Left With Nothing
Today is off. I can feel it, you know that feeling where you know something bad is about to happen? Yep well that's how I feel.
With a sigh I shake that feeling off and get ready for my day with Sam.
Sam.
Sam has been a little off too.
Anyways, what should I wear? We're going to the beach but its way to cold for swimming. I settle on jeans and the blue sweater that I know Sam likes.
His horn honks and I race to the door.
The car ride to the beach was silent. I've never seen Sam so quiet and hard before. I really hope I didn't do anything wrong. We got out and started walking along the beach. Minutes passed, and I couldn't take the silence anymore.
"Sam what's wrong?" I asked.
No Answer.
"Sam why aren't you talking to me?" I demanded completely confused.
He sighed, "Leah…I…We cant be together anymore."
"…" What?????
"Leah?" He asked fully turning to me.
I busted out laughing. This is completely a joke!!
"Oh my god, you completely had me going!"
His expression of sorrow didn't change.
I was praying that Ashton Kutcher was about to run up and say this was all a joke.
"Leah… I'm sorry." He said, his voice thick with emotion.
"This is NOT funny anymore Sam!!"
Once again his expression didn't change.
"Why?" I asked, the situation no sinking in.
No answer.
"Why are you saying this?? I love you, I know you love me, what's the problem?" I was completely stunned but I felt the tears well up in my eyes.
This can't be happening. No way!! This is some cruel joke! It has to be.
He finally answered in a dead voice, "I don't love you the same way I did."
"What the hell does that mean?" My voice was starting to slightly raise.
The image of Sam's first look at Emily filled my mind.
"We're not meant to be together, Leah." Tears rolled down my cheeks as I grasped what he was saying.
How could he do this to me?!?!?!?!?!!
"That's not true! You said that we were last week!" I was half crying and half yelling.
"Please Lee Lee, try to understand!" Sam begged.
That did it. With those words, I snapped.
"HOW DARE YOU CALL ME THAT!!!" I yelled. He flinched
"We're not the same people we were" He said reluctantly after my little outburst.
"Since a week ago?!?" I screeched.
I was at my Boiling point.
"A week is a long time." he calmly stated, while trying to get me to calm down. Too late I'm in hysterics.
"We've been together since high school, Sam!! High school!!!
"I know." he quietly said.
"What did I do wrong? I'll fix it!" I pleaded with him. My face now stained with tears.
"Its not you its-" Sam began in a desperate voice.
"Oh HELL NO!!!!!! Don't you use that bull shit on me!" I bellowed at him.
I was beyond pissed off.
"I'm sorry." he said again.
"I stood by you!" I screamed through my tears "I stood by you when you were missing. I had to listen to rumors and people talking about where you were and what you were doing! I stood by you when all of my friends that you were gone for good." I lowered my voice as I neared the end of my rant. "I stood by you. And now your telling me that after all I and we have been through, it isn't enough? How could you?"
With that his face crumpled in pain and he started sobbing. But I'm not sparing his feelings now.
"Well I hope you and Emily will be very happy together." I said with venom dripping through my words.
Sam looked at me shocked that I knew.
"Emily has nothing to do with this." he quietly said.
I looked at him. With a defeated tone and a tearstained face, I chocked out "I may be many things, Sam but I'm not blind. I saw the way you looked at her." With the realization that Emily my own cousin is the cause of this, I started crying again.
He looked at me and said, "I don't know why and I don't know how, but with Emily…I feel something I've never felt before."
With that he walked away and I fell to the ground sobbing.
I'm left with nothing.