This is for 'ManSuzShe's BU Contest'
I really hope you all enjoy this! I was super excited when I read about the contest and so I wrote this right away! xXx R&R
Chad's POV:
It's been a month,
A month since my sunshine went into eternal eclipse…
I feel broken and useless but most of all I feel unloved.
I was hurt when we broke up, but I was convinced we'd get back together again…
But I was wrong,
Not only did she get over me,
She found someone else… a girl! A girl by the name of Shelby
I thought it hurt seeing her walking around with that girl, but it hurt more when she left…
She not only left me but she left her cast and the rest of Condor Studios behind…
We have all suffered from her betrayal,
Grady hardly eats anything anymore!
Nico hasn't stopped eating!
Zora has become mute!
Tawni has attempted suicide three times!
And I on the other hand CUT to draw my attention away from the throbbing ache in my chest where my heart once was…
She left us with nothing but memories of when we believed in her,
When we trusted her…
I felt so hurt and used, but now… now I feel numb.
My world consists of a cold blade slicing through my flesh,
And then I watch the crimson liquid seeping from my wounds, before slowly dripping onto the cold tiled floor of my bathroom floor.
Sometimes I awake in a cold swet,
SCREAMING her name!
Begging her to love me!
Pleading with her to come back to me!
Prayerful that everything that has happened in this past month was just my mind playing horrifying tricks on me…
But it's real…
Sometime when I look at the night sky I wonder how something so beautiful can still exist after all the pain I've suffered,
How the world can go on…
The stars look like diamonds spread out on black velvet…
And I curse them!
They give false hope,
They trick you into believing in happy endings…
I am trying to run…
I keep trying to flee from to demons that reside in the deepest, darkest corners of my messed up mind…
But it's no use,
It's impossible,
I cannot escape them.
I am forever trapped in my own pain,
Drowning in my sorrow,
And no-one can save me…
They can't because I no longer want to be saved…
The reason being…
They took my Sonshine away…
And my Sonshine took;
My heart, my hopes, my soul and my dreams.
Without all those things Chad Dylan Cooper is… nothing but a name…
I am hollow and all I need to do is wait…
Until I finally just fade away…
So I hope you enjoyed it!
xXx CryingAngel95 xXx