Disclaimer: I may own a cat named Dog, but I most certainly don't own Death Note.

So, here's another one-shot. Even though I should be working on my other stories, I couldn't get this out of my head. Go figure…..

This is just about what Light might have been thinking while he lay dying in the warehouse. The timing is the very end of the very last episode. I cried on that ep, but I loved the fact that they showed L right before Light died.

Anyway, here it is!

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As I Lay Dying

I guess I shouldn't be surprised. In my gut I knew that I wouldn't make it out alive. But I kept pushing, kept knocking on the Devil's door until finally he answered.

I'm laying on the stairs to some abandoned warehouse, breathing what I'm sure are my last breaths. After being shot by Matsuda, I escaped while Mikami distracted them and ran as fast as I could. I don't know why I came to this place. I felt drawn here, maybe because it feels like a good place to die. Yes, I know that I will die. Knowing Ryuk like I do, I know he'll write my name down any second. It was part of the deal, after all.

The deal….I sigh as I remember all of the people that I've killed. I killed them because of my foolish pride. And what a fool I've been. I remember Dad…and how all I could think of was killing Mello, even as my own father was about to die. Tears threaten to spill from my eyes and my memory goes further back. To the one…the one that I regret most. L..Ryuzaki…

Tears flow from my eyes. I'm more than sure that I loved him. No, I did love him. And I killed him. How could I have done such an..an inhuman thing? I kept telling myself it was for justice. But was it really? Who am I to decide who should be judged and how? They tried to warn me. By killing what I thought was evil, I became a monster. I myself became evil.

Why couldn't I see that earlier? Why couldn't I just burn that damn notebook and stay the innocent boy that I once was?

No, it's too late for that. I will die a monster, and I will face what punishment I deserve.

Suddenly I see him standing in front of me, and I gasp even though it hurts. L. Ryuzaki. My lips part, I want to tell him I love him and that I'm sorry. So truly sorry.

He hates me, he should.

But as I look at his face, it's not a look of hatred or mockery on his face. He looks sad. His beautiful midnight eyes are filled with such sorrow that it hurts to look at him. "I love you." He says, as tears spill from his own eyes.

I wish I could smile, but I can't move now. I feel my heart wretch, but not from emotional pain. Yes, he just wrote my name. I hope my eyes alone tell Ryuzaki how I feel. If only things could be different.

And as I close my eyes for the last time, I hope that my dad is happy. My love, Ryuzaki, I hope he's happy.

The last thing I see is his face. He's smiling at me, that must mean he's happy.

I take my last breath, and die happy.

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Gahh! I think this is so sad! I cried while writing this! I don't know if I'm just a sap, or if this is actually sad. So, please review and let me know? This is basically just a dumb and useless drabble, so yea…

Dead Light will give you a cookie!….Oh wait, that's not right!

I, the very much alive person, shall give you a virtual cookie!

P.S. Am I the only one that watches the insane Kira laugh over and over again, in both Japanese and English, and cracks up??