More chapters to come. bascially about Sirius and various people he has sex with. review please
It wasn't like he completely was not there, but lately things were not the same. Some days he loves me, someday he loves him. It would be rough at night, when I was not the one he wanted to be with, it was rough and cruel. Pain, which sometimes I did not mind, loving the sensation of pain causing pleasure, but not when he could not even make eye contact . Then he would wake up and kiss away all the bruises and make love, it was baffling and it hurt. His grey eyes looked into mine, at dinner, tears filled my eyes. Food was unnecessary, I could not stand it anymore, I bolted as fast as I could, way out of there. Somewhere they could not possibly find me, a place to drown your sorrows, blame him, blame myself, and blame everyone and everything. It was always just one of those games they blamed.
The drugs and booze kicked in, and thoughts were blurred. My reflection stared back at me, dark hair, hazel eyes, and small, trashed. Not to different from James, I guess, maybe it was the eyes. My leather jacket moved in closer to me, as I felt a warm body wrap his legs around me from behind. Sorry he kept muttering into my ears, kissing the top of my head, holding me close. He was the Sirius, I fell in love with, the boy I used to love, still love, wish I did not love. I drifted off to sleep in his arms, feeling safe and loved for the first time in a long time.
When I woke up, I was no longer in a smoke filled room, yet a very familiar bed tucked underneath silk Gryffindor sheets. A strong arm, holding me closes, like he had not in almost a year. I tried to shake away, needing hangover potion but he stopped me with a kiss. "Good morning love" was all he said as he kissed me deeply, passionately, just like the first time. He moved down to my neck sucking gently, and then harder, and then biting. I could hear myself moan, and press my body towards him, beginning for more. He easily took of my top, working his ways down my chest leaving hickies until he hit my bra, as hid undid it, he kissed me and I kissed back. His warm mouth licked my nipples, sucked on them, as he caressed my boobs. "Oh god, more Siri, please more" I moaned into his ear, arching my back and wrapping my arms around his neck, as he kissed me.
He's tongue slid violently down my stomach, with a strong sense of passion and urgency. My jeans were discarded, as thumb started to massage my clit, sending my body on fire. I bucked my hips against his, as he slid two fingers into me. He was kissing me and I bit down on his lip hard, which caused him to moan in pain and pleasure, I bit down on the sensitive spot under his ear. Kissing him, and grinding against him. His quickly pulled out his fingers and quickly discarded his jeans and boxers, sliding his errection up against my thighs.
"Do you want it?" He asked. I nodded vigorously, but he smirked. "Beg" he commanded. "Oh fuck, just fuck me Sirius Black" I told him, moaning, wanting. In one quick swift moment, he pounded into me, he groaned. The pace quickened, I tangled my hands in his hair, and it was coming. I could hear him reaching climax, screaming my name, like he had not in a year. I smiled, screaming his name right back as he collapsed on top of me. Smiling at me, and kissing me. I love you, he said. It all seemed to perfect, as he pulled me close and whispered sweet nothings into my ear.