-1A/N: Ok its been awhile sense I wrote anything so, sorry if you think this story is pathetic. The lyrics are from the song Survive. And Injection. Sorry for all oocness.

Naruto's P.O.V.

This grip loosens but it never breaks

We carry nothing but a name you will forsake
Your words are always there to break my fall

And I might find the comfort to see through it all
Guide me through unchartered waters
Before we lose our way again
Will you be my compass until forever?
Until forever ends!?
Knees are weak, hands are shaking, I can't breathe.

I stood up and made my way to the window. Looking out I felt a pang of longing. I could see little kids playing together, happy, carefree. I could see Kiba with Shino and Akamaru playing together. Unburdened, unhated. A little way away from them I saw my unattainable love. Sasuke. My heart skipped a beat.

I watched the man that stole my first kiss (even if it was accidental) and my heart. He sat alone, unusually, even no fan girls surrounded him. He sat, elbows on knees hands in front of his mouth, and he seemed to be scowling a nothing.

I sighed as I watched him, thinking that he was thinking about our practice earlier that day. Even though I loved him with every fiber of my being. I still said such harsh words to him to hide my façade.

I look to the clock on the wall. It told me it was 6:30 pm. I looked back to outside the window, my eyes immediately turned towards my avenger. He was now looking right at me through my window. I sucked in a breath and looked any where but at him. I could feel my blush and could tell my face was red.

All the little kids had now gone home and all the kids in my class were now playing together.

I felt tears tickle behind my eyes. Sasuke suddenly gone from my mind. I couldn't remember a time when I could play so carefree. I couldn't remember a day when I walked down the streets and not had things thrown at me or hatred filled words called at me, a day when I didn't have to put on a happy façade and act as if I was not dead, bleeding, and broken inside.

A tear fell from my eye and I glanced back at Sasuke who was still looking, only now with a confused look on his face. My heart swelled. I turned my back to the window and sat on my bed.

I reached under my pillow and brought out the kunai from under it. For a moment I just looked at it. Old blood stained across the edges. I reached out and pulled the sleeve of my orange sweatshirt up my left arm.

I didn't care. Not tonight. Not right now. I just want it to end. I just want to end it.

I look at my left arm, at all the smallish scars. And I laughed. More tears slip slowly out my eyes.

I pressed the sharp edge against my forearm and I pulled it across with as much force as my shaking hand could manage.

I just want it to end. I am numb to the pain. I don't feel it. Blood gushes out over the kunai and all over my bed.

I smile through the tears coming down my face. I place the kunai over my arm again and with more force I pull the blade again.

It was then that I heard the knock at my door.

Xxx--xxX

Do you spend your days counting the hours your awake.

Or when the night covers the sky you find yourself doing the same.

There's a burden you've been bearing in spite of all your prayers.

As a light turns off inside your heart

Can you remember what it's like to care?

Knees are weak hands are shaking I can't breath…

Xxx--xxX

I still have that odd smile on my face. I look at the door. I put the kunai down and stand. With my right hand I brush my tears away, and my left hand dangles uselessly. I feel the thick blood gush down my forearm. I pull down my sleeve.

I open the door, that odd smile still in place, I look at the person standing there and I feel as if I am a stranger looking at my body from the outside, and I have no control over my body.

There in the doorway stood Uchiha Sasuke.

We stood in silence for a moment. My clock ticked. The blood dripping from my arm that was hid behind my back dropped to the floor. But we stood still.

His forehead creased as he drew his eyebrows together.

"Dobe, mind if I come in." he said not waiting for an answer and walked into the room and then into the kitchen.

Getting dizzy from blood loss I just smiled, happy my love was in my apartment.

I offered him a seat and sat when he did.

"Naruto, I saw you earlier in your window, I thought I saw you crying…are you ok?" he asked looking down as if ashamed that he cared.

I laughed " as if you cared, Teme." I said, almost breathlessly.

"Are you ok?" he asked again looking up concerned, and placed his arm on my shoulder

"Don't touch me!" I yell and jump up and backed away, still smiling that odd smile.

"Naruto, I…" he said as he stood. It was then he saw the blood dripping down my arm. "Naruto…" he whispered and reached for it.

"No!" I yell again, I feel my smile slip, I can no longer hide my pain.

I back up, watching Sasuke who looked like he had been slapped.

"Sasuke. You hate me. You shouldn't care what I do to my body. Please leave." I say and walk back to my room. When I look over my shoulder I see Sasuke in the doorway.

"Dobe. I do care what you do to your body. I have never once hated you." he said as he walked slowly to me.

"No you don't Sasuke, you don't care if I'm happy." I looked down as I said this.

"Naruto…"

"Yeah that's my name you don't need to keep saying it!" I yelled and grabbed the kunai from my bed.

"Dobe," he said and reached out to grab my hand that held my kunai. "Stop. You don't want to do this."

"Yes, I do. I want to die. I want to leave. I know if I de no one would miss me no one would be sad. I could kill myself and no one would give a frick.

I pulled my hand away from his and pulled it across my wrist slicing not only my skin but also my orange sleeve.

"Naruto stop!" he yelled. He jumped forward and wrapped me in his arms.

"Sasuke…" I said my vision started to tunnel and I could tell I was going to pass out. "sorry about getting blood on your shirt." That's the last I remember before I fell limp in his arms.

A/N: If you want to know what happens next, or if you want a nice yaoi scene you need to review. OK i got the 5 reveiws i wanted. But i dont know if I should stay with Naruto's POV. or switch to Sasuke's POV. Tell me what you think.