one part of a pair

by hmswolfstar

I don't know what else to do, I'm one part of a pair.

He was my best friend but

She was part of me at the same time. She was the smart one but she was

Brave, so brave. I don't know what I'd have done without him and

Now she's gone. It's like someone took part of me and

Threw it into a pit of dragons; it hurts so badly and

Sometimes I think it's going to kill me but I know she

Would want me to keep going, he wouldn't want me to

Wallow in despair, but I don't know what else to do, I'm

One part of a pair and I can't keep going by myself and

Nobody understands except

Her. Her dark eyes and her

Smile, something that came so naturally but now it's

Tired, and lifeless, like a girl who's seen too much and just

Can't go on anymore, because it's

Killing her inside, and I know how that feels and

The only time I feel whole is when

She looks at me with those eyes and

That smile and

Everything feels like it could be ok even

If just for a little while. Maybe

We wouldn't have met before the War, and

I suppose it's the only good thing to come out of it but

Why did it have to come at such a price? I love her more than I thought possible but

Why did I have to lose so much to have him? But I have to carry on

For Fred

For Padma

For us.