This is my turn at writing a shuffle fic. Surprisingly they turned out a lot more intense than I was expecting. This can be taken however you want it to be...Kendall/OC, Kendall/Jo, Kendall/Camille...heck, it could even be whatever slash pairing you'd like if you just take out the s in every she and change any her to him. Its really whoever you want it to be!

Disclaimer: I own nothing of Big Time Rush nor do I own any of these songs unless you count me owning them on Zune.

Dying- Five For Fighting

Kendall lay in his bed, not moving and his face streaked with tears. He felt like he was dying inside…everything hurt and he just couldn't think straight. All he wanted was to forget about her but she was constantly on his mind! Her eyes, her smile, her scent…his heart ached for her and he knew there was no one to blame but himself.

For the longest time he'd held out hope that she would somehow come back to him, but he'd been wrong. He'd begged, pleaded, apologized but nothing could change her mind. "It's too late for sorry, Kendall. Goodbye…" she'd said. And now the blossoming red stain on his wrists and knife held in his hand proved the love he had for her that he hadn't shown her in their relationship. He'd been dying to find a way to live without her…and now he had.

Like We Never Loved At All- Faith Hill

She watched from the opposite side of the Palmwoods Pool, the dark sunglasses she wore managing to hide her red rimmed eyes. Kendall was just laughing and chatting with his friends, going on like normal. How she wished with all her heart that she could move on the way he had! She wanted to know how he'd managed to get over everything so quickly! It was like he'd just forgotten everything that had taken place between them…maybe it was as simple as him never having loved her in the first place.

Kendall watched her from where he sat with James, Carlos and Logan. He was a good actor, laughing and talking animatedly the way he use to. He saw her sitting there, drinking a smoothie and relaxing. How could she be so calm and relaxed? Had their relationship meant nothing to her?

"You need to forget about her man." James murmured, noticing where his gaze was going…and Kendall shook his head. Maybe he should pretend that they'd never loved at all.

You Don't Know What Love Is- Lonestar

They kissed heavily, fingers devolving into each other's hair as they clung to one another like their lives depended on it. She felt her heart race; suddenly terrified by this intense feeling she felt pounding in her chest. It had been only a month since Kendall had claimed her for himself…surely she shouldn't be feeling this need for him this deeply.

"We're moving too fast," she whispered against his lips. He pulled back to rest his forehead to her own, his lean body pinning her against the wall. Those beautiful pale green eyes looked at her with such devotion and adoration…like she was the most amazing thing to walk this earth.

"This is love…" he told her with such certainty that she couldn't believe otherwise. "I love you more than anything. You're mine and I'm yours. We are meant to be together." He kissed her again, this time more softly and tenderly. And as she kissed him back, she knew he was right…this was love, pure and simple.

El Tango de Roxanne- Moulin Rouge

Kendall paced furiously back and forth in the living room of the apartment, unable to sit still long enough to watch anything on TV and too distracted to do anything else. He wondered if this is what it felt like to go crazy. All of his thoughts were consumed with one girl and the fact that she was out right now with a man that wasn't him.

They'd agree it would be best to date other people because if the paparazzi knew about their relationship, they'd do nothing but tear it apart. It was to be their own personal secret and dating others was just their way of keeping it that way. Only Kendall hadn't been able to bring himself to date anyone else. But she had (though he knew it was for their own good) and now the jealousy was driving him insane. He couldn't stop thinking about him being allowed to kiss her and touch her and before long there was a hole punched in the wall.

Suddenly there was a knock at the door and he Kendall but tripped over himself in effort to get to it. He threw it open and there she stood, glorious and beautiful. Her slender body fell into his arms and she kissed him with a passion he knew only belonged to him. All thought of jealousy and his aching hand faded, so long as she was in his arms.

You're Not Sorry- Taylor Swift

It was always the same old story. Kendall would hurt her (sometimes physically and sometimes emotionally) and break her heart. She would cry and he'd plead with her to let him explain himself. Of course she would let him and he'd beg for her forgiveness…and she'd take him back, just like that. But this time it was different. This time it wouldn't magically be okay and she knew that just by looking at the newly formed bruises on her arm.

"I'm begging you not to do this! Please, I'll do anything…just don't leave," he tried to plead with her. "Please forgive me…" Her eyes flashed to his angelic face and she slowly shook her head.

"I can't Kendall…not this time around," she told him. "I've given you chance and chance again but this is the last straw! I am sick of hurting all the time! I love you, but I can't do this anymore! You keep saying you're sorry, but I just don't believe you anymore. It's over…" And with that, she finally walked out the door for good, tears streaming down her face.

Thinking of You- Katy Perry

It wasn't fair to James. He was a good guy and deserved someone who was able to give him the attention and love he deserved. She couldn't keep doing this to him! Not when she was secretly pining away for his best friend.

Every time she kissed James, it was Kendall's lips she was imagining. When James pulled her close, she secretly wished it was it was Kendall's arms that were holding her so tenderly. It was a terrible thing to do and she hated herself for it, but she just couldn't get over Kendall and James had been so sweet to her… she knew what she needed to do.

"James…there is something I need to tell you…"

A Little Fall of Rain- Les Miserables

Kendall held her in his arms, afraid to let go of her. Logan was off trying to find medical supplies, James had called 911 and Carlos was frantically trying to find someone who could help them. Deep in his heart, Kendall knew it would be too late. Nothing could help her now…some crazed fan had shot her and he'd never gotten the chance to tell her how much he loved her. Even as she lay dying in his arms, he couldn't bring himself to tell her.

"Keep your eyes open! Don't leave me…please!" he begged softly, tears slipping down his face. Her hand simply reached up, her eyes unfocused and the light in them fading. He was fairly certain she was completely out of it now with so much blood loss.

"I love you, Kendall…now I'll finally sleep in your arms…" she murmured. His eyes widened in shock. She loved him? Before he could say another word though, she closed her eyes and her body gave one last shutter before going perfectly still. He could only hold her lifeless body close to his own as heart wrenching sobs escaped his lips.

Missing- Evanescence

She had been there for him time and time again. She had tried so hard to make him realize that she was the one who had been there for him through this whole ordeal, and yet he never seemed to even notice her at all. Maybe this time he would…

She took and threw her clothes, thinking about the people she cared about. She hated doing this to them, but the time had come for her to leave. Kendall wouldn't have her to fall back on anymore! Maybe once she was gone he'd realize there was something missing in his life…and that would be her. But it would be too late because she'd be far away from here.

You Belong With Me- Taylor Swift

She watched from her room as Kendall talked on the phone with his girlfriend, trying to calm her down. How he had ended up dating one the Jennifer's she didn't even know, but he did and apparently Jennifer didn't get his sense of humor because something had been taken way out of proportion.

"WE'RE OVER!" she saw him roar into the phone. It wasn't hard to mistake that lip reading. She couldn't help but be surprised. She had been wanting this to happen for so long! She texted him. "I heard. U OK?"

He looked towards her window and gave a gentle smirk. "Fine. Sick of her NE way. I've liked some1 else for a while now."

"Really! Who?" she texted back, her heart racing. There was someone else he loved already? She didn't think she could take it. But then she looked up to see him pointing at her…

You'll Be In My Heart- Tarzan Soundtrack

Kendall's strong arms held her tight as she cried quietly against his chest. He glared at the magazines that all seemed to be tried to rip their relationship to shreds, saying that ridiculous stuff like he was cheating on her or that she was pregnant or that they'd be over by the end of the month…he hated this because he knew that none of true! But there were times when it still got to her.

He tilted her chin to make her look at him. "I want you to listen to me…" he told her gently, but firmly. "It doesn't matter one bit what they say because what we have is real. Nothing is going to tear us apart. You're here in my heart till the end of time…I love you."

She looked up at him, smiling tearfully. "I love you too…" she whispered, pressing her lips to his. He ran his fingers through her hair, enjoying the moment. This woman had his heart and she always would.

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