My Happy Ending
Summary: Rose and Dimitri Songfic. Rose gets up and sings My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne one night at karaoke with everyone-including Dimitri. Set after Dimitri says "Love fades, mine has." DPOV. This is no longer a one-shot Songfic! Will be continued! PLEASE READ!
Disclaimer: Sadly, I do not own the Vampire Academy series or the song My Happy Ending. These belong to Richelle Mead and Avril Lavigne. But I can always keep hoping.
I was with the Princess and all her friends out for karaoke. Roza was there. Her very presence destroyed me. I loved her so much. I couldn't believe what I had done to her. And no matter what she said, I couldn't believe that she forgave me. I wouldn't be here if not for the Princess. I was trying to avoid Roza as much as possible, but I had sworn allegiance to the Princess- I would protect her with my life. I didn't think anything could cause me more pain than being here and watching Ivashkov flirt with my Roza. I was soon proved wrong.
Guardian Castile had just finished singing 1985 by Bowling for Soup. Then it was Roza's turn. I figured she would sing some love song to Ivashkov. Instead she started singing My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne. Oh God. Please no. She started singing. Her voice was beautiful, but her words ripped me apart. I didn't realize that I had caused her so much pain by telling her I didn't love her anymore. Oh God.
Oh oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh oh oh
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did
Was it something you said
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high on such a breakable thread
No, Roza. You did nothing wrong. And it wasn't my words that did this. It was my actions.
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
Oh god. How could she still love me? I had hurt her so much. How could she still care for me? How could she forgive me? Her memories might fade, but mine wouldn't. I couldn't forget. Memories were all I had left of her.
Oh oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh oh oh
You got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you? (even know you)
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
That was true. All my guardian friends thought that she was a trouble maker and not worth the effort. I knew better. All the things I hide from her…I didn't hide much from her, but the things I did I regretted. And the last line I didn't even want to think about.
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done.
Oh Roza! I did care! I do! I was never acting! You were the only one I ever loved. And what I did while I was strigoi, that's why I can't be with you now! We did have it all. We had a plan. We would have made it work. But the attack on the school changed all of that. After that, things weren't the same. Then I understood. Things weren't the same because I wouldn't let them be. I was the only thing holding us back. Just like I always was. She had forgiven me. She still wanted to be with me. She didn't care about what I had done as a strigoi. She just wanted to go forward. All I had to do was forgive myself.
He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
Oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh oh oh oh oh ohhhh
As soon as she was done singing, I ran up to her. She looked surprised.
"What do you want Guardian Belikov?" she asked icily. That hurt. I couldn't help but flinch. Guardian Belikov. Not 'comrade', not Dimitri, just Guardian Belikov.
I regained my composure before speaking. "I need to speak with you. Please." I begged.
She regarded me warily before slowly nodding. I mentally sighed in relief. I grabbed her arm and started to pull her outside. Then I realized my mistake.
She stiffened as soon as I touched her. I quickly pulled my hand back. "Sorry." I murmured. I think she could see the pain in my eyes. She followed me outside.
As soon as we got outside I stopped, but didn't turn around. I didn't know what to say. How could I express what I was feeling? How would she react? Would she reject me?
"What is it, Dimitri?" she asked me, tiredly.
I was pulled out of my thoughts. I sighed. There was only one way to find out.
"I love you."