Disclaimer: I own nothing!

For The First Time
Chapter 1

Last night had a lot in store for me. No one would except that one Friday in March would hold such an event that could possibly change everything for me. I could lose friends. I could lose my reputation. I wasn't sure what to make of last night.

I guess I should explain. It all started at school yesterday when Manny ran up to me at my locker looking both excited and happy.

"Okay, so my family is going away for the weekend. So you know what that means right?" She asked.

"Does that mean you will be having the house all to yourself?" I asked. I knew exactly where this conversation was going, but I felt the need to drag it out, just for jokes.

"Yes. And it also means that I will be throwing a much needed party! Please tell me you can come. Please, please, please, please, please?" Manny begged. I smirked at the fact that she wouldn't take no for an answer.

"Of course I will. Expect me there." I replied as Manny let you a happy squeal and hugged me.

Little did I know that one answer was probably a poor decision on my part? But Manny is my best friend; I couldn't just not go, especially when she was so excited. Plus, I guess we both figured I could need it. I have been out of the dating game for a few months now after my last disaster break up. I guess I could cut loose tonight.

I arrived home from school at about four, after stopping at The Dot first. I returned to an empty house. My mom was most likely working at the salon, Jack was at day care, and Archie was still hanging around school. I knew that for a fact because I saw him as I was leaving. I went downstairs to my bedroom and took a shower. When I finished, I began scanning for something to wear. I finally decided on a red strapless crinkled body hugging dress paired with a black silk belt that tied around the waist. I paired it with black flats. I managed to look nice without degrading myself. I was satisfied.

I curled my hair and wore it down and applied make up. After about two hours, I was ready. I texted Manny that I was on my way and made my way out to my silver Nissan. I climbed in, started the engine, and began my drive to Manny's. Once I arrived and parked, I walked into Manny's house and was shocked. It was about 6:30 and the house was already packed out. I walked around confused by all the unfamiliar faces that I saw. I didn't recognize anyone, except for Derek and Danny who were talking to girls.

I pushed my way past people and went into the kitchen to grab something to drink, and to get away from everyone for a few minutes. I was actually relieved to see Toby and JT standing by the table in the kitchen, each holding a beer. I walked over to them and happily greeted those familiar faces.

"Hey guys," I said as Toby reached behind him and grabbed another beer. He opened it for me then handed it to me.

"Emma Nelson, beer drinker? Since when?" JT asked teasingly.

"Oh JT, how is it that Toby knows better than you? At least someone pays attention to me at parties." I answered back with a smirk and then took a sip of the Coors Light in my hand.

"Someone needs to watch you and make sure you don't overdo it." Toby teased.

"Hey! I'm pretty sure last party we went to you were the one cutting open a pineapple screaming for Spongebob to come out." I said prompting me and JT to start laughing.

"Ha ha, very funny." Toby said. "Anyway, where's Mia tonight, JT?"

"Out of town with Bella, visiting her grandmother." JT said and took another sip of beer.

Mia was JT's newest girlfriend. They've been dating for a few months now. Bella was her daughter. Mia had had her young, but that didn't matter to JT, which made him a better guy than most. After talking more and more, Toby finally ran off with some girl from Lakehurst. I think her name was Nora or Anna or something. So then, it was just me and JT and our beers.

After awhile, I found myself doing shots. JT did a few with me, but he preferred his beer over the Patron. We continued talking. I don't think I have ever talked so much. We talked about how I have just given up on finding a guy who won't hurt me while he discussed how Mia doesn't want him around any other girls, including all of his friends. After sometime, I excused myself and made my way upstairs to use the bathroom.

I opened one door to find Manny with Jay. I quickly apologized and shut the door behind me. I opened the door to Manny's room to find Toby with Nora, which surprised me, but I repeated an apology and shut the door. I finally opened the door to one of the guest rooms to find it empty. I used the bathroom and walked back into the bedroom to find JT walking in.

"Everyone annoying you, booooo?" I asked drunkenly.

"Of course, I know no one but you, Toby, and Manny." He responded.

I took a seat on the bed, with him coming to sit next to me. We began talking again about random things. Finally, the conversation took a turn.

"Hey Em, can I ask you something?" JT asked me.

"Of course you can," I answered.

"Have you ever wondered what it would be like to kiss someone you've been friends with for years?"

"Yes." I answered almost immediately.

"Is it bad to try it?" JT asked.

"JT, just kiss me." I said. I had no idea what I was saying. The alcohol was possessing all the common sense that I have had. It's like my brain lacked it completely.

JT slowly leaned in and softly kissed me. It wasn't a long kiss, more like a peck. After, he leaned back slightly and looked me in my eyes. I looked back. I quickly went against all judgment and grabbed him by the back of his neck and brought his lips back to mine. He returned the kiss and even deepened it.

Before I knew it, JT was lying on top of me. The heated make out session we had going had my brain screaming. It was telling me that I needed this. I needed every single bit of this. I almost screamed in lust as his hand grabbed my hip. I was playing with his belt.

And before I knew it, the deed was done. I woke up the next morning with the sun shining through the window. I had a pounding headache. It was obvious to me that I was completely hung over. I looked over toward the closet that I was facing to see my dress laying on the floor. I immediately panicked. I sat up quickly and looked at the person lying next to me. There was JT, sound asleep. I quickly woke him up, causing him to shoot up in complete confusion. He immediately grabbed his head, which indicated to me that I wasn't the only one hung over.

Almost immediately, my mind flashed through all of last night's event and I realized that me and JT had had sex. Both of us quietly and awkwardly got out of bed and put our clothes back on. I was completely panicked and rushed out of the room, shutting the door behind me. I crashed into Toby, who was leading the girl out of Manny's room. I apologized and rushed down the stairs as I heard JT pulling the door open from upstairs. All I heard as I was shutting Manny's front door was Toby.

"JT, no way!"

As soon as I shut Manny's door, a million thoughts broke into my head. What was Mia going to say? Have I gone completely crazy? I'm supposed to be her friend and now I slept with her boyfriend. Oh, and then there's Liberty. She was going to kill me. Everyone knows about the history her and JT have. She is never going to speak to me again.

I rushed over to my car and drove home pretty fast. I snuck in through my bedroom window and changed into shorts and a tank top. I then collapsed on my bed. I swear as soon as my head hit the pillow, I started crying hysterically. I'm not sure what, but all I know is that I cried myself back to sleep.

When I had finally woken up, my hangover was gone. I turned on my cell phone and saw that I had four missed calls, each with a voicemail, and four text messages. The missed calls were from different people. My mother had called me letting me know that she assumes I'm sleeping at Manny's but her, Archie, and my younger brother are going to visit my great-grandmother who lives an hour away. Manny called me asking me what I did with JT last night and to give her a call. Toby left one asking for me to simply call him back. Then there was one from JT.

"Hey Em, it's me. You seemed pretty freaked this morning, and rightfully so. I think we should talk. Give me a call or a text and we'll meet up. Bye."

The texts were from Manny, Toby, Danny, and my mom. All of which I decided I could respond to later. I texted JT, who texted back asking if we can meet at The Dot in an hour. I agreed and then got up to get ready.

I put on a pair of skinny jeans with a blue and white striped shirt. I clipped my hair up out of my face and grabbed my bag. I slipped on white flip flops and walked upstairs, then out the door and decided to walk to The Dot instead of drive. So this explains why I am currently sitting in The Dot sipping at a hot coffee with plenty of creamer.

Finally, JT walked in and made his way over to where I was sitting.

"Hey." He said.

"Hey." I responded.

He took a seat and ordered a black coffee. Once Spinner brought it over, we began talking.

"Look Em, I don't want things to be weird between us," JT started.

"Neither do I. That's the opposite of what I want. I liked talking to you last night, JT. It's been awhile since we've had a conversation like that."

"Exactly, same here. It was just one night with lapse in judgment on both of our parts."

"That lapse in judgment cost me so much."

"What do you mean?" JT asked confused.

"Well, as embarrassed as I am to admit this, last night was my first time." I said softly and I saw JT's face dropped.

"Really? Em, I am so sorry. I should have controlled the situation. That's not fair to you." JT said apologetically.

"JT, stop. Don't be sorry. As weird as it sounds, I would have rather lost my virginity to someone I've known my whole life and trust than to some loser, even if it was a mistake." I said quietly. Both of us remained quiet for a few minutes. "JT, do you think we could keep this between us?"

"It's like you read my mind. I just think we'd be setting ourselves up for a lot of drama that can be avoided."

"Exactly what I was thinking. Thank you."

"It's no problem. So we're good?" JT asked. I smiled.

"We're good." I answered as he smiled back.

We then walked out of The Dot together and said our goodbyes and took our separate ways home. At least this was one weight off my shoulders.

And so it begins! All reviews are appreciated! I will update soon!