This is my first fanfic and it takes places about six months after the finally. It has some Billie bashing in it but I do not hate her, she is just the most vulnerable and the easiest to attack

Disclaimer: I do not owned Charmed or any other charaters besides Olzak, if I did I would be in the Bahamas right now drinking margartias.

Chapter One-Nowhere To Turn

It has been a few months after the Ultimate Battle. Billie who is still distraught over her sisters death and has no one left in her life. The Halliwell sisters do not know what to do about her because she has not been back since the battle. Since then she has buried her sister and dropped out of college and is living in a small apartment on the east side. She sold her parents house and put the rest of the money in savings for the future. Billie wants to plead for forgiveness but things do not go always as planned

Billie arrives at the Halliwell manor to ask for forgiveness but she hears a conversation not meant for her ears.

Billie: You can do this, they took you in and you betrayed them. You cannot expect them to forgive you after a couple of months but you have to make things right.

She walks into the manor because the door is unlocked but she stops walking when she hears voices in the kitchen

Phoebe: I know that what she did was wrong but you can't just dump her

Piper: Of course I can after what she did to my sons, why should I even consider doing it

Phoebe: Because it was an accident, it is not like we have made mistakes in our lives. Stop being so stubborn.

Piper: I am not being stubborn, I am being a mother and I said no

Billie: I can't believe I hurt them that bad, they never want to see me again.

Billie goes running out of the doorway of the manor before she hears the rest of the conversation.

Phoebe: Come on Piper, the girl is only a toddler at magic school. It is not like she meant to push Wyatt on the ground.

Piper: That is not the point, the teacher should have been watching what she was up too. That girl was practically torturing my son. Now my word is final until they get a new teacher to watch over my boys they are not going back.

Phoebe: Okay, your word is final. By the way have you heard from Billie, I mean it has been five months and we haven't heard from her.

Piper: I know what she did was horrible but she what she did in the end to save us her must be eating her up inside. Plus she still has clothes over here so I thought that she would have come over by now.

Phoebe: Maybe she thinks that we hate her

Piper: No we don't hate her, she just wanted to be with her sister and that is understandable. She could have came to us when she was burying her sister

Phoebe: I wonder how she got her buried, it is not like she had a body.

Piper: Maybe she used a spell to convince the world that she died in a car accident, it is not like she could tell the mortician that she killed her own sister for the greater good. Hey maybe we should call for Paige. She could maybe sense where she is and we could go find her.

Phoebe: Worth a shot, Paige

Back at Billie's Apartment

Billie after hearing what the sisters said has ran back into her apartment.

Billie: They hate me that much well that is fine by me. I hate them too. I hate my parents for abandoning me. Christy for not letting me save her. And I hate myself for being manipulated. (She starts to break things using her tk'ing power to break everything in her site.) I hate you all. No one wants me then fine I will end everything.

(She goes to her dresser and grabs some pen and paper and she writes a spell. the spell is to stop her from getting magical healing)

Billie: The only way to end this pain is to end my miserable life. Nobody wants me and it is over

I call upon the ancient power

To end this pain within this hour

To make sure that my life can end

And no magic can heal me again

She then goes to the medicine cabinet grabs a bottle of sleeping pills and she grabs a bottle of gin that she took from her parents house and starts to down the whole bottle of

pills and gin. She also starts to write a note

To anyone that finds me,

I have tried but I cannot go on with this life anymore. I have tried but it is not working. everyone that I have ever loved has left me or despises me and I cannot live with that anymore. If I am hurting anyone then I am sorry, but it has to end this way. This pain is too much and I have to end it. To the Halliwell sisters please find it in your heart to forgive me. I have to go now the medicine is working and the pain is ended.

Love Always, Billie

Billie: It won't be long now and this will all be over. (She goes and lays on the bed and starts to fall into a deep sleep)