My Mind


Note – Okay, this is my first attempt at writing a Xenogears Fanfic! I haven't played the game in five years, and I just started playing it again. I know must of the stuff that goes on, but I wouldn't be surprised if there's some discrepancies here and there. You'll just have to bear with that!
On another note, this fanfic is all about Bart, quite possibly the greatest character in the game (Lol...He is pretty cool though, he gets an eyepatch like a pirate! Argh!). Anyways, it deals with the events that led up to him meeting Fei, and everything that happened after that. He doesn't have his eyepatch yet, but that's coming up soon! But just warning you, this isn't yaoi!!! I know sometimes Bart, Fei and others get kinda deep in their discussions, but that's just not the case in this story!!
Well, now that I've had my daily ranting, on with the story!!!
*Please read and review ^^*

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BART!!

Margie...She was crying out for him. But he didn't know where she was, or where he was for that matter. Everything was pitch black around him. Margie's voice echoed throughout the void.

Bart! You said you'd protect me! But I'm trapped now...Why won't you come save me? Why, Bart? Is it because you hate me? Is that it?

"Margie, no!" The young man cried out. "You know that's not true! I'm coming for you! We all are!"

This is the heir to the throne of Aveh?

Bart whirled around, expecting to see someone else. But he was alone in that void. He knew who that voice belong to, however.

"Sigurd...?"

Why do we even bother? You're definitely not king material. You're a disgrace to the Aveh dynasty. You can't even save Margie!

"Sig? What are you talking about? What is all this?!"

You're worthless Bart Margie's voice rang out.

Just give up. You're not worthy of our support Sig's voice chimed in.

Bart couldn't believe his ears. He put his hands to his head, and collapsed to the floor.

"No...it's not true. I'm trying my hardest. I really am. Don't you understand...?" Tears were running from his face.

You're a failure!!

FAILURE!!! BART!!!!

BART!!!!

"BARTHOLOMEW FATIMA!!!!"

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Bart awoke with a start. He was drenched in a cold sweat. He took a deep breath, and sighed, realizing it was just a dream.

"Master Bartholomew, are you alright?" Maison was standing at his bedside.

Bart looked up at him. "Yeah, I'm alright Old Man..."

"You were screaming in your sleep again, young master." Maison replied. "I thought something dreadful had happened to you!"

Bart smiled at the old, kindly man. "Nah, it was just some bad dreams. That's all."

"It wouldn't have to do with the recent capture of your cousin, Marguerite, would it?"

Bart's smile faded. He looked down at his bed, unable to say anything. Instead, he slowly nodded. Maison sat down on the bed beside him.

"Young master, things like this can't be helped. Margie did what she thought was best for her people. Don't blame yourself for it. We will have Margie back."

Bart looked up at Maison. "I know that Old Man, but I wish she would have told me she was leaving. We all could have helped her out. She knows she can't do this on her own."

"Well, maybe your chance to help her out is now." Maison replied. "As soon as we get a detailed strategy and plan worked out, we will start working on how to get Marguerite back as soon as possible. It does not do well to dwell on the things we cannot do anything about, after all."

Bart smiled up at the old man. "Thanks Maison." He replied. "It's nice to know that I can count on you as a friend."

Maison shook his head. "Young master, it is not my duty to be your friend. I am merely your adviser and guardian. As much as I would like to, I cannot take that responsibility. I'm sorry..."

Bart nodded his head. "I know. I think Sig's told me that about 1000 times! But still, you're probably the closest thing I've had to a friend." He suddenly stretched out his arms, and yawned loudly.

Maison laughed at the young master. "It sounds like someone needs to get their rest!"

Bart managed a laugh as well. "Yeah, I guess you're right Old Man."

Maison stood up, and began to walk out of the room as Bart went to lay back down. Before he left the room, Bart sat up.

"Hey Old Man?"

"Yes, young master?"

"Uhm...could you not tell Sigurd and the others about this?"

Maison smiled. "Of course, sir. It'll be our secret."

With that, he walked out of the door. Bart sighed, and he turned on a lamp on his bedside. It partially lit up part of the cabin that he was staying in. Sigurd, Bart and the others had been scavenging around the desert in the Yggsdrasil long into the night, and they decided to spend the night in the Yggsdrasil. Bart looked to his nightstand where he had just turned the lamp on, and grabbed a picture frame.

It was taken 12 years ago, when Bart was only a young boy. He was pictured with his cousin, Margie. Both of them were smiling brightly, and everything about them seemed so peaceful...

Bart put the picture frame back on the bedside. It pained him to look at it. He wanted to help Margie so bad, but there was nothing he could do about it. He just couldn't run into the Royal Castle and snatch Margie away. There were guards everywhere. And it would have put Margie in danger as well. He sighed, feeling for one of the first times in his life, utterly helpless.

He wanted someone to confide in. Someone he could trust, besides Maison and Sigurd. They were so much older than he was, and he knew he could never have a friendly relationship with either one. They were his mentors, after all. It sometimes seemed like such a lonely life. But Bart would never let it show. Before he went to sleep, he had one last person he wanted to speak with.

"Dad? Can you hear me? It's me, Bart. Dad, I know I'm doing what's best for everyone. But I feel so helpless now. I can't save Margie, and I can barely carry on with what I'm doing right now. Filling your shoes seems like too big a responsibility for me. I don't know if I can do it... Give me a sign, Dad. Send me someone, anyone. It's lonely down here, Dad. I miss you and Mom so much. And I have no one... So please...

Help me...