Missing Less Than A Part of You
I've tried and tried but failed,
And before I could inhale,
They were now deathly upon us.
Then I got grabbed and was lost,
Lost in my helpless vexation.
Thinking of times when you
Could have been mine,
As I grind the cold dirt with sore fingers.
You stood strong for me,
Only when it was forced,
Yet I can't seem to measure up to this…
Their knife near your throat,
But I've caught their unforeseen flaw,
So I displaced my own sharp blade,
And released myself…
Their grip fell away,
But so did a part of me,
And that was my long silky hair,
With it I cut off the shames of my past,
The haunting of weakness and vanity…
Then I arose and I fought.
Oh, the menace ness, the selflessness,
The painfulness, the sacrifice,
As I clung onto life by the throat.
Blows became petals,
Cuts were not fatal,
As I though, "My reward is your safety."
You lay there, unconscious, unknowing,
While the blows to my head resonate through the air,
Pain was the only reality,
But at the back of my mind your face shined,
The next thing I know, you're standing before me,
Even two years from now I face a silent reply,
Tears stain my cheeks as you coldly walk past me,
As though I'm a blind spot at the back of your eyes,
And when I tried to speak, you just cut me off;
Your words hurt me more than the blows
That I've received for protecting you.
Oh, the injustice, the sorrow,
The anguish that follows,
When I realize how useless
To you I have been.
What I've done in saving you
Two years back has pulled me through,
And I see that the benefit\s more
For me than for you…
Through all this time how I was blind to my longing
To have the Lord complete me,
To satisfy more than the scorching void in my heart.
As you slip from my senses, His unceasing love cures me,
And at last I'm just missing less than a part of you.