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My name is Mckayla Everdeen, I'm Katniss Everdeen's younger sister, I'm 17 and she's 18, I look like her but I have green eyes, long dark brown hair that's a little bit longer than hers (half way down my back), I hunt just like her I'm good with a bow and arrows, I do gymnastics.

We were on the train heading for the capital. It was me, Katniss, Peeta, Haymitch, Effie, and our stylists Portia and Cinna. I know I know your probably thinking why Katniss is bringing her younger sister with her. It was the victory tour/quarter quell so Katniss said I could come.

Anyways we were in the dining cart of the train and we were just talking and laughing. Peeta and my sister were in conversation with cinna and Portia. They were talking about their outfits or something. I was talking to Effie. Haymitch was over by the window drinking a bottle of whiskey.

Katniss was the kind, beautiful, and girlie type who wore dresses and nice clothes but that was all an act. Where as I was the tomboyish child who wore sneakers, jeans, shorts, tank tops, and t-shirts. Katniss was more proper than I was that's for sure, but she had more training than me. I was proper and all. But I'm just the tomboyish child I am.

Anyways Effie was talking to me, "You know Mckayla, Katniss is way proper and dresses better why can't you be more like her?"

Everyone compares me to my sister, I stood up, pushed my chair back roughly. Everyone had stopped what they were doing and were staring at me. "I am nothing like my sister I know! I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, I'm not talented like her but I'm done being compared to her!"

Before anyone could say anything I ran out and down the train corridors until I was at my room. I slid the door shut, walked to my bathroom, found a razor blade, and held it over my wrist. I looked into the mirror. I saw a helpless girl who can't do anything. A girl who is always compared to the girl who is on fire. After we lost our dad in that mining accident it was hard for me and Katniss. Prim our little sister was too young to remember him. Our mother left us to be in the depths of her mind. She spaced when we needed her. Katniss found a way of getting her mind off of things like hunting. I would go with her but I stopped going out with her after awhile. I wouldn't go out anymore. I'd lock myself in my room and cry for hours. I became depressed to the point where I'd start cutting myself. I've been cutting ever since. But I've learned how to not cut as much I've became happier.

I hoped nobody followed me. I just wanted to be alone and not be bothered. If katniss knew what I was about to do she'd kill me.

===== dining cart =====

Katniss stood up glaring at Effie, "You had to compare her to me didn't you. I better go check up on her."

Cinna stood up as well, "I'll go if you want. I'm done eating anyways. I need to go that way too."

Katniss looked at him appreciatively, "thank you Cinna."

He nodded and left the room. When he left he heard katniss and Effie arguing. He continued walking down the corridor. He got to Mckayla's room and knocked.

No answer.

He tried a couple of times but still no answer.

He finally opened the door. The room was empty there was nobody in there. He looked around and saw the bathroom door cracked open a little. He walked slowly over to the bathroom and said, "Mckayla, are you okay?"

He heard a silent, "shit."

He opened the door and saw blood in the sink and all over the counter. He gasped when he saw the pale white girl with blood slowly coming out of her arm. She looked at him and almost fell. He ran foreword and caught her in his arms. He fixed her arm by putting bandages on it. She was faint in his arms but still awake. She looked into his brown worried eyes while he looked into her sad, teary green eyes. He spoke softly, "I should go get help-"

===== Mckayla's POV =====

I remember the blood freely coming out of my arm. I remember Cinna coming in, I fell but he caught me in his strong arms, I stayed awake though, I looked into his brown worried eyes as he looked into my tear filled green eyes. He spoke softly, "I should go get help-"

"Please don't go get Katniss, she doesn't know that I do this. Just please stay here with me. I-I-I c-c-can't d-do this a-a-anymore."

I was in tears. Cinna held me tightly and whispered into my hair, "I won't I promise. I'll stay all night with you if you want me to."

I nodded and looked into his eyes again. Our eyes locked for awhile. Oh god he has really pretty eyes. Brown eyes with gold flecks in them. The space between us was getting smaller and smaller as we inched our way towards each other.

I feel his breath on my face. Suddenly were kissing each other. His lips were soft and moved well with mine. He was gentle and caring. He would never hurt me like other guys would. He pulled away and pulled me into a hug. He stood up with me in his arms and carried me to my bed. He sat me down and sat by me. He held me in his arms and asked, "Why do you cut yourself?"

I knew I could trust him so I told him. I told him the whole story. He nodded and listened until the end. "Cinna I just feel like I'm a nobody. Everybody expects me to be like Katniss. I'm just Mckayla the little sister of the girl who was on fire. I'm nothing special. I never will be."

He lifted my chin so I looked into his eyes, "Mckayla, you are a beautiful young lady and you are special. You're special to Katniss and Peeta they love you and would never let anything hurt you, Haymitch care for you even though he can be a drunken bastard sometimes, Effie cares about you she just shows it in a different way, Portia adores you."

I had tears in my eyes when he said this. They all cared about me. Effie wasn't trying to be rude she was trying to encourage me to be a little bit better that's all, I shouldn't have snapped at her like that. Then I noticed that Cinna didn't mention if I was special to him.

"What about you, Cinna?"

He grabbed my hand and looked into my eyes, "Mckayla, you are very special to me. You always will be. I care for you as much as I do your sister, just know I'm here for you if you need to talk."

I buried my head into his chest and said, "I know." We sat there for awhile in silence. I could hear is slow heart beat in his chest. His arms around me. I suddenly got up slowly.

"We should probably head back."

He nodded, stood up and grabbed my hand. We walked down the corridor to the dining hall. Right before we entered we released our hands from each other and walked in. I went in first and Cinna had his hand on my back. Everyone was just sitting and talking about somethings.

They all looked up when we entered the room. Katniss stood up and walked over to me. She hugged me. I pulled away and looked at Effie.

"Look I'm sorry I shouldn't have snapped at you like that."

She nodded, "It's perfectly alright and I'm sorry for comparing you to your sister. I'm-"

She was cut off when the train jerked to a stop.

I fell backwards on my butt. I was on the ground when everyone caught there selfs before they could fall.

Peeta asked, "What's happening? Why did we stop?"

Haymitch collapsed from being so drunk, "I don't know bread boy."

Effie looks at all of us, "I'll go ask the conductor."

With that she left. Katniss asked, "Peeta, Portia, Cinna, and Mckayla you alright?"

Peeta nodded, "I'm fine just my leg hurts a little though."

Portia nodded.

Cinna nodded and gave me his hand to help me up. I sighed, rubbing my head, "I'm fine, I just hit my head kinda hard."

Katniss nodded, "Okay so the train stopped and we don't know why."

"Maybe it's low on fuel?" Peeta suggested.

"Maybe it broke down?" Portia asked.

Before anymore questions could be asked Effie came back in with the conductor. Cinna asked, "Why have we stopped." The conductor looked at us grimly, "I'm sorry to say but we broke down and we can't fix the train. I called the capital and they said they can't send anyone out to help fix the train because all the hovercrafts were all destroyed by a explosion that happened a couple days ago. They don't know how long it'll be until they can come get us."

DUN DUN DUN. What will happen Next? please review and tell me what you think will happen next :) thanks for reading once again:)