circus' popped in my head. I couldn't help but smile and mouth the words.
"Whatcha' smiling at?!" I heard someone scream at me from behind. I knew it was Black Star. I swiftly cart wheeled onto my hands and spun to kick him as soon as he hit the ground. He flew back and hit a tree as I finished of with a front flip. I hid behind some trees as Kidd kept shooting at me.
"Just like a circus~~" I mouthed as I ducked as Black Star's kick hit the tree. The tree broke in half. I heard a ringing which caused Kidd, Black Star, and I to stop. We looked over to the source of the ringing to see Sid with one of the hand held mirrors. Death had called him. Even Black Star gave enough respect to keep silent. The music in my head was paused.
"Whatz up, whatz up, whatz up!" Death made his goofy greeting.
"Yes, Lord Death?" Sid answered.
"Maka, Kidd, and Black Star are all fighting right?" Crap. He sounds serious. Everyone else started to pale. "Kidd and Black Star are also using their weapons, am I correct?"
"Yes they are." Sid nodded his blue head.
"Well, I'd like to try something new. That is if you don't mind?" Death commented in his goofy voice again, causing everyone but me to sweat drop. I narrowed my eyes. I somehow know it has something to do with me, why else stop the fight. If he tries to send someone in to substitute me . . . Well, let's just say it's not happening.
"I would like Soul Eater to be Maka's Partner for the rest of the fight." He stated like it was nothing. What the heck is he thinking?! I'm not compatible with anyone! And he knows that! I narrowed my eyes more. I don't know what's going on but I know he's up to something. And I'm going to find out what. I felt a wavelength roar out in shock. I looked over to it to only see the albino boy in class that could never get a partner. He was like me, never compatible with anyone. We looked at each other wearily. Ehh, what the heck . . . might as well have some fun with it. I smirked at him and stretched my hand out towards him.
"Let's win this!" I proclaimed with determination burn through me. He coolly walked up to me and smirked. He grabbed my hand and turned into a scythe. I heard something click from the back of my head. I spun him around with great ease. Then I rested him on my shoulders. I couldn't help but grin. I stood with confidence that I knew showed on my face.
"Bring it" I challenged. The power that, 'what's his name? Soul?' gave was amazing. Kidd and Black Star were now looking at us wearily. I wonder if they know about the power that Soul holds.
"This is going to be fun~." I could hear him state in pure excitement. I started shaking in excitement. All I could do was nod my head. When our wavelengths connected, I felt… understood. Like, we've known each other for years and know each others problems. I also felt relief as if knowing that we now had someone that could understand the other. To me, it was bliss. That is what made me so excited. If this was a full on battle I'd be skeptical but since this was a first blood battle. I had absolute faith we would win. Black Star disappeared causing the music in my head to start up again.
"There's only two types of guys out there~" I mouthed. Black Star appeared next to me as Kidd brought up his pistols. I used the blunt end of the scythe and hit him hard on the stomach, making sure he'd fly off far. I quickly brought Soul in front of me and spun him extremely fast. It blocked all the bullets Kidd fired. He slightly hesitated. I used that opening and dashed up to him. I swung Soul at his face, knowing he'd dodge it. I only got the right side of his bangs cut. I felt Black Star's soul behind me. So I swung Soul around my body. Black Star blocked it but I nicked his arm a bit, causing him to bleed.
"When I put on a show~" I continued to mouth with deep breath as I smirked. Yes, I was actually out of breath. I saw Soul's reflection in the blade. He was smirking as well.
"Soul and Maka win!" Sid declared. Everyone gasp in pure shock. "And as congratulations, you have the rest of the day off from school after you go see Lord Death."
"Cool~." He purred. I turned and saw two blonde girls kneeling down by Kidd who was unconscious with a lot of blood coming out of his nose. I giggled at the sight. He really did look stupid. Soul transformed back into his human form and started talking to Black Star. I think he was mad that he lost but I didn't care. I had a lot of fun. It was the most freedom I felt in a long time. I walked over to my belongings and picked them up. I was still weary since that was the first time of using someone else as a weapon. I turned around to face all five of them wit a bright smile on my face.
"That was an amazing fight." I made a respectful bow. "I really do hope we can do that again soon!" I turned away without waiting for a response and walked away. I even had a bit of bounce added to my strides. The adrenaline was still flowing through my vines.
"All eyes on me
In the center of the ring
Just like a circus
when I crack that whip,
Everybody gon' trip
Just like a circus.
Don't stand there watching me,
Follow me,
Show me what you can do.
Everybody let go,
We can make a dance floor
Just like a circus
Ahhhhha~~" I mouthed the rest of the song with the exact timing in my head. I heard footsteps catching up to me. It felt like Soul's soul. Ok, that sounds weird. . . Oh well. Anyways, he easily caught up to me and continued to walk beside me.
"You walk fast for a girl." He randomly commented. I looked at him with a raised brow. He just coolly shrugged and stares ahead. I rolled my eyes before watching a head of me. Then I felt Black Star and someone else following us. It was probably his partner.
"I'll just take it as a compliment." I stated. "Oh and your friend is following us, probably for blackmail." I whispered the last part to only he could hear me. He looked at me with a raise brow. I mouthed 'Black Star' causing him to sweat drop. He stopped and sighed. I had a couple of steps ahead of him but I still stopped to be polite.
"'Star! You can come out now!" Soul hollered
"Awww!" Black Star whined as he and a tall Japanese girl appeared before us. "I was hoping to see you con-!" He complained before Soul hit him on top of his head. I watched in amusement. The girl walked up to me with grace.
"Hello! My name is Tsubaki. I hope we can become great friends. Please take care of me." She greeted in happiness before doing a traditional bow.
"Maka." I bowed in return. "And I have a feeling your going to be the taking care of me." I joked a bit. I held out my fist, I never like hand shakes for a couple of reasons. She connects her fist with mine to complete our greeting. She turned her head to the arguing boys, well mainly Black Star. Her soul was emitting the same wavelength as when their souls were connected. "Admiration." I stated loud enough for her to hear. She now gave her full attention to me.
"What do you mean?" she asked as she innocently tilted her head. I turned my head to the boys.
"It's the reason you two are compatible. The same goes for Kidd and his partners. You though, you wish you were as ongoing as he is. To have the same courage he has. You're hoping that being around him will have some affect on you. He is the same way. He hopes that being around you will help him get him to where he wants to go. So in a way you too depend on each other. . . Well that's what I got when I saw your souls when we were fighting." I started scratching the back of my head in embarrassment. It was the longest I've ever talked to anyone besides Blair. The bandage around my chest was starting to hurt me at this point. The fight we had earlier didn't help at all. I was still slightly out of breath and I had to talk like an idiot. Great.
"That's how…" She gasped. I turned to look at her now. Her hand was over her mouth as if it would prevent her from screaming. I really didn't know what she was talking about, so I tilted my head a bit. "That's how you could always tell where Black Star was." She said loud enough to catch the boy's attention.
"Yeah. . . Can't you all do that?" I asked. I figured everyone could do it.
"No!" She accidently screamed. "Only extremely skilled fighters can do it!" I could now feel three others coming this way. This time I knew it was Kidd and his partners. "The question is, how can you do it?!" She was now freaking out. I blink in confusion. Why was she freaking out? It's only Soul Sight. Nothing special. I blinked a couple more times before tilting my head a bit.
"Born with it." I stated bluntly. Her eyes went wide. "Also Kidd and the others are coming this way." They all straightened and looked around. I refrained from rolling my eyes and looked in the direction we came from. Not much later, Kidd was being carried by his partners. I could feel the other staring at me. Things just now got awkward.
"Hey guys! What's up?" The one with long blonde hair greeted. The one with short hair was singing some weird song.
"Maka has that thing where you could see souls!" Black Star shouted like I won the lottery. The short haired blonde stopped singing as they both turned their attention to me. I hate being interrogated. I don't care about being the center of attention unless I'm talking. It makes me feel vulnerable and I hate that. The long haired blondie smirked at me.
"Oh really~." She purred at a challenge. "You have Soul Sight, like Kidd. How far from home can you go?"
"Over the Atlantic; Italy. Over the Pacific; Iraq." I answered honestly. "If you don't believe me, you can ask Stein or Death." Now they were all staring at me wide eyed. All but Soul that is. He, being the 'cool guy', was smirking with what seemed like pride.
"Okay. Kilik is on a mission with thunder and fire. Where is he at?" She challenged. I knew who they were, Thank Death, since we were partnered up a couple of times on missions. I closed my eyes and reached a meditative state. Automatically, I knew he wasn't in this country. Going south was easier, so I quickly searched Mexico, Cuba, Colombia, Peru, Brazil, and some others. I noticed he was in Uruguay fighting a couple of Kishins.
"Tacuarembó, Uruguay. I can write it down for you if you like." I could literally feel Soul Pride sky rocket. Everyone else's jaw fell to the floor.
"Patti" She turned to her sister, I guess they're sisters. The short haired blondie, Patti, turned to her sister.
"Yes Liz?" She said in almost totally oblivion.
"We're going to go see Lord Death after we take kid to the nurses' office." She commanded.
"Okay~!" she was now acting like a 4 year old again.
"Wait! Wait! Wait! How come you and Kidd have this Soul Sight thing and I don't!" Black Star complained. I turned to him and stared him straight in the eyes so he knew I wasn't lying.
"That's because you have a different gift then Kidd and me. If you use it right, you can become very powerful. You have your clan to thank for that. Sid can explain your gift to you better then I could. You should go talk to him." I explain dumb enough, hopefully, for him to understand. He looked at me in awe for a moment. I really wanted to hide behind Tsubaki right now.
"Ha! I knew I was more powerful then you! What happened back there was pure luck! There is no way a flat chest like you could beat me!" He was boasting now. Why does everyone judge me because of my chest?! Fake or not, you shouldn't judge a person because of that! I felt a vein pop in my head.
"Makaaaaa~" They all stopped and stared at me. "CHOP!" I slammed a book down on his head. . . Hard. There is now a perfect dent on his head with blood coming out as he laid face first on the ground. Soul was on the ground too but he was laughing at Black Star. Not as bad as Patti but till. I was still slightly bit annoyed so I walked off to Death's office.
"I'll Maka-Chop his arrogant a** down to the pits of hell and shove Sid and Stein in his a**. Then again, he might not even feel it since his ego is so freaking big!" I grumbled under my breath the entire way.
"Maka-chan~. You do understand why I want you to have a partner though, right?" Death asked in his goofy voice. I knew he was serious though, especially since he skipped his stupid greeting. My papa was standing next to him with all seriousness. It was kind of weird on my part. I used soul sight to make sure no one could hear me.
"I still don't see why. I'm both Meister and weapon." I crossed my arms across my chest. "I can take care of myself. And you can just force a partnership, it won't work either way."
"True, true. But you and Soul worked so well together. If you too did have a partnership, once you grow a bit. You two would become the best weapon and meister in history~." I have a feeling he's over exaggerating it a bit. "Besides you two 'clicked' right away and y'all have never spoken to each other before. It's like a match made by the Gods. You both also have hidden powers." He does have a point. . .
"Wait! What was Soul doing with my precious Maka?!" He spat his name out in disgust. He has no room to talk. "If he does anything bad-!"
"Spirit" Death called.
"I swear, I'll tare him apart! He has no right to-!"
"Spirit!"
"If he wants to get to my baby girl-!" A vein popped out on both mine and Death's head.
"SPIRIT!"
"No! I deny this partnership! I'm not allowing it!" I heard something snap in the back of my head.
"Reaper CHOP! "
"Maka CHOP!" Death's giant hand and an extremely large book slammed down on his head. His head went inside of his body and body was spilling all over the place. Since his soul didn't disappear, he didn't die.
"Sigh. . . I see your point. But you also understand my point of not wanting a partner. . . What if she comes back?! It'll be my fault!" Tears were now threatening to pour down my face. I heard the door opening behind me. I quickly blinked the tears away.
"But if you don't move forward from this. . . You'll go mad." He whispered. You could hear the sadness and the worry in his voice.
"Not until I kill her" I whispered back, keeping my eyes on the ground. I could feel their gaze on me. I heard the foot step coming closer and stopping beside me. They now moved their gaze off me to somewhere else.
"What happened to Death Scythe?" A deep husky voice asked. I looked over to Papa before looking over to Soul.
"He was getting on our nerves." Death replied. His tone was between serious and goofiness. I rolled my eyes at the comment.
"Well that's an understatement." I commented before turning my gazing to the opposite direction of Soul; mainly watching the magical moving walls. I could hear Soul take a couple steps away from me and Lord Death.
"Anyways. . . Soul?" Soul grunted in response. Death started explaining to Soul, what he explained to me but more directed to the both of us. I was thankful Death didn't explain my situation.
"Shouldn't it be up to us to decide, not you?" Soul questioned with a bit of a growl in his tone. I guess we did understand each other. I heard Death sigh as he slouched a bit.
"And here I thought you could convince Maka for me but you end up making the same response as her." Death grumbled under his breath. I glared at Death while I felt Soul watching me. Death suddenly straightens up, causing me to jump in shock, and pointed upward. Soul removed his gaze from me and unto Death. "I'll give you two a month to think it over." What?! "Soul, you shall move in with Maka since you only have a one bedroom apartment. Unless you too want to share the same bed." His voice dragged off at the end. I growled at him. No, it wasn't about the bed thing. They were trying to take control over my life again!
"Don't worry tiny tits; I don't want to share a bed with you either." Soul commented as if he was offended.
"MAKA CHOP!"
"Alright, then it's decided. You shall stay at Maka's place." Death continued on as if Soul wasn't lying in a pool of his own blood. I continued to glare at Death. "Soul; be ready to move in a week's time. Maka, I'll dismiss you from school during that time. I want you back by a week's time though." I started grumbling again. I could see an exclamation point pop out of his head. "Huh?" He looked down and saw Soul. "What happened here?" I face palmed. My hand slid down my face as I groaned.
"Thanks for the week off. You know where I'll be heading?" I looked up at him to see him nod. "I go explain things to Blair before heading off." I proclaimed as Soul was now getting off the ground. Death better be happy that I'm not aloud to hit him, causing he wouldn't only be beaten but also shove in Black Star's a** along with Sid and Stein. I was opening the door, debating rather I should slam it shut or not.
"Maka! Wait up!" I heard Soul running towards me. I inwardly sighed and fixed my mask up. Darn, here I thought I'd have some free time. Being the goody girl I'm suppose to be, I stood there waiting for him. Soon as he catches up to me, we started down the hallway. We continued walking in silences for quiet a while.
"Do you really not want a partner?" This threw me off guard a bit. I stopped and stared at him. I heard the pain in his voice that he tried to hide.
"What? Because I growled whenever he brought up us staying together?" His stare on me intensified. That was a yup. "It's not you or anything, I promise." I was staring off to the side a bit. There was no sense in lying about this. "I'm just tired of them trying to control my life." My eyes tried to water up again but I blinked them back before they could do anything. I started on my way again but this time more slowly. I was remembering why this all started.
"That's why, huh?" Soul said, gaining my attention once again. It sounded more like he was talking to himself now. "That's way when our souls connected, I felt understood." I could hear happiness but if you listened close enough you could hear dread. He was staring at the wall close to where I was originally standing at.
"You too, huh?" He looked at me this time. I put up a fake smile that everyone believes. Honestly, I feel fear. If anything happened to him or anyone else, it'd be my fault. I would never forgive myself. I swallowed the lump in my throat and kept up the façade. I made my mask a little brighter, hopefully making him happier. "Maybe we could be partners." My voice softened more towards the end before I turned to officially leave. I felt Liz's and Patti's soul next to Soul's. . . Man, that's going to take some time to get use too. I couldn't help but have a real soft smile on my face. I knew he wasn't alone.
I made it back to my apartment a got the essentials. As I was getting enough water to last me the week, Blair came through the window in her cat form.
"Where are you going-nya?" She asked as get transformed back into her human form. I told her everything. Her eyes softened as she came over and held me. She was like a big sister to me, even though I was the one who took care of her. Some tears slipped by causing her to hold me tighter. "Shhh~~. Everything will be alright. I'm here with you this time. I'll make sure nothing happens this time." She sung. I pulled back and roughly wiped the rest of the tears away. I nodded my head to let her know I'll be alright.
"Thank you." I gave a real smile this time. She was the only one that has ever cared since. . . I took a deep breath and push the rest of the emotions aside. My mask was back up again. "There should be enough fish and milk in the fridge to last you the week; if not I put extra money under my mattress. When I come back, I want this apartment in the same condition as when I left it." I instructed. She gave a mocking salute. "And no bringing friends over either!" She started pouting, knowing I'd be watching her. I hugged her again with a small smile on my face.
"Take care and stay safe-nya."
"I will. See you in a week!" I shouted as I went out the door. I hummed a song as I made my way out to the gates. Even though Blair knew me better then anyone else . . . she still barely knows me.
Even now, I still hide behind these walls. Behind this mask I hide. . . Too scared to show them who I am. I wonder if I'll be brave enough to show them . . . the soul behind these walls. . .