Prologue - dear dairy

Dear Dairy,

Life sucks then people die. But however I'm not so lucky, for the last well too many years I've walked alone I may have my family not really but close enough to be, standing around trying to be "human" that word sounds so distant to my life I mean I look normal talk normally but that one word "human" is so hard to find a reasonable match between my world and hers. Her being the one thing in my life that lights up my world and makes me feel like I am that word its even hard to say, but she alone make me happy except for that fact I might kill her. But come on it isn't that bad. Ok never mind I'm a monster no complaints here that's who I am Edward Cullen the vampire who wants a girl whose human in every way I'm not Bella Swan the police chiefs daughter. But if only I can stand next to her instead of running away maybe just maybe I could seam normal to her for the past 108 I have been trying to close the door on forever but I can close the door on her not my Bella. I can still remember the first time I saw her. Life was more simple then. Like playing paper toss and getting 98 then missing. Life was easy.

It was the beginning of school term at Forks High School the very jail I now call school. News travels fast around small towns but exceedingly fast in this tiny town named Forks in Washington State, but maybe it just travelled so fast because the soon to be new girl in town Isabella Swan is the Police Chief's daughter who hasn't been here since she was 5. The only reason I know about this is not because our family is one of the "in' families and come to think about it no-one talks to us mind you we don't talk to them but any way. I make life interesting mainly because my family is a group of VAMPIRES!!! Shocking I know. Bet they won't see that coming.

Chapter 1 – The first day

Every morning starts the same just dressed have that outfit approved by my sister Alice once that's all in order go down stairs for breakfast normally its mountain lion or deer which ever. This is the time of year I wish I could sleep. School. This morning was a day of wait because the town for one the whole town was bouncing around with excitement today is the first time in 12 years they will see Police Chief Swan's daughter after her mother took her away from Forks (not that I blame her I would to) a small town in Washington State it rains here more than any other town in the USA that's mainly why we live here it's the only place that we can go out in the daylight hours 95% of the time. But then again sunlight doesn't hurt us but we can't go out anyway. But this morning was different Alice wasn't the cheerful self.

"What's wrong Alice? What did you see?" I asked

"When are you going?" Alice spoke in a low tone just out of the hearing of the rest of the family.

"You wont even say good-bye why are you leaving I don't see a reason"

"What the fuck are you talking about?" I questioned "I don't understand" I wondered out loud "what do you mean we're leaving" I asked.

"Not us you idiot! You!" she exclaimed

"I have no idea what you're on about" I told her

"Of course you don't it hasn't happened yet god!" she yelled at me and stormed out of the room.

With that I stood there like an idiot thinking of what Alice said and tried to think about what would make me leave all I could think about was the new girl Isabella Swan who has come but from Australia(why??????? Would you????) to come to school here I hadn't even meet her yet.

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