RPOV

It's been 6 months since Dimitri said those 4 horrible words "love fades, mine has." And since then he moved back to Russia to be with his family and get through this difficult time...

I on the other hand, was a different story.

After Dimitri left Lisa got angry, no furious at me for going to speak with him and has shut me out altogether.

A month later I started to feel sick and started to cough up blood. I went to Dr Olendzki and she was the one who broke the news to me that I had lung cancer. After the news i had been given I didn't tell anyone but Adrian and Yeva. And yes I still keep in touch with her. Eddie, Mia, Adrian and Yeva are the only ones I talk to at court now. Everyone else just ignore me. When Lisa stopped talking to me I went and requested a guardian transfer and am now, just a part time guardian of the court. When I'm not at my job patrolling the grounds I work at the local childcare centre.

About 4 months ago I was at work when a new little boy came in. He had nice chocolate brown hair, bright blue, grey eyes and looked to be around 3 years old. I ended up picking him up from the corner of the room, where he was crying and walked him around the centre. Later it came to my attention that his name was Elijah and his parents had been attacked and killed only 2 days ago. He was, to be sent to the orphanage in a weeks' time and for the time being he would have to stay in one of the spare rooms in the guest housing. So I did what I thought was right and adopted him after 2 short days.
Now my life composes of taking care of Elijah, working my rounds as a guardian, working at the childcare centre and checking in every so often with Dr Olendzki about my lung cancer.

- DPOV -

I've been in Russia for about 6 months, and I think I've gotten better. When I first arrived home, everyone was shocked, except Yeva. I felt as if they wanted to ask me something but they kept their mouths shut. Everyone was happy I was home but after that first night Yeva wouldn't talk to me and every night since I got back when I would see her she either looked at me with disappointment, disgust or just pissed. I had asked her what was wrong after the first week of this and all she had done was shake her head.

I've gotten a lot better I think. I have started to feel again. Before I came here, all I would feel was guilt for what I had done, but now I was feeling love towards my family and I was happy for once. All I've done really since I've been home was train in a little gym just out of town and help around the house, and it's been great so far, I'm just starting to settle and feel like me again.

..Time laps...

It was a Friday night and the family was gathered around the dinner table. Everyone was enjoying themselves as far as I could tell, well except for Yeva, when a loud knock echoed through the house. We all kinda just looked at each other until Viktoria jumps out of her seat.

"Well I guess I'll get it then." She said slightly jumping to the door.
About 2 minutes later a confused looking Viktoria came back holding a fancy envelope, "We all have been summoned to court, by the request of Princess Vasilisa Dragomir. It says that our plane will pick us up tomorrow evening."

"Well then that's settled we should have an early night." Yeva spoke, with a knowing look in her eye.

"We can't just drop everything and leave." Said Karolina with Paul sitting on her knee.

"Yes we can, and we will. There is someone at court I need to see anyway." Yeva finished. She got up after that and headed towards her room but not before getting to say one last thing "Roza's going to be there." Then shut the door.
Frozen.
That's what I was after those 5 simple words. I had totally forgotten about my Roza... well no that impossible, I had just locked her away in a safe place in my brain. Almost immediately after I had said those words at the church I regretted them. I watched the heart break seep into her eyes as she walked out of the church.
For the first 5 months here, I had just about cried myself to sleep just thinking of all the things I had done to her, but over the last month the pain and sorrow over losing her has subsided and it's now at the bottom of my heart, although I know she will always own it. I had just noticed the loud, excited noise coming from around me, but even when I did notice I just ignored what they were saying. I got up off my chair almost like a robot said a little goodnight to everyone and went to my room, falling on my bed slowly drifting off into a deep sleep.

And That night I dreamt of her.