(I Don't Own Deathnote)
My hatred clouded my judgment…
I just wanted to catch Kira. If I could surpass L, and more importantly, beat Near, nothing else mattered. It was my driving factor.
I let my competitiveness get in the way again…
Back at Whammy's I was always second. If I got an A he got an A+. I just wanted to beat him at something for once. I was willing to risk everything.
I was gambling with my own life at first, but I dragged you into it…
After the explosion at the hideout I thought I lost everything. I figured I had nothing left to lose in this game of wits. But I was wrong; I still had one thing left…
I never wanted you to get hurt…
I remember your sweet smile, the way you would get excited every time you beat a new video game. You pretended that it was no big deal, but I could tell how happy you were.
I knew they would want to question you…
You were always so full of life. Your laugh was so charming. Your eyes sparkled with hope. Your smile could light up a room.
So, why did they shoot?
We've been through so much together. From playing pranks at Wammy's to tailing the NPK trying to catch Kira… You were always there for me.
Please…Tell me why…
I don't think it matters anymore. If I catch Kira. If I beat Near. It won't be worth it if you're not there next to me. If you won't be there to celebrate with me.
I never told you how much you meant to me…
You were the best thing that ever happened to me… I just wish I could have told you that. I loved you…I still do.
Matt…
I never thought they'd kill you…
I'm so sorry…