藍染との戦いが終わった後の乱菊とギンの短い夢です。

Just a short story about Rangiku and Gin post Aizen arc. English translation included below. The title is a play on Rangiku's name. Ran(乱)means disordered/confused and giku (kiku 菊)is a chrysanthemum.


ギン、あんたはいつもこうだった。

いつも、私に行き先をつげず消え。
いつも、何を考えてるか分からなかった。
でも、いつも私のもとに帰って来てくれた。
何故、今回は私のもとに帰って来てくれなかったの?
何故、最後の最後まで、私に何も残してくれなかったの?

乱菊は一人丘の上に座りながら、始めてギンと会った時の事から今までの事が頭の中を流れてた。

"ごめんな。"
あの時もう知っていたの?あの時からもう私のもとに帰る事が無いと。
私はこれからどうすればいいの?
皆、少しずつ日常を取り戻して、少しずつ前に進んでる。
けど、私は?

気がつけば、知らない間に涙が頬を伝って、地面に落ちてた。

「乱菊。ほな、泣くでないや。」突然、乱菊の前に現れたギン。

「ギン?本当にギンなの?」乱菊がギンの腕の中に飛び込んだ。

「ああ、そうやで。」微かな笑み。暖かい温もり。力強い腕。

ああ、ギンだ。戻ってきてくれたんだ。止める事が出来なく溢れ出す涙。夢ではないギンの温もりが体に染みて、あの戦いが終わってから、始めて乱菊はほっとした。

どれくらいそうやって二人は立っていただろう?一分?十分?それ以上?時間になど意味が無かったが、その静かな時は早くにも終わってしまった。

ギンが乱菊を離して、一歩下がった。「辛い想いさせてもうたな。ごめんな、乱菊。時間やで。さいなら。」

「やだ、行かないで、ギン。私を一人にしないで!」乱菊が啼きながら手を差し伸べたが、彼の体は光に包まれ、彼女が手を伸ばしても、もうその手はギンの体を透き通って彼を触る事さえ叶わない。

「ほんま、ごめんな。生きるやで、乱菊。さいなら。好きやで。」最後の言葉が囁かれるなりに彼の光すら消えて、乱菊は再度暗い丘の上に一人になった。

「あんたはいつも、ずるいよね。自分だけ言って逃げるなんて。私もよ、ギン。私もあんたを好き。」ギンが立っていた所み向かって乱菊がぽつりと呟いた。


Gin, you are always like that.
You always disappeared without telling me where you're going.
I never knew what you were thinking.
But, you always came back to me.
So why couldn't you come back to me this time too?
Why, until the end, couldn't you leave me with something?

Rangiku sat alon on top of the hill, remembering all the time she had spent with Gin, from the beginning to now.

"I'm sorry."
Did you know when you said that, that you wouldn't be returning to me?
What am I supposed to do now?
Everyone else is slowly getting back to their lives, slowly moving forward.
What about me?

When she noticed, tears were falling down her face to the ground.

"Rangiku, come now, don't cry." Gin said suddenly appearing before her.

"Gin? Is it really you?" Rangiku asked flying into his arms.

"Yeah, it's me." That smirk. That warmth. Those strong arms.

It's Gin. He came back to me. Unable to stop them, the tears fell freely, down Rangiku's face. This wasn't a dream. Gin's warmth seeped into her and for the first time since that battle had ended Rangiku felt at peace.

How long did they stand there like that? One minute? Ten minutes? Longer? Time held no meaning, but all to soon, the peace ended.

Gin let go of Rangiku and took a step back. "I hurt you. I'm sorry, Rangiku. My time's up. Good-bye."

"No! Don't go, Gin! Don't leave me alone!" Rangiku cried out as she reached for him. But Gin's body was surrounded by light and her hand only passed through his body, unable to even touch him.

"I'm sorry. Live, Rangiku. Good-bye. I love you." As he whispered the last word, his light disappeared and Rangiku was again alone on the dark hill.

"You always were sneaky. Running away like that after you say your piece. Me too, Gin. I love you, too." Rangiku whispered to the place where Gin had stood only moments before.