BEEP BEEP!

I moaned and rolled my face back into my pillow as the alarm clocks beeping grew more annoying. I tired slaming her hand on the clock in hopes of shutting it off, but it continued so i picked it up and threw it on the floor making it stop. I did not feel like getting up today, I was too damn comfortable to do anything today.I figured that maybe I could always give the excuse that the alarm clock didn't go off. I closed my eyes again waiting for sleep , but just when I was almost asleep, the rumble of motorcycles could be heard.

Maybe they will pass by, oh please pass by! it became louder as they went down the street. Then as it was at its loudest the engines shut off. I sighed into her pillow, not getting off that easy. Still i refused to move move, trying to believe that it was all a dream.

BANG BANG BANG!

I jumped at the sudden banging on her door.

"Jesus!" I said loudly, and plopped my head back on the pillow. "no!"

BANG BANG BANG!

"GO AWAY!" I screamed from her bed, not even moving

BANG BANG BANG!

"WHITNEY!"

I sighed loudly into my pillow and threw back my covers. I was wearing purple boy shorts and a white tank top, my curly hair all messed up and tossled, and i really didn't care.

BANG BANG BANG!

"shut the fuck up im coming!" I said walking through the small apartment hallway and to the door. I looked through the peep hole to reveal Jax , Chibs, and Juice standing at the door. I unlocked the three locks on the door and swung the door open. "What?" I said very aggravated

"Wake up sleeping beauty." Jax said with a sly grin on his face.

I didn't reply but simply left the door open and walked to the small kitchenette.

"Get yourself dressed would ya. Its weird seeing my baby cousins boobs hanging out like that." Jax says standing in the hallway with juice. Chibs sets down on the small couch and props his feet on the coffee table. I quickly walked over to Chibs and smacks his feet off the table.

"This aint the clubhouse Chibby." I said. Chibs rolls his eyes at my nick name for him.

I walked back to my room to change. I put on a bra, some old ripped jeans, and a black tank in the mirror and re situate my hair and put on some make up. When I was done I walked out to see Chibs still on the couch , Jax on the other end of the couch and Juice on the kitchen counter looking at the new issue of cosmopolitan I bought the other day. I walked up behind Juice to see what article he was reading. Of course, it would be the one closely related to sex.I smirked and walked towards the door to put my boots on. Juice looks up and smiles.

"Is this what you chicks read?" he said flipping through the pages. I picked up her boots and sat on the floor to put them on.

" I guess. How else am I going to learn?" I say not paying them any attention." By the way… Why do three of you need to be here? In fact why are you here anyways?" I said standing up.

Jax and Chibs stand up, and walk over to her.

"passing by, and Gemma ask us to pick you up."

"Okay… what ever"

I opened the door Chibs and Jax walk out first. Standing there as Juice walks out. He makes funny face at me as he passes and walks out the door making me laugh.

They walked down the set of stairs and to their bikes. ! had no choice but to ride with her cousin Jax. But secretly, I desperately wanted to ride with Juice.

Being Jax baby cousin and Gemma's niece had its perks. I am protected almost all the time by the club members, even though I tried to branch out and got an apartment. Not to far mind you because Jackie through a god damn fit. See, when I was younger my mom died from breast cancer, so Gemma, who is my aunt as well as my god mother, took me in. So you can say I've been around the guys in the club for a long time. I grew up with Jax and Opie. They are my big protective brothers, and I love them to death. I've never been picked on in my life because no one really wanted their face beaten in. Although there was the one boyfriend who I guess didn't know. I still feel bad about that but then again I don't. The guy pretty much sealed his death wish the second he hit me. He avoided me at all costs, which was fine with me. Even though I had big brothers watching out for me, its not to say I grew up weak. Jesus, Gemma practically raised me so come on, you do the math. I was told to not take shit form any girl, and to show them who really runs the shit around here. I was devastated when John Teller died, and when Clay married Gemma, it seemed alright. Clay is super protective of me sometimes, like he took the role of overprotective father. Drives me insane sometimes, but gotta love him. I've got a super soft spot for each and every member of the club. They may be hard asses, but they are a bunch of soft fluffy teddy bears.

This leads me to the whole Juice situation. There is just something about Juice, or Juice box as I like to call him, that I cant quiet put my finger on. I get those stupid butterfly feelings anytime he so slightly brushes against me. But its not like I can tell anyone, without someone finding out, and it would just make Juice's life a living hell. Plus come on now, its basicly and unspoken law that no one ever touch me, or look at me in anyway that is sexual. You'd think I was like 12 but im 21 jesus! Guess it just comes with the territory right? It's a ordeal ive been dealing with for a while. I just cant seem to shake off how I feel.

When we got the garage I got off Jax's bike I watched as Juice pulled in and stepped off his bike. God damnit. I looked for a distraction and saw Tig just standing around. I smiled and walked over to him.

"Hey Tigster!" I said as he rolled his eyes like Chibs had. I walked up to him and punched him on the arm. He simply looked at his arm and then at me, and shook his head.

"Sorry doll, I barely felt it." He chuckled.

I looked at him in disbelief," really? Nothing? Nothing at all?"

He shook his head, " Nope sorry. Keep practicing though."

"Yeah yeah." I said and began walking away. "Any one seen Gemma?" I asked to no one in particular.

"Office" Tig says, and I just smile as a thank you.

Later that day

I was at the Office helping Gemma organize I bunch of papers.

"Something on your mind baby girl?" Gemma says putting some papers down and looking at me. I look back up at her , blowing a piece of hair out of my face.

"What do you mean?"I ask. I really didn't know what she was talking about.

" I don't know, it just seems you got a lot going on up there in your head. Like your thinking a lot about a certain one thing."

I didn't know it showed. The whole feelings for Juice situation has been on my mind and its driving me crazy. I don't know if I should tell Gemma.

"Nothing. Promise." I say completely lying.

"Alright, I you wanna go you can. I Can finish up." Gemma says

"you sure? I can stay…" I offer, even though I really do not want to .

"No, go ahead. Get one of the boys to take you home okay?" Gemma says

"Okay." I bend down and kiss her on the cheek, " see you tomorrow."

"Good night baby." Gemma says and I walk towards the bar. I stop and just decide to look up and the stars for a second taking in the calm breeze and the quiet night. I heard loud noises and laughter coming from inside the bar. Walking in through the door I looked around the room for the most sober member. As much as I loved walking and would love to walk home,I knew if I did that I would be in a lot of trouble. Looking around I saw that most were shit faced or ' busy' at the moment. 'great. Just great!' . I would never make it home now. This is what happens when they come in the morning i have no transportation back to my place. I rubbed her eyes asI saw juice sitting at the bar on his laptop, talking to half sack behind the bar. The only semi sober person was the one person that filled my most dirty thoughts, but I just wanted to go home really. So walking over to them juice noticed me and smiled.

"I thought you left like 4 hours ago " he smirked and raised his eyebrows.

"Nope. But looking for a ride to my place ….." I said looking down at her fingernails.

" hmm, let me put this away in my room and I will take you."

I looked up to a smiling juice and I couldn't help but respond with a light smile. The butterflies in my stomach were basically freaking out. His gestures and witty smiles made me swoon.

I walked outside and stood by the bikes. Suddenly I felt a hand on her lower back that sent shivers up my back and looked to the left. It was Juice. DAMN HIM! .

"ready?" he asked letting go and getting on his bike and handing me an extra helmet. I took the helmet putting it on and got behind juice grabbing extra tight around his waist just to be a little bit closer to him without it being weird.

Juice had walked me to my door to make sure I made it in unlocking to door I turned to look at him. "Thanks for taking me home Juice box." I said and leaned in and kissed him on the cheek ( first time ever). As I pulled away he lightly touched my hand and smiled ,but it faded. I raised my eyebrow to him and let go.

"See ya tomorrow." And with that he back away.

I looked around my room. I hated going to sleep all alone, and out of frustration I kicked my sofa, then retreated back to my bed room.